Anger…

I’m filled with so much.

I have to go see the wheel chair ot tomorrow and i really don’t want to cause 1. I don’t want it to be highlighted more the obvious thing I require a wheelchair at present. 2. I don’t want to go back to rabiu though tomorrow is not rabiu directly it’s a related building near so it will bring back related feelings and memories of crap! Those are times I’m trying to forget. Too bad I still have some memory of rabiu (some of which I would like to forget) and reminds me of how I’ve lost memory of an important year I wish I could remember (my graduation and engagement)

Why is life sometimes like this? No one really understands it. But I’ve never really understood the saying ‘life’s not fair’ but I think get it now it’s really not! I totally get it and it makes no difference if you’re a lovely, kind person who tries if you are gonna get into bother you’ll fall into it even if you try and fight it. Whatever will be will be!