http://www.youtube.com/watch Wake me up when it’s all over…

Read More Wake me up…

Got such a lovely visit from my old boss from a few years ago when I worked in Springvale Employment and Learning! She made the much appreciated effort of coming today with her daughter. I passed on the painting I did for her and we said we need to get a trip out again soon!

Read More Wonderful visit!

I wanted a nice outfit today as I’m getting a visit from my old boss (not my last job my job previous to that job) so I choose this outfit but even though I like it I told mum I felt skinny fat! I never really felt like this before, I thought you were thin […]

Read More Skinny Fat!

Tonight got a lovely lash lift!

Read More Luxurious Lashes!

Following up from my last blog post about tan, if you’re not into beauty treatments you might wanna leave now… my lovely beautician did a eyebrow tint and lash lift! And she also brought her wee dog Missy along for the adventure!!!

Read More Today was a ‘fix yourself up’ kinda day!

I think I’m looking quite fresh with just tan and no makeup!! It’s the stuff you leave on over night so I hope I don’t end up looking like an oompah-loompa when I wake up tomorrow!! 😆

Read More Feeling fresh

As you may know (not sure if I have told you on this before) I have zero memory of my last employment as I was only there a few months before this horrendous crash. It was a very big auctions company in Northern Ireland! James sent me this picture today and I didn’t even notice […]

Read More Evidence!!

I’m actually so overjoyed! Got myself out the car TWICE with NO assistance and once in with VERY LITTLE help! It’s all coming together nicely, slowly but surely!! Need to keep my eyes on prize…hopefully walking by Christmas so that can be everyone’s present…so I can keep the purse shut!! 😝😎…joking or am I?!🧐

Read More Great success!

Don’t listen to Eminem…

Read More Don’t lose yourself

Linda and I were talking this morning! She is kindly going to be my typist on the computer for my book as I only have one working hand and it would be quite crap if I tried to do it…it might be ready in 7 years with my hand typing and then my potential audience […]

Read More Short and sweet!

Forget what I said about eating well…obviously I didn’t this weekend at all, dominos last night, Thai tonight… tut tut you bad girl…I suppose as I’ve said before about eating bad food…you only live once after all..! I should try and defend even slightly by saying it was from Camile https://order.camile.co.uk/location Which is (as healthy […]

Read More Never mind Saturday night takeaway, actual Sunday night takeaway…

At least no one minds cause it helps move me home quicker! 1. Its good for James cause he gets company and someone to slabber at! Oj James is anything but a slabber, but I will happily help him look after the house and stuff. And 2. It means Linda gets her life back! Which […]

Read More More cleaning and sorting!

Today James, Linda and I are going down to mine and James’s again to try and do more cleaning. I’m actually over joyed that it’s means it’s closer to me going home permanently! ❤️

Read More Going down to clean a bit more!

No not the show by Ant and Dec literally just what James and I did tonight! Dominos pizza was on the cards! Excuse the face in the photo. No makeup and I look like a big chub who has pizza everyday…I really don’t! But that’s what we did this evening. Sat outside and had dominos! […]

Read More Saturday night takeaway!

Went down to my house with mum to help James sort out the house after the builders had been in. So James had lifted me up the stairs so I could inspect as he and mum were cleaning/putting blinds up again etc. I seriously conquered the descent! I walked down the whole stairs with James […]

Read More Dominated descent!!

My wonderful friend Jennie does my nails! And she is spectacular at it. Today she made a spectacular job. I asked for a wee heart ♥️ on my ring finger. She didn’t have a heart sticker so she drew a wee heart on in different colours I selected! It came out so lovely! I told […]

Read More Loving these nails!

Too right! 🤘🏼

Read More You’re a badass!

Need to remember you are learning all the time. It’s good I love learning new things. This probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do (and hopefully will ever have to do). Relearning how to ‘be me’ (in inverted commas)

Read More Life is for learning after all!

Linda used this expression this morning as I was saying as usual I was in my depths of despair…she just said at the right time ‘your the phoenix rising from the ashes.’   It made me feel better anyway even though it’s totally fictional things…  

Read More phoenix rising from the ashes…

Today at BIM we had a wee goodbye party for the arts officer Christine who is moving employment. She has done a brilliant job! I really appreciate everything that goes on in BIM. Painted a picture to thank Christine too…

Read More Thursday morning party!

😀 The lovely @christopherbarrphotograpy and I. Chris took a class for BIM last year which I loved and it tied in well with my love for art so I wanted to mark how his class had been so therapeutic and special for me in the early days of BIM. So to mark how important it […]

Read More Lovely visit!

just cause someone is in a wheelchair (like I am most of the time) doesn’t mean they can’t walk at all. So don’t assume what people can and can’t do! It’s a horrible thing when people assume what you can and can’t do. It can make you feel so small. https://www.headway.org.uk To learn more check […]

Read More Headway lesson…

Stolen from @katiepiper_ so true. Can’t let this experience sink me.

Read More Don’t be a sinker.

And walk the walk… Linda made the point this morning, ‘Rebekah you could always talk the talk!’ (because since I was a little girl no one could shut me up!) ‘now we just need you to walk the walk too and we’ve cracked it!’

Read More Talk the talk…

As usual woke up in a bad place. Will this ever stop? …stop right now, thank you very much…

Read More Shite at 07.36.

Today’s brain injury art for the arts officer at BIM who is leaving to say thank you for all she done with the group in the past year! I wish her all the best for her new job!

Read More Art for an artist!

I feel like I just don’t know how to live anymore. This memory came up on Facebook again today. It’s been what I’ve shared two years running. Memory I have shared for the past 2 years. Makes me SO sad 😭 this pain seems to be never ending 😢

Read More Horrendous times.

Linda must have encouraged the oddness from a young age. The only one in my p2 class (age 5/6) in a cardigan! At least I’m used to being the odd one out! Will help me out with ‘the odd tbi girl’ habits. Always odd but what a cute wee chubbers! 🍪🍦🍬🍫😎 But actually I’m feeling […]

Read More Always odd but I can own it!

Yesterday was lovely little Ayla’s Christening! 🙂 And after we had a smashing family wee do (as we say in norn ireland) or in other words you will understand no matter where you’re from a family party!

Read More Another party!

Tonight was down at granny’s house for uncle tremendous Thomas’s birthday! Great evening! But remarkable uncle Thomas even cooked the birthday dinner! It was lovely and all great vegan food!

Read More Popping birthday party!

Funny I wasn’t thinking about this intentionally but last nights blog about patting yourself on the back could really be connected to this one… it may seem small but this happened today in physio… I stood by MYSELF from the chair. Woohoo! I appreciate that probably doesn’t sound like much but it’s a big deal […]

Read More I’m patting myself on the back!

…a win is still a win! Pat yourself on the back and say well done…

Read More No matter how tiny…

Damn auto correct! 😂 I would only take that from the brilliant uncle I always go on about.

Read More Laughing as usual!

Had a lovely afternoon with my uncle Thomas. He was sad cause I had a gin and he didn’t!! It’s his birthday on Saturday so we might have a party! And if you’re very nice you might get invited 😂 here’s another he took when we were outside yesterday!

Read More Yesterday in the sunshine

I may be on this journey of recovery, I may be getting better (much better than I was when I started) but I think the way I would describe it I may be getting way better, the mourning of the old me (me prior to this experience) is in the process. Cause I am mourning […]

Read More Grief of me

When I was in BIM today I was speaking with a friend I made there. He’s a lovely guy who had had a stroke very young. I was asking him about his hands and he told me he had a ‘kung fu grip’ which I can totally relate to! Like me he could grip stuff […]

Read More Kung fu grip

After the feeling crappy as highlighted in the last blog we went down to granny’s… as usual uncle T gave me the laugh I needed without even saying anything… he took a photo of me sitting a wrote a message on it and cracked me up…. Obviously my tan was too much in his eyes…🙄😝…

Read More The laugh I needed…

Physio Victoria was here this morning for a session! I have 2 more before she goes on holiday so I’m happy that it’s not the last one before her trip! But the point of this morning was so she could show Kathryn/talk her through the exercises and stretches I need to work on for walking! […]

Read More Happy as usual!

Panicking about the 3 peaks challenge James and Gareth are presently doing for brain injury matters (BIM) The total walking distance is 23 miles (37km) and the total ascent is 3064 metres (10,052ft) – twice the ascent of the Yorkshire Three Peaks, over a similar total walking distance. Again what heroes!

Read More 1.00

My two Uncles called up tonight and brought me beautiful gifts! Thank you very much 😊

Read More Lovely gifts!

As you probably know I go to a swimming teacher who deals with neuro stuff as well as working as an ordinary swimming teacher. Her and I always have a laugh and it’s something I really enjoy and look forward to every week. I’m not going swimming for 2 weeks as she is going on […]

Read More Happy Yellow!

My love is going to do 3 peaks for brain injury matters ❤️ https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/james-bim Can’t thank enough for the hero you are!

Read More Forever my hero

Today went out to the lovely hotel La Mon https://www.lamon.co.uk which is very close to mums! It was a lovely day full of love, memories and celebration!

Read More 94 and 65!!

Sometimes support is all that’s needed!

Read More Mental health support

James said this wee saying to me tonight cause I had just said out loud “I don’t even know were my home is anymore.” He is really not just a pretty face! Knows the perfect thing to say and the right time.

Read More Home is where the heart is.

My grandparents have reached their 65 year wedding anniversary! So they received a card from the Queen! Don’t how what they have done to get there but they have done something right! And they are still very much in love 😍 it’s so cute!

Read More Wow!

I feel like I’m constantly on a rollercoaster. Climbing up to a high point and tumbling down. I get that some people are thrill seekers and like them but not me! I don’t find them unenjoyable. It’s sort of like this brain injury experience. Being frightened/surprised/uncertain and that’s what being on this brain injury ride […]

Read More Brain Injury is up and down and up and down…

But let’s go back to Friday night! Such a wonderful evening with Sophie and Kate! ❤ We went to the crown plaza hotel for a drink and a generally good time! There is always a great evening to be had there and there’s a lovely musician of some kind preforming chilled tunes to help you […]

Read More I know it’s Saturday…

Tonight had a superb night with outstanding company. As it was a Friday, the ‘spectacular Sophie’ was there and I also got the wonderful company of the ‘kracking Kate’ Was such a lovely evening and was extra special as i won’t see Sophie for two weeks as she is away on holiday! I hope she […]

Read More Fantastic Friday night!

Very slowly but surely I’m on the way back to my old self. I’ve done a blog related to this before about going up to a size 12 in hospital and when I got home first and a few weeks ago I did a blog about fitting into my pre-accident size 10. But fitting into […]

Read More Going back slowly but surely!

You’re stronger than you realise. People don’t realise their strength til they have to use it. Prime example for me is my mum. People always thought Linda was ‘a push over’ but they were wrong. Linda is a tough cookie when she wants to be!

Read More You’re stronger than you realise

This can be hard to do…

Read More Take a backseat sometimes.

Today I had my swimming lesson which i go to every week and love! My swimming teacher who specializes in neuro stuff I was with today and we were having a discussion about how your mood effects your body. I wasn’t in a good mood today and my left leg was being a wee b*tch. […]

Read More Think yellow!

Not really it was quite calm and chilled, it’s just crazy to know it’s been 8 years! And we have had are fair share of ups and downs… buying a house at 21 for me (baby), loads of exams, a uni graduation, loads of holidays, weddings, births in the family, adventures, a proposal, a horrendous […]

Read More Anniversary anarchy!

If you have been following me on this journey you’ll know my favourite therapy is physio ❤ but though it’s not really doing anything for my body (like physio, ot or speech) it’s majorly massaging my mind and creativity into place. Art Therapy! Today piece is New York!

Read More The 2nd best therapy: ART!

James and I are together 8 years today! So happy I can say that. He’s actually unbelievable sticking through all this stuff. I’m not gonna keep going on and on about it last thing I’m gonna say he has really earned my heart forever so James my heart is yours forever.

Read More 8 years!

This tbi is like venom. A horrible, controlling parasite. 🦠 Watching this film with the handsome Tom Hardy in it about his character getting infected by a evil parasite. To me the tbi could be the evil parasite in this film. Venom actually says the line ‘I AM IN YOUR HEAD’ The film is just […]

Read More Venom

“When the mountain looks like a challenge too big, shift your focus to a few steps” I think this quote fits in quite well considering James is very close to his 3 peaks challenge (what an unbelievable star going to literally step up to this challenge for me who can’t yet walk BIM https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/james-bim) I’m […]

Read More Mountain climbing.

This video is on same you’s Instagram and I know it’s about stroke but I find it interesting cause it relates to brain injury (of some kind) View this post on Instagram Today The Stroke Association published the first chapter of their largest ever survey – The Lived Experience of Stroke. Over 11,000 stroke survivors […]

Read More Same you .org.

I went to IT today at Cedar. I really enjoy it. The IT tutor and I were talking about the future learn courses I’m studying at the moment. Future learn is free, online, university short courses. I’m really enjoying it at the moment. I’m actually thinking now I’d really like to go back to university […]

Read More Going back to uni…eventually!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2Cti12XBw4&feature=share I really liked maroon 5 when I was like 14/15. Haven’t listened to them but this Sunday morning I listened to ‘Sunday morning’ and I still think they were an epic band at the time. Anyway this Sunday morning I had a lovely morning just mum and I ❤️ Also probably predictable but on […]

Read More Sunday morning!

Was clearing out some drawers today in my parents study and came across this! I just think it highlights the quality of friendship I had in school when I left (to give you some background I was in the same class as Chris from 1st to 5th year and then I moved school to do […]

Read More Memories!

Last night we attended a family get together/party. It was so lovely 😊 James’ aunt and uncle were 40 years married so there was a lovely family surprise party for them! And I think it’s a special time as James’s mum and dad met at their wedding! It was such a lovely night, I really […]

Read More Lovely Celebration!

Thank you! My shower scrunchie knows right! 😆😛

Read More Queen of awesomeness

As always my wonderful greatest show women ot Friday Friday friend Sophie was here! Tonight she directed/guided me to do spectacular acts with my (not very obedient) left hand!

Read More Predictable for a Friday!

I’m so happy to feel muscle ache in my (weak) left leg! I get that sounds weird that I’m happy to have discomfort but im so pleased that it means I got that thigh muscle engaged. I think it was working hard when I was cycling in BIM yesterday.

Read More Muscle ache

Today’s brain injury art I love painting so much! Not that I think I’m very good or anything but I wonder could I make a career out of this and never have to go back to work…🙄

Read More Lewis Capaldi!

Today at BIM was very good: quizzes, tea/coffee and the main thing EXERCISE!! Had a great work out on the bike today! I walked in from the main room to the gym were I then climbed onto a proper bike (though lucky it was stuck to the ground or I would have ended up across […]

Read More Cycle your way home and back.

Not everyone will understand, don’t worry.

Read More Lovely description

Fact!! So emotional!! Happy and sad. Good and bad! James and I were joking around this morning you know the way dj say things like ‘make noise and put your hands up in the air’ the one for dj rebbers would be ‘everyone cry out and let’s be totes emotes together. YEAH!!!!’

Read More My names dj rebbers and I’m Totes Emosh!

Your balance is so necessary. You couldn’t do anything with out good balance. So tonight physio was working on my balance I managed to stand by myself with my hand up by the bannister not really holding on. I walked a wee bit up the hall holding on to the bannister too! I really enjoyed […]

Read More Back to balance

I did the the handsome ginger chimp today! But I stopped before adding the glasses because I was a bit scared of ruining it! 😯 Intelligent (uncle) Thomas calls him the ginger chimp. It’s in a loving, affectionate way though because chimps are intelligent and can use tools in the closest way to humans – […]

Read More Today’s painting! The lovely ginger chimp!

I may have put this up before not sure but it was suppose to end up here anyway!

Read More End up here anyway!

My auntie sent me a lovely message when she saw the last blog of me standing at beside the bannister. She said: It was so nice to read that when I received it. I could of (happily) cried. I really need to remember to stand tall at this point I think this is the hardest […]

Read More Family affection ❤

I’ve got to remember I need to convince my mind I WILL DO THIS!

Read More Get your head in the game

….I’m still standing…

Read More I’m still standing…

Free standing totally alone. No one near me supporting me or anything! Wee sonny and Lola came out to see first hand. The walking is hopefully close, Victoria had me consciously trying not to over use my right leg cause though it’s my dominant leg the left leg can’t get use to not working and […]

Read More No help!

Abi = acquired brain injury that’s what I have an abi. So I wondered what exactly the definition of acquired was so I went and asked my friend google for the exact meaning… I think this sounds way more positive than it actually is. Win… who wants win a brain injury? Same goes for gain […]

Read More ABI – ACQUIRED

Once I had moved out of home for the first time at 20, then James and I bought our house when I was 21 I never thought I’d be back home (at my parents) It was going along lovely until that dreaded Sunday when I was 24 and a half. It’s all been down hill […]

Read More 20/21

Mum needed to go to the local shopping center to get a few things so I went with her to get a few things. But I didn’t venture out of the car cause though this is one of the ventures I’ll need to do a lot in the future, going out to the shopping center. […]

Read More Trip out with mum.

🎶Saturday night, and I like the way you move🎶…actually I hate my lack of movement, bloody tbi, ruining everything at this present time.

Read More Hardly singing this…

Being treated like a queen tonight. It’s Saturday night so it’s usually the fun party night but what better than having a date night with your beautiful man! 😍❤️ James cooked his speciality an absolutely gorgeous Thai green chicken curry!

Read More ❤️❤️❤️

I’m at a point at the moment were I’m sinking in to negativity. I’ve been involuntarily dipping my toes in the sea of sadness for a few weeks but now I’ve started to sink and I just don’t know how to swim right now. Swimming towards satisfaction is a struggle at this at this moment […]

Read More Dipping

I just woke up and cried. Not an ideal way to start your day. I’m just feel like I’m spiralling down a deep hole of sadness.

Read More When will this end?

This evening Physio was brilliant! I am surprising Victoria and myself. Tonight was practicing balance! I managed successfully to stand by myself! As I have said before these things sound so basic but it’s so crazy all the trouble with the ‘basics’ you have to deal with when you injure your brain. I was leaning […]

Read More Surprise surprise!

I used to like writing poetry. But I have not written any since Trevor. This is my first and it’s called NORMALITY By Rebekah Nesbitt Everything is not normal Everything has changed. My life is not how I remember it, Not how I assumed it would be, What is normal? I don’t know anymore. I […]

Read More Normality

Today I made something that was a weekly thing at mine and James’s. A Jamie Oliver pasta recipe! I’ll make it when you come round 😉😊 it’s so lovely!

Read More Cooking again!

Haha uncle T and I have a wonderful relationship I think. He always makes me laugh 😂 And today is no different. I always say I’m pmsl at what he says. But today he was quicker than me. He said phsl (piss herself laughing) for me at the right moment! Followed by this picture saying […]

Read More PHSL

‘when every instinct told us to be at our worst we were at are best’ A line from the series New Amsterdam series 1 episode 17. This is a new series (predictably like my favorite series like greys anatomy it’s in a hospital too) you would think after spending 11 months in hospital involuntarily I […]

Read More when every instinct told us to be at our worst we were at are best

I was feeling a little down and physio usually helps me and tonight it didn’t fail! Queen V is like my superhero We spoke about how when I first got home I couldn’t even stand up by myself and how now it just me and the steady. Soon we hope it will just be the […]

Read More Trust the process!

This was put up on a brain injury artist page and I love it! Even Rebroken is arty interpretation of writing Rebekah I think.

Read More Re:BROKEN

I’m doing future learn through training at cedar foundation (the brain injury charity to help people with brain injury and autism and other conditions to get into the work place). The IT tutor has got me into future learn (https://www.futurelearn.com) I completed two courses and still seem to have the first class honor brain I […]

Read More Future learn!

Read More Even when it feels like you’re not

My very kind godmother got my mum a lovely dress and top and me a lovely handbag!

Read More Fashion show!

I feel fresh today! I don’t seem to get hangovers anymore!! Yay! Something good that Trevor took away. He may have annoyingly took away my ability to walk but it seems he also took away the ‘ability’ (or maybe lack of ability) to have hangovers! I think I need to remember I’m capable of a […]

Read More No Hangover!

I saw this on a brain injury page and I wonder is it a brain injury thing that people don’t cut themselves slack? I try not to!

Read More Trying

I had an absolutely lovely night last night with Kate and Sophie. Went to Neil’s Hill for dinner. It was so good. Highly recommend. The food and cocktails were so nice. https://neillshill.com Then we went to Sophie’s house and the craic continued! The girls were so good. As soon as we reached Sophie’s I was […]

Read More Unreal night!

http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/Z1waL65aMOQ Really… WHO WANTS TO LIVE FOREVER…

Read More Forever is our today.

This evening Linda and myself went for drinks with two lovely ladies I used to work with.

Read More Review of tonight!

…if you’re not already… tonight I’m going out for drinks with two ladies I used to work with…so Angela and Michelle made their job today to get me ready! 🙂 Angela did her excellent professional makeup today and Michelle took up her well practiced career as hairdresser! Ready for the gin and tonics to be […]

Read More You’re gonna be sick of me soon…

I feel like I’m being pushed around not just physically. I frigging hate being pushed around in the wheelchair so so much. And I feel this whole situation is pushing me around emotionally too.

Read More Being push around

Had a lovely evening in binkys coffee shop in dundonald with Andy and Emma. It’s such an weird coincidence in this strange situation, I don’t think you could write it! Emma, Andy wife was in my class in high school and Andy was two years above me so strange that we were involved in traffic […]

Read More Binkys Belfast!

I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore. It’s a horrible way to feel.

Read More Don’t know

I think the universe got me mixed up with someone else… 😂 Yo universe you got some stuff right, I’m all for ‘personal growth’ but in a normal way not so extreme as this…

Read More Yo you heard wrong…

Today is granny’s birthday! So we went for lovely afternoon tea at the lovely La Mon hotel and country club https://www.lamon.co.uk was beautiful and it meant granny had a wonderful birthday as a lot of the family were there. Me, mum/Linda, James and dad/Robert were there and auntie Valerie (Mums sister) and her son Aaron […]

Read More Florrie’s Birthday!

If you set some things down it will be much easier to lift the weight of tbi… This is not a strong man competition.

Read More Lighter load

I usually feel rubbish but I’m trying to pick myself up now. I really cant wait until I can go on a sunny holiday again! I don’t think it will be this summer…let’s be realistic…let’s aim for summer 2020.

Read More Feeling up…

I understand everyone thinks their grandad is amazing and I’m just the same! Best way I could spend a Saturday afternoon now with this old fella ❤️

Read More Unreal!

You only get one chance at you! So you have to make the most it, no matter what the hand of life has dealt you!

Read More You only get one shot at you

Lovely visit from Dympna who was in the brain injury unit with me and her partner. It’s strange because I really am glad I met her but I’m not glad that we both had brain injuries. I actually feel kind of annoyed. Why the heck were we punished by these events? Dympna and I 💗

Read More Glad but gutted!

My little Lola must be feeling more boisterous than usual! She doesn’t normally play with toys by herself but this morning the times changed! She pleasantly surprised Linda and I by going to get her slipper of her own accord and running about with her slipper!

Read More Lovely little Lola!

Tonight BIM and Headway had organised a Barbecue they held it at Cutters Wharf (a lovely wee bistro bar situated on the River Lagan.) https://www.cutterswharf.co.uk

Read More BIMs wonderful bbq!

After my last blog being quite positive I’ve gone the totally opposite way. Instead of waking up ‘This a new day! :)’ I seem to fall into a deeper pit of hopelessness/depression every morning. I’m just writing this down to try and pick my mood up, not depress you. I feel good when I write […]

Read More Turmoil

With brain injury you’ve got to have perseverance perseverance: persistence in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving.

Read More Perseverance

Today I had to go back to the brain injury unit for a look at my splints (afos) So my lovely pa Michelle came with me and mum and then we all called past my grandparents! It was so good to see them 🙂 Michelle, mum and I took a wee walk out the back, […]

Read More Reflection…

My uncle is hilarious I think. Or maybe we just have the same humour…. just got sent this…

Read More Haha!

Read More Destination Addiction

I’ve written about her before. My hospital bff! Well I painted her a mini version of the picture I did for my BIM and I received this today! What a compliment she has chosen to display it in her brain injury group!! 🙂

Read More Again hospital bff!

I went to the cedar open/coffee morning and it was wonderful, it really encourages brain injured people to get back to life, work, education etc. I got into a lovely chat with a man who works there. I talked to him and I think we really connected! (Or maybe that’s just one sided from my […]

Read More A lovely morning!

That’s what I’m gonna do forever with these glasses 👓. Tbi give me dodgy eye sight so the need for glasses. Well instead I’m just dress up as a secretary everyday and pretend it’s my favourite time of year – Halloween!! And forget all my problems!

Read More Dress up and forget all your problems.

James and I had a lovely evening in the crowne plaza shawsbridge Good service and good food. All round good. Also I think when you’ve been going out for quite a few years you can easily lose the excitement of first dates and it can just become routine. I feel like we are going through […]

Read More Out on a good old date night

Even when life is a challenge and everything feels like a test life is always better with a smile 😊

Read More As happy as I can be…

I’m sure you all know the fairy tale princess and the pea. Well now I’m wondering could she have anything like a tbi?! Cause this tbi has made me so sensitive to everything. So I could be princess and the pea version two but it would maybe like ‘the princess and the smartie’ cause I […]

Read More The princess and the pea

I really like this new name. My uncle sent me an email stating ‘why don’t you relaunch rebroken as Rebekreation! I like this name reflecting that I’m rebuilding myself so this is a new way I may refer to this sometimes but it still original Rebroken most of the time! I feel this photo represents […]

Read More Rebekreation

To follow up from the last blog the afternoon tea was beautiful! If you are in Belfast area I would highly recommend here (La Mon) for anything, afternoon tea, food in general, accommodation, gym and swimming! https://www.lamon.co.uk

Read More Reporting back!

Getting ready to head out for afternoon tea with two of my lovely friends! I’ll hopefully have more to say on that later but this post is to say how lucky I am Angela is a pa. She helped me out with my makeup for heading out for afternoon tea. In my opinion you can’t […]

Read More Afternoon tea!

Everyone who reads this must expect a Friday night post about my wonderful ot friend Sophie ❤️ Well tonight is no different, her and the lovely Kate came to see me. Sophie collected the picture I painted for her of her Mac!

Read More My wonderful friend…

I ordered sonny and lola cute wee cushions 🙂 Lola loves hers! 💕

Read More Lovely little Lola

Was obviously trying to be a wee bear when I was out with my cousin! ❤️ She was obviously trying to be nuts! She doesn’t have to try too hard – she’s mad anyway!! (In a good way)

Read More Cute wee ears!

I just need to start believing it.

Read More Message I love ❤️

Queen V and I had a fantastic session! Sketching and I walked outside 🙂 out the front door so pleased with what we managed today! I read this on Facebook as it was put up by my old boss. It’s a brilliant explanation for life living when having to relearn the basics!

Read More Standing outside!!

I have got really bad clonus in my leg!! So I’m back to standing hopefully that will make it stop. Stood for 1 hour 10 minutes. Hopefully will help the clonus. It’s so annoying. That’s one of the MANY annoying things to do with brain injury. You’re left with a very irritating , involuntary movements!

Read More Back to standing…

Walked into the kitchen to make tonight’s dinner! It’s the Jamie Oliver pasta that was a weekly dish in the Nesbitt/Anderson house hold. So should be good I’ve had enough practice! When you come round I’ll make you it! 😜

Read More Come round!

I have been crying this morning. I feel like this might be over sharing but at the same time this is my escapism writing here. I have been crying this morning. I am supposed to be married now and I thought i might be thinking kids at this stage. But I never imagined I would […]

Read More Warning: depressing post

Tonight with my physio queen we were trying to interpret being a duck! Quack quack!! Good posture but sticking your bum out a little when you when walking to keep you balanced. You do this kind of thing naturally and without thinking to get your balance!

Read More The duck

These photos are from 2015. We were having a party for mum and dads (very impressive) 40th wedding anniversary! Such a long time! So impressive! I better remember (but I’ll probably struggle with the not so good memory) to ask them their secret!

Read More Woah 40 years!!!

I made up this phrase up today when talking about something you are trying to get… ‘You never know what you’re gonna be able to get. If you don’t reach high you won’t get the best apples!’ It’s like everything I say I relate to brain injury. If I don’t reach high I won’t get […]

Read More If you don’t reach high…

Linda cooked a beautiful Bombay Chicken thing tonight. I don’t really know why I’m doing this blog just thought it came out lovely. It makes me really want to get back in my favourite place soon, the kitchen 🙂 hopefully over the coming weeks/months I’ll do more blogs in the kitchen! I’ll start with simple […]

Read More Linda’s Pot Roast Bombay Chicken!

Started the Netflix original After Life, it seem good. In episode 1 this was said and I really liked it. Found it quite relatable. “Life throws you these interesting little things, can’t feel sorry for yourself, you have got to keep going.”

Read More After life

Today me and Linda (mum) went up to her good friends house who happens to be our neighbour! It was a lovely afternoon! And I managed to walk in with the assistance of mum and our neigbour! 🙂

Read More Sunday outings!

Me before my trackie scar and me now I have it. I think it’s harder cause a lot of tops for fashion are sometimes lower and v neck. Also you don’t think you’ll have to pick your wedding dress etc on if it covers up your trackie scar. On the other hand what a wonderful […]

Read More Grateful but dislike

Family ❤ Before all this nonsense I wouldn’t have thought the best way to spend my Saturday evening was at my grandparents but now it’s perfect:) Such an ideal way to spend a Saturday night instead of rolling around the town off my face!! Not that there’s anything wrong with that!! I’ll hopefully be back […]

Read More The best way to spend your Saturday!

Hard wouldn’t be the word for it 😦

Read More Some days are just harder.

I’m sorry for putting these videos on a lot of my blog posts and probably boring you…but then again I suppose this blog is for my recovery, so why am I apologizing?!?

Read More The usual update!

My granny (that I have talked about before is called Florrie) and I’m also a game of thrones fan so I thought I’d share this. It’s a YouTube video of Sophie Turner and Masie Williams talking about being in game of throne (which was filmed in Northern Ireland) If you know Belfast there’s a (newish) […]

Read More Granny Florrie’s

I always loved to get a slush puppie as a kid But right now I’m feeling very sloppy (soppy) like one! This is a photo of James and I a few years ago (my stupid memory is stopping me to relate to exactly where!) The love of my life ❤️ (this brain injury has definitely […]

Read More Soppy slush puppie!

In physio tonight the walking was brilliant and physio said it was good i was naturally taking normal size strides. After brain injury sometimes people ‘shuffle’ and can’t bring the legs forward in normal average strides, so it’s great I can take normal strides like your average joe. It’s just stability now so I don’t […]

Read More 7 weeks – hopefully success!

I know that’s a really bad joke to make, and now I’ve said it and thought about it I know it not a laughing matter but just try and see the funny side of this…

Read More Tbi2 coming up!

My fabulous uncle who I’m always writing about went to a place near were we were staying at near portaferry and it was a healing site. ‘St. Cooeys Wells’ You could write the name of person you want to heal or what you want healed on something and leave it down there to let the […]

Read More My fabulous uncle again!

My mood.

Read More 😦

Today was swimming, as always I loved it and I was making progress in all directions! Walking forward, backwards, left and right! I can really feel/see many improvements. The instructor said she was barely holding me at some points. I’m gonna be Ariel again yet!

Read More Hitting goals!

‘Being human’ I don’t even identify with that anymore.

Read More “Fuck it”

My mum helps me get a shower in the morning but I’m the one who is supposed to have the bad memory with this brain injury not Linda. But this morning it was roll reversal! I wasn’t Rebekah anymore Linda decided my name was now Lola! She called me Lola by mistake!

Read More Lola!

Most important – never doubt it.

Read More Most important

My two wee chihuahuas ❤️ mum and dad brought them up to see me in the hospital carpark christmas 2016 😊

Read More My wee babies ❤️

Through this brain injury business I’ve learnt so much. On lots of topics, eg. food, mood, how certain things in the body work… but I also had to battle something like emotions, abilities, having to adjust to this new life/existence, keeping your mind on goals and not letting negative thoughts defeat me…

Read More Every day is a school day!

I have put these blogs in reverse but last night was so brilliant before it got gross. My uncle who is over from England invited over some of his lovely friends 🙂 they had rented a lovely wee house down the ards peninsula so we all had a lovely night there 🙂

Read More Before it got gross

Except for physio – they get an exception. This morning standing by myself working on balance!!

Read More Nobody puts baby in the corner

I never thought I had a favourite day of the week but now I think Friday is a strong contender. Today was brilliant because not only did I have my Queen Vic as usual I had a lovely visit from the original queen Carrie Spence who knew her reign of ruling was coming to an […]

Read More Fabulous Friday

AFOs Big horrible things I have to wear to stretch my calves but I picked nice girly flower pattern so you would know a girly person wears them anyway!!

Read More Horrible but flowery!

‘If the person is not eating well because of their injury then the additional calories required for healing cannot come from immediate food. It must be the body’s stores. This means a healthy person from before the wound occurred can have a large effect on healing. If the outcomes from a persons body stores are […]

Read More Health stood by me

Read More Don’t expect anything!

All these blog post are getting very samey about missing the old me etc. But it’s cause I really do and realise now how much I took for granted. So to any one reading this just think about what you have and what you can do whether it’s talents you have (languages, music, sports etc) […]

Read More Version 2…same as before…

Its a gift to my friend (Sophie who is the helpful OT I always talk about) and her husband of their dog called Mac. Hope they like it i just love painting. 🙂

Read More I’m very pleased with today’s art!

This picture (if it works – it keeps failing to upload) was 7 years ago. Didn’t have the faintest idea about brain injuries and how they can destroy people.

Read More Ignorance is bliss.

Read More Mental health is important

I promise you, brother the sun will shine on us again.” — Loki Odinson Said in avengers infinity war and I believe it. The sun will shine on us (my life) again.

Read More The sun will shine on us again

Tonight was a fantastic evening. Went for dinner and drinks with my ‘not so cousin’ cousin – to explain she is my mums best friend who is my godmother – Her daughter! Drinks were flowing, food was good and craic was 90! If you’re ever looking for a nice evening, good food and good entertainment […]

Read More 🙂 excellent evening 🙂

I’ve never seen Charlie’s Angels but I’m saying Angela and Michelle are mine! I’m heading out for dinner tonight with my cousin and they helped me tidy myself up for going. I think they made sure I was feeling like a piece made by angels!! (Haha 😂 I think I sound like I am trying […]

Read More Charlie’s Angels!

Probably not an ideal post after the last one about not being that fat but sure you’ve gotta live a little! I had a few Easter eggs from Easter and James & I decided to eat one after dinner tonight. I decided to crack it open on my head cos sure the Tbi has done […]

Read More Sure why not!?!

If I look back to before all this crap I had worked so hard at the gym and diet I hope when I get on my feet properly I’ll get back!

Read More Chubbachub is here!

I found this hilarious. It’s probably very old but gotta remember I missed all of 2017 and some of 2018!

Read More Panic stricken!

Being strapped to the bannister again clearly gave me a mixture of emotions… Didn’t know whether to laugh or cry!! Haha!! (Just to make it clear I wasn’t harmed in the making of this!)

Read More Mixture of emotions

Strapped up with the bannister again following Physio instruction. It will be worth it if it helps my balance!

Read More Strapped up again.

This is a very bad habit to get into… We need to get into the habit of letting go!

Read More Don’t ruin today

This afternoon had a lovely trip with mum down to auntie Karen’s. Walked in which was brilliant! So delighted I keep thinking the walking is coming quite soon (or maybe i just hope that) just arrived home and did a wee walk back in the conservatory with mum ❤️ Here’s auntie Karen’s

Read More Lovely afternoon outing!

I had the marvelous Victoria again today! Greet pain as your friend was today’s theme. We were paying attention to my toes today. She was working on my body through my feet, in particular my left foot toes to help me encourage my left leg. We were also conversing about the gym and how we […]

Read More Greet pain as your friend

After physio this morning it was a lovely day so James walked me down to the park. It was a very nice trip! Here’s a photo:

Read More Park!

I had physio Victoria this morning and it was so good as usual! Today we tied me up to the bannister so I could practice my balance and stability! Here are some interesting photos…don’t worry it was restraint i gave permission for!

Read More Tie me up!!

It’s 1.37pm just around lunchtime and I’m busted zzz It’s times like this I really realise the life changing effects that a brain injury has on people. I’ll not be the same active individual.

Read More Realizing The Effects

Tonight was lovely. Just a wee family night of fun! My mum and my auntie/godmother came round and we had a great night!

Read More Fun Saturday Night!

I just love the colour grey! (If you know me well you already know James and I live in the house of grey!) I really LOVE my new grey Adidas and I got this lovely wee grey top to go with it!

Read More Grey girl!

Last night had such a lovely night out for James birthday with family at the Hillside in Hillsborough http://www.hillsidehillsborough.co.uk We all went out for dinner 🙂 it was lovely! Such a good, homely, relaxed spot!

Read More Lovely night out!

Today is James’ birthday. He has entered into his last year in his 20s! To celebrate this occasion we (me, James and his family) are heading out for dinner in Hillsborough! So I got all dressed and Angela came up and did my makeup so i was happy. Then I took this picture and my […]

Read More Party party time!

this morning physio was focusing on posture! I feel so much better when I’m straighter!

Read More Posture!

Tonight physio was working on posture, lifting my rib cage up. So tomorrow I should be a foot taller!…so 5’11 instead of the minuscule 4’11

Read More Physio 🙂

Read More Experiences

Watching band of brothers And in the episode tonight there was a line talking about the war and a few soldiers died and some were badly injured 🤕 ‘It’s just pure luck’ Was said to describe what was happening. And that could be said about a lot of things. Basically everything. That’s just pure luck […]

Read More It’s just pure luck

Sometimes we can’t decide on the direction life takes us but we can try and alter our path/route (not necessarily change our plans to fit)

Read More Adjust plans

Physio tonight was great! I would say it was the best walking I’ve done. Victoria and mum walked with me. Mum had to join in so I was encouraged to reach up to her hand with my right hand when I was walking! It’s really showed that stability for mobility. Very interesting. Cause it was […]

Read More Stability for mobility

James is trying to prepare himself for the 3 peaks challenge he is taking on for Brain Injury Matters. To try and get himself used to walking he is going to take on weekly walks mainly in the Mourne Mountains. If you would kindly like to donate and read his story here is the link […]

Read More Trying to prepare himself

No makeup day for me and mummy Linda!! Feeling fresh!!

Read More Looking well with Linda!

Obviously not…But it made me sweat trying to take it off! I successfully managed with one arm!! Probably sounds easy but I dare you to try it (with only one arm working and the other arm redundant) and you’ll discover it’s not easy with one arm! But grit your teeth and keep going!

Read More I discovered the reason it’s called a sweatshirt…

Read More Always keep pushing

It’s Friday!! The start of the weekend!! The lovely Michelle helped me fix my hair nice and I tried to fix my makeup so I was ready for the night ahead! Ready for my lovely friend Sophie to come round for our usual Friday fun and laughs!

Read More Friday feeling!

This piece is to project brain injury. The head looks “normal” it’s not disfigured at all. Like a lot of brain injuries. People cannot see a brain injury. Just the individual feels what it’s like. From my experience I don’t feel much different but I can be much more ‘touchy’ about things and much more […]

Read More Broken Brain

Right into granny’s. And from there I sat on the sofa for a minute and then walked down the living room right down to the wee garden room!!

Read More Walked up the steps right in…

Everyone seems to like theses! They are my most requested piece!

Read More Back to the old faithful sunflowers

Indescribable. Can’t even put into words how horrible it is.

Read More Stranger than anything imaginable…

This painting is for BIM. This is my synopsis for them. “Broken” Brain This piece is to project brain injury. The head looks “normal” it’s not disfigured at all. Like a lot of brain injuries. People cannot see a brain injury. Just the individual feels what it’s like. From my experience I don’t feel much […]

Read More “Broken” Brain

In the words of said about Armstrong doing the first walk on the moon, (20 July 1969) “That’s one small step for [a] man, one giant leap for mankind.“ That could be put into context of me trying to walk in most places now days. Angela took me to cedar today and apart from getting in and out […]

Read More That’s one small step for a girl, but one giant leap for Rebekah.

My lovely friend Claire called to see me ❤️ she moved to England about 4 years ago so I miss her being here. But she moved to England to be with a lovely fellow Connor and she called to tell me wonderful news. Connor and her are getting hitched! So happy for them ❤️

Read More Wonderful visit!

Looked out the window this morning and was greeted by this interesting sight….someone’s lost…

Read More Interesting views…

Tonight was great! Auntie Karen and mum got together and auntie Karen made our dinner it was so lovely! The drinks were flowing as usual (for me and auntie Karen anyway, mum is off drink for lent!!)

Read More Fantastic food and charming chat!

Not really. And I know I’ve done a blog about this before but we did this massive felt picture in Brain Injury Matters to show the beach representing brain injury I think it’s pretty!

Read More I’m at the beach again!

My hairdresser came tonight to get give my hair a well needed cut! And she very kindly gave me a bunch of flowers. Feeling so good, where can I go out on a Wednesday night! Someone tell me!

Read More Feeling fresh again!

Read More You’re always growing…

Saw this on instagram and made me realize there is still beauty in everything…

Read More Beauty in life still..

My uncle sent me this great text after reading my last blog about physio!! Rebekah + botox = move mountains! I love that, cause I’m a strong independent woman 💪🏻

Read More Move Mountains!

Had Queen Victoria tonight and it was so so good! Managed some great walking with Q.V and the stick and also stood for about 10seconds with just the stick!!

Read More Phenomenal physio!!

Today is Mother’s Day so I got mum stuff ❤️ so this post dedicated to mum for being so supportive and helpful all the time. She is my number 1 before anyone else. So much love 💕

Read More Linda knows it right!

Last night I had a brilliant dream. I was back working in Springvale Employment and Learning in Belfast and I could walk totally like a normal person! In my dream I was walking up the main stairs. I really hope I’m now I very accurate fortune teller!

Read More Incredible imagination!

I looked back on these photos and obviously I’m happy and thankful I’ve progressed from this But I still feel some horror that I ended up in this position in the first place.

Read More Sad Saturday

This came up as a memory 6 years ago… This makes me feel a little sad. Life was just so easy then; this was James and I standing at a biffy clyro concert. Who ever thinks you would love to be standing at a concert! Most people are sorry they can’t sit! But right now […]

Read More Memory

Read More This is spectacular … meet Tess Daly

If this actually happened I would definitely be average height now!

Read More Average height!

You never know what you’re going to get… Cause if I knew this was a possibility I would have stayed on a very strict diet 🙄…

Read More Life is like a box of chocolates…

Neuro physio NI stretching my wick left side after all the botox injections!!

Read More You gotta make sure you stretch!

Today at Brain injury matters we had a presentation from Action Mental Health NI. Was great – it’s gives out such good, positive messages. It makes me think I would really get something out of working for somewhere like that.

Read More Action mental health

I’m typing this of my new wireless keyboard woohoo! I got this from Joe the IT guy at cedar. It will be so fantastic for typing stuff instead of the miniature phone keyboard. 🙂

Read More I’m typing this of my new wireless keyboard!!!

I know I’ve wrote a blog about botox before but I went back to the brain injury unit for another top up! 4 in my left leg and 3 in my left arm. Here is the ball outside the brain injury unit I like Had to go RABIU (regional acquired brain injury unit) today for […]

Read More Botox boost!

I was looking through some old holiday photos and it made me feel down. I loved the outdoors so much. I really hope and make it doing fabulous outdoor walks again.

Read More Head injury hell

With the dirty! Mum and me get a laugh everyday from this body wash I got my birch box last month 😝

Read More No one gets flirty…

Tonight was James’s mums birthday! We had a very good family party! Chinese had, Cake and chocolate devoured and a few whiskey’s drank!

Read More Birthday Bash!

Jamie Mckechnie and I (from the video I shared before: bmx to brain injury https://youtu.be/dWKSB3btKEM) were talking. It was said how these brain injuries are serious hiccups in life. Like when you have hiccups at a really inappropriate time, they are so inappropriate, annoying and they get in the way. Probably nowhere near the same […]

Read More Hiccups in life!

Last night my brilliant and faithful friend Sophie invited me round for dinner, drinks and craic! And she was so brilliant! I went in to the house and got out of the wheelchair for dinner and didn’t get back into until I was leaving. We WALKED everywhere together!

Read More So exciting!

I know I’ve already wrote about being like a bit being like Daenerys Targaryen on her throne but this morning even more so. Emelia Clarke has spoken openly about battling 2 aneurysms in her brain whilst filming the hit tv program, Game of Thrones.n

Read More Launch of a new charity

Walking flat out today! Was hardly in the wheelchair chair at all today. Angela took me to BIM and walked me everywhere. Just had the wheelchair to get in. Sat down in a normal chair in the room. Walked to and from the bathroom. Walked to and from the yoga room. After we got a […]

Read More Walkin’ round the world!

James just sent me this picture. It really does my head in I don’t remember this at all but I was in the paper a month before my crash for my new work place.

Read More My wick mind

When I say queen Victoria people might think of this But I’m meaning physio Victoria Conway (Neuro Rehab NI) she is my queen 👑 Luckily I’m seeing my lovely queen tonight for physio!

Read More Queen Victoria!!

Read More World brain injury day!

Gratitude.

Read More Be thankful.

Read More Remember, privilege.

James took me to see captain marvel today in the Omniplex. It was a great film about a girl hero! It’s funny I’m not at all a sexist but from all this stuff I feel like I appreciate strong female characters more! It was a very good film I would recommend with some great empowering […]

Read More I have nothing to prove to you…

Watching Deadpool this afternoon and this came up. Accurate! I’m fine with this brain injury…

Read More I’m FINE!!

I bought a nice T-shirt from Ghetto_bmx 🙂 https://jamiemckechnie.wixsite.com/ghettobmx/about I bought a T-shirt from ghettobmx 🙂 I think it’s lovely. Ghetto bmx is Jamie Mckechnie business! He’s the bmxer who got a tbi walking home from a bar who I’ve wrote about before! His story gives me a lot of hope!

Read More Nice T-shirt mate!

This afternoon the wonderful Angela did my makeup for going out tonight. Tonight was spent with 2 of my great friends I met through horse riding. Sarah and Charlotte. It was a lovely night.

Read More Lushious Ladies 🙂

A wee crayon sketch I did in at BIM. It’s to represent brain injury in waves! The sea gets disturbed by waves for a while: that’s how I see brain injury. It’ll disturb me for a short time like waves on the sea! We have decided thinking of this I’m deep like the ocean 😆😏 […]

Read More Deep!! Like the sea!!

I did this for the girl I have written about before a few times who was in hospital with me. It’s for her brain injury group, I’m pleased with how it ended up looking!

Read More Colourful Explanation!

And that’s just what I did tonight! I treated myself for working hard in Physio etc. 🙂 Organized a lovely facial and reflexology by my beautician! Was so good!

Read More Treat yo self!

Today had a major clear out of my wardrobe. Hadn’t been cleared out since before I left home at 20ish so about 7 years! Getting cleared… After

Read More Clear out calamity!

Trying to work on posture so I don’t walk like an old woman.

Read More Sporty goth is here!

I had to say goodbye to my uncle today cause I won’t see him tomorrow and he goes back home to London on Tuesday. This feels like a blog I’ve written at least once before but I only repeat it cause I really mean it. I am so thankful for all he has done. He […]

Read More Bye bye 👋🏻

… hopefully it won’t give me a fever… I was treated to James specialty curry tonight. It was sooo good! Beautiful. The pictures show how great it looked/was!

Read More Saturday night (not fever) Curry!

I hope very soon I’ll be walking tall! ( well as tall as I can be! So not really very tall! ) Had the wonderful Victoria this morning. I would actually say I think she made me have love for myself again after all this head knocking nonsense. For a while I really didn’t like […]

Read More Working hard on walking tall!

Saw my uncle today. He came up to see me after physio and made me some lunch! I can’t tell you enough how wonderful an uncle he is!

Read More Ulimate unreal uncle!!