Totes emosh

I’m feeling totally emotional about not being able to walk/stumble about myself at the moment. So bloody destroyed. This is such a dreadful situation. I know I’ve said stuff like this before but it’s really like mourning my previous self (which no one should actually have to do). But not even mourning I feel more sure of myself in someways mourning being able to do basically anything I wanted physically. What most people take for granted. Walk, run, dance, jump.

My face right now: