Physical feelings

All I’m writing this for is to vent, so apologies if you wanted something in-depth and deep.

I just came to vent. I’ve possibly said this before but it has never had it this bad. I was feeling so horrendous when mum and I were walking across the bedroom (just imagine that you aren’t even capable of walking across your bedroom by yourself) I had this really deep, heavy, sore, breathe removing feeling in my heart and chest. It was painful and uncomfortable. It maybe could be described as my heart was crying but the tears had no where to go so my emotions were drowning. Happinesses and contentment were the first to lose air and be suffocated. It was painful.

Will these ever be under control or will I forever have to be at war with these crippling emotions/feelings?