As you are likely aware my favourite artist of 2020 (and beyond) is Dermot Kennedy (https://www.dermotkennedy.com)
He put this up on Facebook last night for the new year saying ‘celebrate your endurance’

It highlighted for me and made me appreciate my endurance. My endurance for this situation
Endurance:
noun
- 1. the ability to endure an unpleasant or difficult process or situation without giving way.
This situation I have been put in by crashing my car and attaining a brain injury is unpleasant and difficult but there is no way I am going to give in any way if I can help it.
Thank you Dermot Kennedy for reminding me I have had endurance.