Suffocating

I’m feeling quite depressed. I have never properly been depressed I don’t think. I’ve been sad. But this is worse, it’s a sadness I can’t lift. Like the sorrow is suffocating me. The sadness and anger are suffocating me in a vicious deep blue sea of these in-depth and dark emotions. Using colourful and descriptive language is providing me with very me small gasps of air but not enough to keep the suffocating at bay. I’m forever drowning.