tbi: to be informed
Rekindled friendship is the most positive thing that happened out of this brain injury. Though you can tell I’m my fathers daughter because we look a like I think we are too a like sometimes so before this we clashed a wee bit. He has always been involved a lot in sports so he’s very […]
Read More Day 5 positive thingDrinks with Jamie Dornan in quarantine! He’s grown a beard and I 50 shades of love it! #joke #loveit #jamiedornan #doppleganger …nearly
Read More 50 shades of love it!@headway_uk challenge my number 2 of day 4. Recovery. James and I spoke about this and how recovery starts from day 1. So I decided to do this post again on #morethanmybraininjury with photos from earlier, including some of me in hospital. Ps. I had agreed to let james be my hairdresser…ended up with a […]
Read More Day 4: recovery (take 2!)Day 4: photo of me in recovery. There has been a few good ones during this horror rollercoaster of recovery so I am going to show 3 (after all 3 is a magic number!) Thank 1. Photo of me in the trusty standing frame holding wee Sonny’s favourite toy! 2. My very good friend Sophie […]
Read More morethanmybraininjury Day 4Hot dogs having green tea!
Read More #happyathomeDay 3: skill you’ve learnt after your brain injury. 1 is painting. I wouldn’t say this is a skill I have learnt but I have developed on my skill since being injured. Writing has been a skill I have developed passionately through this blog.
Read More #morethanmybraininjury Day 3Day 2 someone who has been there through ups and downs. My mum has always there. Regardless of brain injury or not she would have been there. But also James. He is my number 1 fan and I’m his number 1 fan back. ❤️ it would have been quite understandable if he decided this #tbi […]
Read More #morethanmybraininjury Day2I have decided to take on this @headway_uk #morethanmybraininjury challenge. It will go on for ten days and let me work on my memory (I need to remember to post everyday) and let me share some stuff about myself! Here we go! Day 1 – I’m Rebekah. I’m a 28 year old girl from Belfast. […]
Read More Headway: 10 Day ChallengeI know I go on and on about the beautiful Emilia Clarke and her charity sameyou (sorry, not sorry) but at this difficult time the charity is selling T-Shirts to help the NHS deal with the covid crisis. https://sameyou.teemill.com/product/together-together-together-t-shirt/ Mine arrived and I obviously really like it. It backs up that we are all ‘together’ […]
Read More Together, together, togetherThe videos are educational about brain injury. https://www.sameyou.org/#recovery-at-home Give them a watch if you’re interested.
Read More Finding your stengthsAs much as I feel this brain injury has taken away for me (I.E it has taken away my mobility for the moment, it has taken away my light girly voice, it has stolen my independence and the list could go on) It also brought a new, sure of myself, confidence out which I’m actually […]
Read More A new meI have none left
Read More PatienceBIM is brilliant in my opinion but I think you know that! https://www.braininjurymatters.org.uk Today the group got together using zoom webcam chat again. I know I have written about it LOADS but it really is an unbelievable service at this time We started off with a quiz! I came 2nd! And you likely know to […]
Read More Top quality…for me
Read More On the hunt……😁… you can do whatever you put your mind to View this post on Instagram I have never cheered so loud for something in my entire life #Repost @zachskow ・・・ I’m possible, therefore nothing is impossible! . . . . . . . #magician #motivation #j #jun #success #flawlesslove #nothing #instagram #inspirationalquotes #quotes #believe #life […]
Read More Get ready to cheer…It’s so hard, hard not to detest this experience.
Read More Love and hateI’m trying so hard. But you never imagine just getting up (with out assistance) will be nearly impossible. So don’t lecture me in getting up and getting the ‘remote’ you clearly don’t understand.
Read More Life has no remote…http://www.youtube.com/watch I never quit no 💪🏻
Read More This is what I live forTonight James and I finished the Netflix series After Life. It’s a fabulous funny yet sad and realistic series about life, death, love, friendship and much more. Seriously good watch, I would consider giving it ago. https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/screenrant.com/quotes-ricky-gervais-after-life/amp/
Read More Hope is everythingI feel ‘Acceptance’ has been my biggest move forward so far. I think I have started to accept that I need to get help for some things at the moment and I feel like that has helped me move further forward. Sometimes taking help doesn’t mean that you give up or you’re lazy. It can […]
Read More Acceptance has so much power.This is not about recovery, but I think it can be put towards anything hard you’re dealing with. For me that would be recovery. These words are the same kind of thing needed for #abi #recovery – brain injury healing. ‘Time and perseverance’. Spoken by @dermotkennedy about his road to success. Though it’s not related […]
Read More Time and PerseveranceJust got an email to let me know my sameyou top order has been processed! The support is really needed, especially at this uncertain time. To support the nhs and brain injury rehabilitation is important now and always! If you like the look of this lovely top you can order one here and support this […]
Read More Woohoo!With this crazy pandemic going on we don’t really know what the future holds… Saw this photo tonight and I thought how easy life was for me personally…and also the world. Now – worries are massive. How I would just like to be back at 20 and the biggest worry was could I afford to […]
Read More In the future…The climb is where you learn the most and important lessons
Read More LessonsJust being there is so important. When you know someone is there to support you, whatever you’re going through instantly doesn’t seem so lonely and daunting.
Read More Cute but true…I read that today on a brain injury thing. It’s a new way to think. – A very common thing to read written by people who have experienced brain injury is they don’t fear death anymore, which as a brain injury survivor I totally understand and can relate too. 💀 But I read another important […]
Read More Embrace new lifeLola, my sunshine ☀️ https://youtu.be/4Oc6PTtcthA
Read More My sunshineThat is what makes the world interesting remember. I’m very guilty of comparing myself to others. Need to stop, others seem a lot quicker than me. But I need to not let this get at me and bring me down. No ones the same.
Read More we are all different.As you probably know I’m in support of the charity Emilia Clarke set up after experiencing a brain aneurysm when filming the hit tv series Game of Thrones. The top I purchased this evening is partly to try and raise money for the NHS during this covid crisis. But I just love this charity as […]
Read More New top coming!Walked and sat outside. It looked very sunny 😎 but when we got out realised it was a bit chilly 🥶 trusty blanket to the rescue!
Read More Baby, it’s cold outsideYou belong to recovery now. And always.
Read More Everything you’ve got.Saw this put up by a friend on Facebook. I think it’s a great out look to have because we may all be on different ‘boats’ (mine is obviously the brain injury boat which is not fun and not at all recommended) in life but we are all in the same ‘storm’ at the moment.
Read More Different boats, same storm.I think I’ve done a blog about this before but myself and my brain injury buddy Gemma have started a facebook group which we are trying to grow! https://www.facebook.com/groups/200697857739604/?ref=share It’s mainly focused on becoming a place for brain injured people and their families to talk. Share experiences and tips, talk in general about brain injury […]
Read More Brain injury group!Mum and I had a nice night in! We had… *music *craic *video calls *photos *party atmosphere But I think the party is coming to an end…it’s 11.27 But the brain injury has made it feel like 4.27
Read More Linda and Rebekah ❤️I’m very grateful that I have been shown you can still have strength through a hell like this. Possibly take strength from it.
Read More Share your strengthAs you know by now if you have been following this story, Robo (father) is standing in for physio (Queen V) at this lockdown time. We were talking this morning and he is very keen for me to include uncle WES in my recovery (Water, Exercise and Sleep). So I’m trying to drink more water. […]
Read More my uncle WESYou can. I believe in you. It’s hard but I read this this morning and I was thinking about me trying to walk. I really have to think about the movement where as before this injury I didn’t have to really think about the movement. But having an ‘I CAN’ attitude helps! Believe in yourself, […]
Read More You’re told you can’t…I have no doubt that I’ll make it eventually. The reason I’m putting this song in here is tonight I made myself have ‘no doubt’ and this is by No Doubt. I’ll get there. It’s just a waiting game now
Read More No DoubtTry to understand this please. I can’t even comprehend it and I will have it as a permanent and long term feature 🙁
Read More Try to understandPrepping dinner today! With help from the parentals I even got to mix with the pretty useless left hand!
Read More Sometimes uselessI love Joe Wicks and I think it’s superb he is on board trying to get the whole nation interested in getting fit during this pandemic. But my aunt gave me an interesting thought this morning! I have my own personal Joe Wicks combo! Linda/mum as my dietician and Robert/dad as my fitness instructor (physio)
Read More Move over Joe Wicks!Good point:Who wants to go backwards?
Read More Fair pointJust to backup about me not painting a false picture of my experience of brain injury. Today has been hard. 3.5 years lost Independence lost Friendships diminished The feeling of real joy lost Just feeling terrible at the moment. Then the news came on and I understand most of the world is feeling this too […]
Read More Not good@emilycoxhead She put this up I understand it’s about this terrible pandemic going on at the moment. But I could relate and take comfort in some of the words being related to recovery. ❤️😁 I’ll always keep going
Read More Feel good account to followThat’s what I’m craving. It’s strange cause when we hit around the teenage mark I guess and from then on in your given are ‘our own company’ or being independent. This brain injury situation means I’ve regressed back into being like 10 and not being left on my own. I know it’s cause my body […]
Read More My own companyThat’s what I like to try and do in my wee stretching/physio session in the mornings!
Read More Grab the bull by the hornsThis a great saying about the stormy situation the world is in… The greater the storm the brighter the rainbow 🌈 But it can also be about personal struggles. No matter how small it is if it’s a personal storm in your head the rainbow will look brighter to you when it passes (which it […]
Read More storm and rainbowSo you understand what caused me to be this determined (yet annoying) and broken soul.
Read More Determined and annoyingIf you need a laugh at this time got sent this by a friend… I still think zoom is great, especially at this time, but you have got to laugh! And Paddy Raff is the great comedian james and I went to see before in his show me, myself and Nigel which was brilliant! But […]
Read More Funny video!“Keep strong, keep positive, remember you’re winning!” These words were said to me yesterday by a friend and it means a lot to hear them but I still can’t shake this terrible heavy down feeling from my chest. It seems to be I do a blog in the morning when I feel low (sorry for […]
Read More Remember you’re winning!I know I wrote about doing the doorstep photography yesterday but I wanted to share the points of what I thought the picture paints. I think it’s important to remember – Belfast looks quite the same from afar as it always did. But unforeseen to anyone this virus came and killed normal life. But the […]
Read More Doorstep Photography points.“nothing is simple anymore” Watching Pocahontas tonight and the line ‘nothing is simple anymore’ was said and that’s how I feel about life. Nothing has been simple for coming up to four years.
Read More PocahontasBIM gave us a project to carry out in isolation that would be no risk. So we were assigned Doorstep Photography. So it means we had to photograph outside our front/back door. Wee me of course it wasn’t just enough to take a photo. I had to walk in and out! Here is some evidence […]
Read More Doorstep photography and more…🙄 You’re really going to be fed up of this blog and all the wee phrases I put up on it but I read this one on a brain injury Facebook page and just really appreciated it. I think the panic the world is in at the moment it can be very important to share […]
Read More Another oneBeing yourself is the way forward for everyone!
Read More Can’t be a better person!Read this, this morning on Instagram and it made me feel emotional but strong 💪🏻 Hoping it does the same for someone else. You got this.
Read More Can’t and dreams…I think I’ve wrote something like this before but I was thinking about it again and it’s so bizarre. It’s definitely not a skill or quality you go looking for 👀 I’m just in a bad place today. If I had an end date to this brain injury torture it would help but there is […]
Read More The Word ACQUIRED is not rightPredictable but dad and I are making progress on the exercise I think (strongly hope) I have no evidence (so you’ll have to trust me) but over a few sessions recently I have manage to move my non functioning left arm out! The top half of the arm is starting to function so now it’s […]
Read More What do you think?..More pictures from the big 30th! https://youtu.be/EFFGR72tA4g 😁😛
Read More ‘I’m a real boy now!’http://www.youtube.com/watch Spine tingling...
Read More Spine tinglesToday is James 30th! So first of we called to grannys so they could see us from their front door! Then as it was James’ 30th we called past our house and his long time bff Ali with his girlfriend Helen dropped off Prosecco for us to toast his 30 years! And then was time […]
Read More 19.4.20Today is James birthday! He’s 30 so start of a new decade! I think this is a good mark for my recovery too! I would like to be walking by myself by him turning 32! As it’s a very uncertain time and we couldn’t really organize a big party or anything my parents just organized […]
Read More 30!I have done a blog about the brilliant NHS staff but I heard a wee advert/awareness thing on the radio this morning and it made me feel awareness about this and thankful for these individuals too! Medical People (the doctors/heroes we talk about and they still deserve their hero status!) but they still need to […]
Read More More heroes!As we are still on lockdown and face to face physio is not possible we did a zoom physio again! Today it was mainly working on balance. Standing with the wall behinds me allows me to work on being straight as I have a tendency to over balance to the right. Bloody broken brain!
Read More Computer Activated PhysioI thought this was an absolutely lovely gesture from McFly. It highlights what an amazing job the NHS are doing right now. It is for the entire country, famous or not, rich or poor, every type of person in the entire uk. They are doing it all for you.
Read More It’s all about you…Be sure you are! Im possible and so are you! This phrase is not mine. But comes up a lot in trauma, and it’s that’s what you have to keep in mind – nothing is impossible, the word itself spells im possible. Which you are. #trauma
Read More Im possibleI know I’ve got/received strength from certain individuals stories… So if I can give any hope back then that’s the main thing… All I can say this is a long, never ending road but just keep your head down and your heart focused on your goal. ❤️
Read More Like this wee birdThe BIM group put together an acrostic poem using word isolation. ISOLATION I is for imagination, I have been forced to use mine. S is solitude, I thought solitude was a punishment but now the world is in the situation of being alone. O is for others not taking this seriously but it is real! […]
Read More The isolation poemToday we did used the fantastic https://zoom.us to hold our BIM group in isolation. The task we were given for this week was what the word isolation would have meant to us six months ago. This is what I put together. I feel emotional when I think about it cause it’s description of my life […]
Read More IsolationThis memory came up in instagram today. I like to see it cause it’s a reminder of where I was and that I’ll get there again. That was only 5 months before my brain was seriously damaged and my life was put on HOLD with a big capital H. So I don’t want to seem […]
Read More So unfortunately close.Just read this tonight and felt very uplifted!
Read More Uplifting!The yoga instructor from BIM is so lovely. As we are all in lockdown so unfortunately we can’t attend BIM at this moment. As I blogged about him before but to say again we have a lovely and fantastic yoga teacher, Denis, who I really like and always appreciate his efforts. Well as we are […]
Read More Yoga love!There is always ups and downs. It will make you an extremely accomplished person and no one can take that away from you.
Read More Healing is not linear❤️ Always and forever
Read More My number oneWhere did the memory of my year of engagement go? Like I had physical injury. No major blood loss. No surgery to remove things so where did it go? Where did it actually go? Did it just disappear? Is that what happens as memories they aren’t physical things… they can vanish like they never existed. […]
Read More Where did it go?My legs seem to be moving fine on their own! It’s just the balance I’m struggling with now. So I stood at the wall all afternoon trying to find to my balance! I really hope I find it soon. I’m hating not be able to walk independently at the moment.   😡🤯🤬
Read More Just need the balancePain I can’t describe. A feeling of pain and sadness I never could have imagined was possible But I know now it is.
Read More Pain every morningI have always been a hoarder from a young age. I didn’t like throwing things out! But it means mum always had (now vintage) decorations to put out for Easter! 🐣 And it’s surprising the wee tub Rebekah was restrained from eating these chocolate bunnies! (You’ll see what I mean from this picture!) Wee tubby, […]
Read More HoarderNo point to this blog but this gave me such feel good vibes. Work hard. Have fun. Be nice. 👍🏼 View this post on Instagram It’s been 8 years since I started my bootcamp business. I never could have imagined the journey I was about to go on ☺️ Whatever your goals are, work hard […]
Read More Go Joe!!We had a glorious day which is not very often in NI! So made the most of it in the garden! But made sure to protect the lily white complexion with hat and sun cream. (Being cool since 1992!) Protected in the sun! Always the way you should do it!
Read More Cool 😎 but protectedI’m tiny (4ft11.5)! Lola is a tiny chihuahua (dog) But today me and Lola are more are more a like than I thought! Both have dodgy looking left eyes at the moment!
Read More Tiny twins!During this quarantine you need to say in contact with people to stay sane! So I did that today! All the girls got together today. Rebekah and Lola, Chloe and wee Sadie! ❤️
Read More Keeping sane in quarantine!http://www.youtube.com/watch I watched a film last night called ‘Blinded by the light‘ it was a seriously feel good film about struggling with life and what your expected to do. It introduced me to this Bruce Springsteen song Dancing in the Dark. I liked it very much. So I obviously and predictability went and read the […]
Read More You can’t start a fire without a sparkThat’s exactly what I should have done!… I’m I know I’m blogged out today but found these tonight, and they really made me feel good and I just thought I’ll put them up! This one in particular spoke out to me! I need to not dwell on this hell I’m travelling. I will pass through […]
Read More Give up when the goings good…My uncle just text me surely it’s your right leg that looks folded in.. I’m looking now thinking what left? What’s right?… Yeah it’s actually my right that I was talking about. That actually makes sense. Cos my right leg is my more functioning one the knee has a tends to over extend, which I […]
Read More Confused brain…if you’re squeamish look away now… Today’s exercising! As much as I love exercising I think it’s really clear in this photo the lack of function in my left knee. I can always lift it up but I’m starting to try and functionally to bend it, but it’s hard. Not always successful but more successful […]
Read More Dysfunctional knee! A bit gross…It’s fantastic we have such great facilities to keep in contact over this period. Used zoom (https://zoom.us) to hold the BIM group today. It’s so great that through this self-isolation time the group could still meet, maybe not in person, but virtually!
Read More Great technology!I thought I had been heart broken but I clearly had not before. My brain may have got the physical damage but my heart feels the what seems irreversible pain.
Read More My heart hurts with sadness.Dad and I were on physio number 2 afternoon session! He was being very nice and saying I’ve shown real bravery through this unique experience. My response was I don’t think it’s bravery if you don’t have a choice. I feel like I’ve said that before in a blog but it’s still really true. If […]
Read More It’s not bravery if you don’t have a choiceI realize that title is insensitive and I don’t really mean it but I thought it was an attention grabber! And as Queen physio Victoria is not coming at the moment which is wick. As I’ve told you before the pe teacher is not a bad relative to have at this quarantine time! Back to […]
Read More Quarantine is not so bad…My uncle told me about a dream he had last night! I know dreams aren’t real but I was pleased when I heard this!“You were walking independently not like pre TBI but you were getting around which was amazing to see.”I know it was a dream but for me it’s wonderful that someone else had […]
Read More Dreams can come true...THIS IS NOT PERMANENT.
Read More This is not permanent. This is not permanent.Read something I thought was good stating that this Covid stuff is earth warning us we are guests. Which I think is a good point. We really are just guests that earth has put up with for so many years. Like an annoying fly buzzing around your ear. (disclaimer: just my thoughts no evidence)
Read More Annoying fly in your ear.Was watching Bambi tonight and a few bits looked better than me learning to walk again… youtu.be/RizMEqECgk8 https://youtu.be/g0fSd7QBQY0
Read More Learning to walk again…I understand that doctors and nurse are the heroes at this terrible virus time. Heroes normally don’t work alone. I think pets can be really comforting in terrible situation such as injury recovery and just mental stability in general. My wee lovely Lola is having a bad time with her eye. She has had this […]
Read More Vets are heroes too!Recovery from brain injury for me (and most people) is so slow. I just want to put some encouragement (at this scary time in all the world) but this encouragement is related to brain injury but I suppose you can relate it to any recovery might seem so slow, painfully slow, but better slow than […]
Read More Slow is better than stopWith all the tightening rules about going out of the house Etc. I think we are all feeling the tension/stress coming in! Tonight to help Linda deal with the stress of the moment and general life we decided to order our Sunday dinner from The Hoose on the Belmont Road https://www.thehoosebistro.com It was so lovely […]
Read More Sunday dinner delivered!From @heal.the.brain.withjane As much as I would like to go back to the same as I was before I find something powerful about reading this statement. “I REALLY MADE IT!”
Read More No going backI did my exercises with dad this morning which was a good way to start Saturday and my Saturday continued to get better! My dad and I had an afternoon glass of red wine together which was lovely I then had a wonderful video call with my Hospital bff Dympna, James then made an unbelievable […]
Read More How Saturday’s should be!Tonight was a lovely start to the weekend! Mum and I had few drinks together, enjoyed each other company and socialize with a few friends together through different videos call streams! And on a very positive note my walking upstairs, even when I was tired, was excellent! I’m starting to think the wee gin helps […]
Read More Friday night!Reflecting from the title. To make it in this hard brain injury ride you’ve gotta be super confident and dedicated. Those things I am! Had another online video session with queen v! It was very great and I was standing against the wall again! She gave me a few tips to compensate for my brains […]
Read More ZOOMMM…I’m gonna make it to the top!Read this again today and it makes me feel better. It’s a long road. It does seem impossible. But the further you move forward the less and less impossible it seems until eventually it seem like a reach away. It might seem like a far reach but as time goes on it will feel more […]
Read More It changesKind of… Walked in the street with James before dinner. I think I was under false pretenses. It was well harder than I ever imagined. At least James was with me for balance. If he wasn’t I would have ‘been on my ear’ and couldn’t have done it alone. I have to seriously work on […]
Read More Accomplished!Brain injury matters is a brilliant charity, as I always say. Even though we can’t meet during this lockdown, some of the group got together through Skype! https://www.skype.com/en/ This was the first test! So somethings to probably iron out but it’s so fantastic that there is programs like this in place. So you can ‘be […]
Read More Great meeting👍🏼This may be up here already somewhere, but when I read it reminds me I’m quite a strong mofo! So just thought I’d share it to hopefully remind others they’re strong to. 💪🏻 #stronggang #toughcrowd
Read More #toughcrowdToday I was trying to stand against the wall with mum whilst resting my skin by not wearing makeup! So did two good things in one!
Read More Standing yet resting at the same timehttp://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/9Lr0yLtWmeM It’s fantastic that musicians/celebrities are getting involved with the #stayathome and also means we are getting very personal feeling concerts at home!
Read More #stayathomehttp://www.youtube.com/watch Don’t stop me now! We all wanna scream out this song. But we have to get the sensible heads on.
Read More Scream outI get that people are feeling stressed at this time. I’m quite stressed but I saw this on instagram related to brain injury but I thought it could be related to difficult times like this time during Coronavirus.
Read More New beginningsThis is a brilliant Ted talk about learning in general. So maybe I’m not smart, I’m gritty and always have been. I would say if I really think about it I was a middle kid in school. But according to this video I was a ‘gritty’ kid. (Awful way to be described! Like grit in […]
Read More The ability to learn is not fixed.ANGER I hate that my brain now seems to hate way more. Uncomfortable anger at the small things, This is how I feel this evening…you won’t be surprised 🙄
Read More So muchI’d say quite a lot of population would leap at the chance to be labelled a ‘hero’… Well now is your chance! Artist @henryfraser0 that I’ve written about before has the right idea. He put in his instagram story: Be a hero. Stay at home. That idea is 100% correct!
Read More How to be a hero…I think that last blog was just a wake up thought…I’m not at all a shell of what I used to be. Maybe I’m different. Maybe a shell of the superficial things. But feel like I’m now a person full of gratefulness, gratitude, not interested in the superficial and appreciation of a lot more both […]
Read More ReflectionThat’s what i feel like. Prior this tbi experience I was a very emotive person full of happiness and love, the tbi has made feel like like an empty shell. A hollow tube that won’t hold any thing.
Read More Shell of who I used to be…As I have got the new Disney Plus that I told you about yesterday, James and I put it to good use today! We watch the new computer animated lion king! 🦁 I loved it and whatever lion king you watch there is great lessons in both of them! “Sometimes bad things happen and there’s […]
Read More Sometimes bad things happenGot sent this today by a friend and I really love it ❤️ it was the lift I needed and I think very evident for the human race. You can do more than you think. It’s just having the I CAN DO IT mindset!
Read More I can do it!http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/cPAbx5kgCJo Watched Moana tonight. It’s a real feel good film for me stating things I can totally relate. An example would be this song saying ‘how far I’ll go’. Also we watched it on Disney Plus – https://www.disneyplus.com/en-gb/ a new program I’ve sign up to for a year which gives an endless number of […]
Read More How far I’ll go…After the super physio (with Robert) I wrote about earlier the day kept getting better! Went down to my own house with James for the afternoon. Haven’t really been down there in the past few weeks as I have been trying to cut back on my travelling around to avoid anything to do with the […]
Read More Super Saturday!Physio Robert was back on the job! Which I’m so glad. I’m not allowed slack! No slacking even on a Saturday!
Read More No slackingI think this actual app deserves a blog post too! I had my first actual House Party on the app house party! You can get it from the App Store: it’s free. This app is brilliant cause it lets you have an actual virtual ‘house party’. Last night I had a wee ‘house party’ with […]
Read More House party!I read this on a tbi Facebook page, and I thought it was a good point – what are you rushing back to? I don’t mean that in an ungrateful way just this experience has shown me a little bit about worth. Worth of emotions. Worth of experiences. Worth of people. Just the word worth […]
Read More What parts are you rushing back to?It’s mental when I think of how long I’ve been on this brain injury (scary and not fun) roller coaster! But I’m so glad I keep a blog so I can reflect and maybe share some tips. I was notified this today: So I just wanted to do a post to thank anyone who has […]
Read More 2 years!We need to think how fortunate we are that at this time of this covid-19 pandemic we have such great and easy to use contact facilities. Such as WhatsApp – https://www.whatsapp.com On entering this weekend I have already planned two ‘party’ phone calls! This seems to becoming a new trend! Due to circumstances we might […]
Read More So fortunate!Tonight as this virus has stopped us doing quite a lot. It has stopped my physio being physically possible. But tonight we made it virtually possible! Queen Victoria and I got in contact through webcam using https://zoom.us which is a live video app! It was successful and I was delighted to see her – the […]
Read More A virus won’t beat us!This brain injury has made me very uneven. I have a (non intentional) lazy left side making me be and look very right side heavy. 😣
Read More Right Side HeavyAll I’m writing this for is to vent, so apologies if you wanted something in-depth and deep. I just came to vent. I’ve possibly said this before but it has never had it this bad. I was feeling so horrendous when mum and I were walking across the bedroom (just imagine that you aren’t even […]
Read More Physical feelingsThis TBI came crashing into my life like an earthquake: violent, destructive and uninvited. It has left my personal landscape altered beyond all recognition. But this quote reminds me too that earthquakes are merely the echoes of a bigger process, one that thrusts mountains up from the Earth. So, whilst this TBI earthquake might have […]
Read More Shaken me to the literal core.Due to this home isolation period every one is on lockdown. So Physio has stopped for the foreseeable future. I suppose as much as I give off about robo/dad and him and I are too alike so it’s like oil and water mixing, I’m actually over joyed he’s around during this period of time when […]
Read More Start of norm!It’s said to us often when we are younger and it’s something that we don’t want to hear: ‘Better luck next time’ or ‘There’s always next time’ or something like that. We don’t really understand ‘acceptance’ when we are younger. I don’t think. I didn’t anyway. But I think now I need to have some […]
Read More Acceptance. Hard but needs to be done.My mum just sent these delightful pictures to the family chat we have! Flowers in our garden! 🙂 It’s lovely to see something is growing at this very dark time ❤️
Read More See Something Bright!Mummy ❤️ (predictable Mother’s Day post) my mum is the best to me, your mum is the best to you! It’s great cause we can all have the best! #mothersday #love #somuchlove #enoughtogoaround #❤️ I like the card I got mummy
Read More Mother’s Day ❤️As we are all being careful at this time and many of us are on lockdown at home Lola and I decided to get comfortable when we #stayathome 🙂
Read More #stayathomeEven my sitting balance is getting better, that’s a mental thing to think about, ‘sitting balance’. That’s not something you have think about – do you even need balance to sit? The crazy thing to comprehend if you’ve never been injured like this – Yes you do! #tbi #sittingbalance #physio #girl #mentalfacts
Read More Mental facts!Tired after a successful physio. I’m still a little wobbly but stood by myself for about 40secs so build from there! #girl #tbi #braininjury #nightmare But it’s very hard to stay positive when all the news is negative and this tbi is SO slow.
Read More Hard to be pleasedThis wee poem by kitty o’meara was shared on Facebook. I think it’s wee things like this that are what people need to read!
Read More The smile you needMy auntie and uncle live in Brighton so I used to go at least once a year, sometimes 2 or 3 times when I was a little girl! I loved Brighton. I especially loved the merry-go-round! I called it the miracle round! How I just wish I could ride a miracle round and all this […]
Read More Miracle round!I was talking tonight and it came up I would eventually go home to my house with James. Eventually. EVENTUALLY. That seems so far away. The recovery road is so long. Evidently, it endless.
Read More Eventually…Makeup hides lots of things. I love makeup. I have since I could put it on myself at like 12/13. But no make up can hide this bloody dropped eye lid!
Read More Hiding lotsActually so scared. As I’m pretty sure we all are. I’m trying not to panic. Hold it together. I’m just trying to 1. learn to walk again 2. TRYING TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 3. Learn who I am now… This virus is so terrifying. Its really interrupting EVERYTHING including my recovery. It’s not just […]
Read More So scared…I think this sums it up very well. Yeah I’m lucky I survived the horrendous crash with a just a severe tbi, it could have been much worse. But this quote by Amy Zellmer hits it just right. I had no clue the hard work surviving would entail, but I’m still over joyed I did […]
Read More Enormous JourneyToday I painted a woman i got from google! It’s strange how I had to acquire my brain injury to fall in love with painting
Read More Google woman!These great words were said by Henry Fraser (@henryfraser0) on Instagram. I was told to look him up by my aunt as he is a mouth artist. I’m so glad I did looked him up. ‘Adversity has been given to me as a gift’ 💪🏻 View this post on Instagram My injury and my disability […]
Read More ‘Adversity has been given to me as a gift’It seems every-time I turn on the television it’s just more a constant mood hoover, it vacuums any glee out of the room and replaces it with sh…faeces💩. This being said it is really not helping my mood. I’m struggling to feel any joy at the moment but I never lose hope. I fully believe […]
Read More The news is scaryNo point to this but I just like it and maybe we could get a trend going…❤️😂 …someone may be inspired to try… …moustaches are coming back….🤞🏻!
Read More I just like this…This was shared on Facebook by the only proper friend I made in hospital and her partner. Some of it is so evident: But you don’t look disabled… I think that’s the double edge sword in this situation. I look basically the same but my abilities are different now. And I REALLY hate being like […]
Read More Double Edged SwordMy wonderful friend Sophie the ot was here tonight. As always we had a lovely time but I think getting the botox injections this week has been tiring and tonight it was evident. I’m normally some ‘craic’ but tonight I was minus craic 😂 poor Sophie! But she had a look at my left arm […]
Read More You don’t realize how lucky you are…Following from explain how everything feels damp from this tbi experience another related and quite accurate expression is diluted. Everything (in an emotional sense) feels damp and it’s seriously diluted. All the feeling seemed water down
Read More DilutedThis blog is so repetitive at times but I’m getting so pleased at my independent standing skills! Stood by myself again today getting off the stairlift. This is really great as this is a thing I would do about 3 or 4 times a day, so this is a good skill if I master I […]
Read More Recovering…But I’m not even in a position to go to work at the minute. 😢 But I don’t just sent that to my uncle this message. He replied ‘Another day, another opportunity to do something amazing…’ He has more faith than me than I do…but I better start to have faith and don’t ever give […]
Read More Another day…Another dollar…Very pleased with my make up this afternoon. Just shows even if you’re challenged with stuff (like me and tbi coordination and hand shake) if you really love/want something like me with my makeup you can get there and work around things.
Read More Make up love ❤️That’s me in my beautiful new ‘lazy boy’ chair! Purchased and designed at https://www.hslchairs.com it’s beautiful! And extra petite for wee short bum me! So comfortable too! And predictably it’s in grey! Which means when I go properly home I can take it with me! 🙂
Read More Lazy girl.Overwhelmed with sadness And never stop fighting at the same time.
Read More Allowed to be pissedThat’s another thing I have to thank this brain injury for not only have I met some unbelievable people and got confidence in myself, I have discovered skills I didn’t think I had before. Like painting and writing (though they are things seriously based on personal taste so it could be argued both ways!) but […]
Read More Abilities you don’t know about are foundMum just sent me a few photos of physio this evening so I thought I better do a blog with the photos to back up the last blog about standing on my own with physio just to back it up!
Read More Photographic evidence!Tonight in physio I really surprise myself, my mum and even the queen was taken back! We were having a normal good physio session but it was topped off by a surprising move. Got up off the plinth myself stood for like 30 seconds totally by myself. I was stunned, mum was stunned, Victoria was […]
Read More Overjoyed!I’m just lying here suppose to be trying to be sleep but i cant sleep for the sobbing. 😭. My uncle just sent me this. I really hope he’s right.
Read More Sobbing messThis video is from @emilycoxhead I just really appreciated it this morning. The weekend over so back to the working on myself. Monday’s are hard. View this post on Instagram Things aren’t always easy, straight-forward or exactly as you’d planned. You’re not the only one struggling or having a bad day… or month! We all […]
Read More VideoLike you NEVER imagine you’ll not have 2 working arms! You can believe you’ll be in a wheelchair if you break a leg or something. But only have one working arm? No way! It never crosses your mind! I always thought I would be able to lift both the dogs!
Read More I hope I can eventually!I wear glasses now which as I’ve said before is one of the few visible changes that has resulted from the TBI. But luckily I really like glasses now. 🤓 It wasn’t intentional but I chose basically the same glasses again. Backing up the invisible injury thing. The crash might not have damaged me physically […]
Read More Specky four eyes!Last night James and I were very kindly given a wheelchair seat and accompanying seat to see the Belfast’s comedian Paddy Raff! It was a great night. I haven’t really heard of him before, he got big over the years I have really missed out on due to the annoying thing (brain injury) but I […]
Read More Me, myself and Nigel.I am feeling in really low mood but I just need to remember I don’t know what is ahead. I don’t want to miss the good stuff. So this is just a call out to anyone who is thinks they can’t go on – you don’t want to miss out on the great stuff future […]
Read More You don’t know what is around the corner…Today was a brilliant day in physio! Successfully stood by myself with nothing supporting my back and not leaning on anything with my arm! So totally and truely free! Just managed for a minute and then started to fall back on the plinth. It gave me more hope that I would get there eventually. Hopefully […]
Read More Physio success!I’ve met a number of lovely people out of this tbi experience! One of those is the beautiful Michelle ❤️ She called today to see me and brought me a beautiful present 🎁 This wonderful hat!
Read More Something good out of this hell!Today’s impressionistic painting of palm trees on beach! I love the colours. They seem like they are shouting ‘yay! I’m happy!’
Read More As happy as I can be…Bathing is something enjoyable but this kind of bathing is not. It makes it clammy and claustrophobic. I’m expressing how this situation makes me feel like. And this morning this expression really hammer the nail in the right in the middle of the head.
Read More Bathing in frustration.This is me saying it to James and all my family and friends ❤️
Read More Thank you for that…But for me it’s forever
Read More March may be the month…🙄you might be getting fed up hearing about my art but I love it cause it’s one of the things I can still do and take pride in! Tonight my auntie called round and collected two painting she liked! She has really looked out for my parents the last few years so I have to […]
Read More More creativity…🙄Creativity is the best drug I’ve been prescribed. 1. It soothes my mind. 2. Lets me express my thoughts and feelings. 3. Helps me remove unwanted tension from my body. The list could go on but that the main 3 reasons…
Read More The drug called creativityI think this brain injury took away my ability to be happy. For a period of time I couldn’t be happy. I struggled to feel any joy. It’s slowly and gradually returning. But I wonder will my feelings be dampened down forever now?
Read More Finding HappinessAs you all would probably be able to tell from this blog my favourite therapy is physio, but there is something so lovely and relaxing being near animals. I’m lucky I have two family dogs that are like therapy dogs to me ❤️ Little Lola was doing the job tonight of being my therapist! She […]
Read More The best therapy!Final one for tonight I think. It’s a feel good one for all the people/girls who feel like they are constantly fighting just to be themselves…
Read More Just to sicken you all…Gotta keep reaching for those tiny sparkly things in the sky! #reachforthestars
Read More Achieving and becomingI love it! Persistent Rebekah is a Persistent Sister! #nevergiveup
Read More Per-sisterI was looking back to when I first transferred to rabiu and I looked like this…
Read More Realisation of improvements…💪🏻 I went through a feeling sorry for myself stage but what will that do? NOTHING (but maybe encourage all those frown lines which we don’t want!)
Read More Strong womanThis recovery road is long and windy. It’s quite repetitive too (a bit like these blogs!) 😆 A step forward seems to be always followed by two or three steps back, might not be physically moving back but my mood moves around frequently. How has this brain injury effected your life? That is a massive […]
Read More Recovery roadI’m really feeling lost in brain injury recovery now. It’s been 3.5 years and not at all where I’d like to be. …*sigh*…and google says this. At least I have a chance with brain plasticity. ‘Can you fully recover from brain injury? Unlike most other cells in the body, brain cells do not regenerate when […]
Read More Feeling lost…I’ve said this a number of times but sleep is majorly needed after brain injury. Tonight James came up for dinner but mainly to see me…and this happened! ☹️😂 my busted brain was tired. Lucky he’s a really good egg and doesn’t mind!!
Read More Zzzzzzz…Today I had to go get my eyes checked out. So I went to connswster spec savers to pick some new glasses. I’ll get them next week and they are also going to put a prism in to assist my vision with its 3rd nerve palsy problem I got with my head trauma! I went […]
Read More 3rd Nerve PalsyA phrase that we all likely know is man up! But why should we all have to ‘man up’! Men need women too! I absolutely loved this top when I spotted beginning worn online so I told my uncle and he and my aunt kindly got together and ordered me one! I just love it!’ […]
Read More Woman Up!http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/FqIACCH20JU ‘Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue Thought I heard you talking softly I turned on the lights, the TV, and the radio Still I can’t escape the ghost of you What has happened to it all? Crazy, some’d say Where is the life that I recognize? Gone away But I […]
Read More I will learn to surviveA big group of family went out to the Poachers Pocket last night for a really lovely meal and to celebrate David’s birthday 🙂 I would really recommend the Poacher Pocket the food was lovely and it had a lovely atmosphere! ❤️ https://www.ballooinns.com/the-poachers-pocket
Read More Party time!I always loved doing make up. My Tbi hand shake made this a little challenging. But my good friend who is a nail and eyelash artist knows me well and got me a Ciara Daly hero brush! Which is amazing! Helping me get good looking foundation everytime! 😎 https://www.ciaradalymakeup.com
Read More Unbelievable!http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/m8AXUq5uA0Y (I’ll not let you down) Please don’t let me down.
Read More Keeping your head up…And I say that in all seriousness. Not just because it sounds nice. My grandmother who contributed greatly to my up bringing (I spent everyday mum and dad were working with her) has had her own personal battles for many years. She got Rheumatoid arthritis at around 46 and Macular degeneration at around 72. She […]
Read More Strength must be in the blood…Sometimes when I read/see things online about what others are doing/have done during tbi recovery I choke. “How can they be so good already?” “Life is NOT fair” “We can’t be THAT different.” But then I need to bear in mind how severe my traumatic brain injury was. A brain injury can go from a […]
Read More Hard to swallow..I have talked about her lots but I have made a great friend through this brain injury that I am so glad I know! https://gemmabromley.co.uk I painted Gemma a version of my sky brain injury picture! It arrived with her and she put it up and she said ‘it makes me smile everyday!’ 🙂 💗
Read More Love❤️This morning in BIM with Erin and I got a photo I feel very privileged they put this up on their Instagram! @braininjmatters
Read More Instagram love!We all need to remember this when we doubt ourselves… It’s just trying to find the successful and right way. You have got to find your own way to success as it might be different to another’s way…
Read More I can do it!As you likely know from this blog I love to cook! So this afternoon I made a jalfrezi curry (it was a cheat again from Lidl https://www.lidl.co.uk/) but hopefully it’s tasty! Here’s the today’s photos of me in action: As well mum informed me today that even if my left hand never gets back to […]
Read More Yes chef!Painting is my sword. It helps me kill and overcome my feelings of failure and let down I get from the faults I’ve been cursed with through this tbi. Today I killed a few more ghostly demons in my head through these quite delightful lavender.
Read More A brush is my weapon.😆 watch out Clark Kent #jokes #tbi #funny #clarkkent #supergirl (me after doing Clark Kent’s job for a day – 🥱😴)
Read More Tonight’s finale funnyToday I did my first time volunteering at the brain injury matters stall in the brain injury unit were I was a patient in 2017! https://www.braininjurymatters.org.uk I think it’s great that they hold a stand every month so patients and their families can a learn a little bit about this service that is available for […]
Read More We were there!Recovery from brain injury is a seriously long road and one where it can sometimes feel that the destination is moving farther away from you the harder you try to reach it. I just wanted to do a blog post that’s right down to reality. I write about all sorts of issues on here – […]
Read More Long road – stripped backToday! Happy-ish…just hate that I’m #braininjured I feel like a serious weirdo and I just wonder will I ever feel ‘normal’ again. Note: I’m now a serious fan of yellow because in my swimming class if it’s not a terrible day it’s yellow so yellow is our happy colour! And I just need not to […]
Read More Don’t worry be happy!You might have fallen in love before. It’s a wonderful feeling. It’s been decided. I’ve done a blog on loving myself but irritating Trevor came along a caused major problems for reBROKEN Rebekah She needs to try and fall in love with herself. If she hates her body and brain they will not want to […]
Read More Fall in loveIt’s Sunday. Day off. No one here. I should be happy but I’m not. Woke up wailing. I’m just so sad. I probably paint quite a positive picture. Which is true at the time of me writing the blog. But writing really helps me. I suppose it could be like counseling yourself. You go get […]
Read More others termsIt was great and included: Prosecco Chinese food Cider Live rugby ‘Craic’ Visiting Sophie sister Red wine Meeting lovely people
Read More Surreal SaturdayMy mind set is okay I feel. It goes up and down but obviously we should all try to keep our mindset up there…
Read More MindsetBefore any of this nightmare had started… I’d be married now and wouldn’t know anything of traumatic brain injuries… how lucky I’d be, 5 minutes earlier or later on the road 2020 would be miles different than being in this present which seems like my personalized hell were I’m not owning my own life. …but […]
Read More Instagram flashback…Two photos we took in physio today. The first image is bad sitting posture the second is good sitting posture. I should always aim to be sitting well. Then hopefully that will be the ‘natural’ way for my body to sit! I’ve been to lacks on my posture so need to build it back so […]
Read More Important PostureAnd why not? It’s the least you can do for number 1! Got my nails done by my marvellous friend Jennie 🙂 We decided we make a fabulous team! Jennie is amazing at the paintings nails and I’m quite good at design! New future business nails by Jenkah!
Read More Pampering myself!My ‘normal’ is not the average normal. How I wish it was. What is yours? Think about everyone’s normal is totally different really, so the ‘normal’ people are the weird ones! (Just trying to make myself feel better!)
Read More NormalI just hate that my body looks ‘perfect’ but it’s really miles from ‘perfect’. I am obviously not referring to having the perfect body by any means (massive derrière so that’s the first not prefect thing) but ‘prefect’ as in it should work totally grand! Nothing damaged or broken. I’m really struggling. Its not even […]
Read More Might be lucky for the cushioning!My mood seems to be in constantly on a graph. It won’t ever settle on a flat line it always seems to dip constantly, this is a low moment. At least we are close to the weekend and can get the party started!
Read More When will this end?I did art for BIM which I told you about before. IT’S UP! Yeooo! BIM is such a fantastic charity and being there and meeting others who understands this brain injury experience makes me remember that the sun is still there always no matter how much it doesn’t feel like it!
Read More Buzzin’In BIM today we made a note to look at ourselves. Especially on down days.
Read More Today’s art!http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/5NPBIwQyPWE I know I’ve a blog with this song before but I really liked this picture. Suppose we wouldn’t be the most intelligent creatures on the planet if our brains weren’t complicated 🤷🏻♀️ (Just to back up the point that brain injury can effect us in very different ways I reread this blog and […]
Read More Why d’ya have to go make things so complicated?…As usual I’m going to report on swimming! It was great! And I had another (I think significant first!) I was standing facing the side and successfully raised my left knee! I hope this is the next thing to come I will be so happy if it arrives! Something you don’t think about but when […]
Read More Single leg!Don’t stop! Only look back to congratulate yourself on how far you have come on the rollercoaster ride.
Read More Keep going!In my grannys and my wee 94 year old grandfather never fails to make me feel better for 2 reasons! 1. He is just brilliant and so sweet! 2. He makes me feel better being more mixed up than me! It’s Tuesday – which most people know. He just said ‘is it not Saturday?’He was […]
Read More Is this not Saturday!?We all will have both types of days on recovery. Just put the bad ones ‘down the toilet’ and move on!
Read More It takes bothSaw this put up on Facebook tonight. I never really thought about this saying before but I think that this picture describes it just right. Sometimes it takes more bravery to take it off. This is something I’m really bad at because as a society we are brought up that the ‘brave face’ is the […]
Read More Brave FaceChubby face and skinny legs…always wanted skinny legs but if I knew it would take me to not walk to get them I wouldn’t have bothered wishing. #towishornottowish #thatisthequestion #tbi #girl #braininjury #wrappedup #babyitscoldoutside
Read More If I knew this I wouldn’t have wished!http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/AzjMmwki1Fs Well you look like yourself But you’re somebody else Only it ain’t on the surface Well you talk like yourself No, I hear someone else though Now you’re making me nervous I love this song so much. It just reflects brain injury I think – well you look like yourself but you’re somebody […]
Read More Well you look like yourself…I know I have done a blog very similar to this but I’m really feeling like an ‘actual artist’. My paintings are making it on people’s walls! My dad sent me this yesterday. It might be his friends house but they still think it’s good enough for the wall. Such a compliment!
Read More Actual Artist!I got a extra special birthday present today! Ate at the table in the dining room for the first time in 3.5 years! Also as it’s my birthday I blew out another birthday cake! As I’m very controlled 🙄 and influenced by Linda and on a diet I decided I would put the THIRD birthday […]
Read More The first of many!Looking back on Facebook memories from 6 years ago that appeared! I think I may have done a similar blog last year so apologies if I am majorly repeating myself! 6 years ago would make me 22! Wee very VERY young thing! Hadn’t even experienced anything eventful in life (was lucky I hadn’t experience anything […]
Read More 22!I’m not criticizing at all. Just trying to let people know as I imagine I’m not the only person who feels like this. As you are probably aware we (a few friends and I went out for a lovely meal for my birthday- stop playing that card okay) I didn’t want to make a scene […]
Read More VoiceMy birthday is tomorrow! 16th February! So tonight went out to a lovely Indian restaurant with some friends to celebrate early https://www.bengalbrasseriebelfast.com
Read More Out tonight to celebrate!As you likely are aware (cause I’ve made enough fuss about it! 😝😁) tomorrow is my birthday. As tomorrow is Sunday i received a few cards in the post today. Which included this one this card really meant a lot to receive from my aunt. I loved the words ‘overwhelming obstacles’ as that’s a great […]
Read More Overwhelming obstacles…pull yourself together Kate I’m referring to the show we went to last night!.. My greatest friend Sophie (who is the fantastic ot I talk about). Her and her husband Joey took James and I to see Kiss Me Kate so I could start my birthday celebrations extra early and have a lovely valentines evening […]
Read More Kiss Me Kate!…Happy valentines to all. Have great day whatever you’re doing. If you’ve got someone great! Have a wonderful love filled day! If you don’t have the ‘right one’ don’t panic! Love yourself! Especially be careful and love your brain! https://www.loveyourbrain.com
Read More Happy Valentines!I’m feeling major thanks and appreciation for a card and gift I received in the post today! It was from my inspirational friend, Gemma, with whom I’ve built a valuable friendship As much that I feel the Brain Injury took away from me, it gave me this special friendship that I’m very glad we have […]
Read More Gratitude and InspirationI think it looks quite well and to check back in it tasted good too! 🙂
Read More Dinner plated!This is getting quite repetitive. I know I have done a blog on making these turkey burgers before but I did it again this afternoon and I think they came out good! Hopefully they are nice! Definitely going for miss independent soon!
Read More Family dinner!And dad sent me a lovely text this morning saying how I always was a winner from a young age and I still have a winning outlook so I shouldn’t panic! It was such a nice text to receive that sort of message, and yeah it’s super slow recovery but I’m gonna try not to […]
Read More Winners are born not madeWill I ever get my life back? I asked my mum (probably an this unfair question) tonight… Like when I think about life and things that went on… – work – hobbies – shopping – walks in the park – restaurants experiences – out for a drink – going to visit people – parties – […]
Read More Life is what you make it.James just text me this picture and said ‘‘Broken but not useless”. I love the concept.
Read More Broken but not uselessWatching my new programme ‘Locke and Key’ and in this episode it was such a coincidence that the flora cash song ‘You’re Somebody Else’ (my brain injury song) was playing in the back round! Again as I said yesterday everything leads back to this one horrendous event. The brain injury is me and is in […]
Read More My new programI was on Instagram. I found a post tagged #braininjury and of the expression said was spot on. It expressed how recovering from brain injury is not for the faint hearted. It’s really not, your heart gets a lot tougher and stronger as I’ve said before you break it every day: so all that shattering […]
Read More Rewiring the brainAs long as you find yourself again
Read More It’s okay to lose yourself in thisJames got me these funky wee slipper socks when he was away skiing! ‘Fiesta De Pi-Llamas!’ 😆💜
Read More Fiesta de Pi-llamasStarted watching this series on Netflix tonight. It was proper mental with all the stuff going on. Of course I can connect it to brain injury cause the mum in the show lost total memory of the first crazy event. Really creepy show but I’ve only watched 1 episode so got keep going to learn […]
Read More Locke & keyCan’t be no one else http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/BJKpUH2kJQg
Read More I need to be myselfBe Yourself. Always.
Read More Be yourself……it might seem like a negative one, but it’s still progression! If you have been on this Rebroken journey with me you would be aware I said in a previous blog “I cant cry but my heart cry’s every damn day” Well we have progression! And I’m seriously turning the negative into a positive. I’ve […]
Read More I see this is as progression…As I was writing my last blog post and feeling terrible, James just sent me through this picture… It was like he could sense how bad I felt and read my mind and understood how shit I was feeling.
Read More Much needed.Looking, sounding and feeling. 3 seriously different things.
Read More Seriously differenthttp://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/hB2sUXd3eVg Hadn’t sickened you all with DK for awhile so I thought it was time. But really this song has the line ‘Her heart was never meant for this’ and that’s how I feel. My heart was not meant for this, it’s too soft.
Read More Her heart was never meant for this… I woke up at like 6.15 ish for no reason really. Just woke up extremely sad and thought a way I could project my feelings on to something else was blog. So apologies if you were looking for exciting news or whatever. Won’t get it here but if you want some sorrow I have […]
Read More 6.33I might seem like a mind expert getting through this brain injury but I’m definitely not a mind reader. My mum/Linda must think I am 🤔 She left a square of chocolate down on my table and didn’t explain anything! So I just thought it was for eating… and obviously ate it!.. she just came […]
Read More I’m not a mind reader…I hope someone follows my personal Instagram soon. I feel unlucky having 666 followers but then really bad luck shouldn’t scare me! 💪🏻 i had my fair share of bad luck already and I’m still here ‘plodding along’. Maybe I should be more technical and say still rolling along. Eh 🤷🏻♀️ you know what I […]
Read More 666It took the brain injury to discover I had a pure love for painting. Tools for the job: paint bushes, acrylic paints and love 💓. As it is a gift for my very supportive brain injury friend who has been a massive support and an inspiration. Home
Read More More love than I ever thought!Physio this evening I was standing leaning on the wall lightly.
Read More Leaning on me!My main goal, my only goal really is walking. Walking is maybe further away than I thought. It’s destroys me in every way. Every day it murders me to think of it. EVERYDAY. Which really makes no sense as when something is murdered it won’t come back but that’s not the same for murdering thoughts. […]
Read More My Massive GoalAs you may know from my recent blog about getting a new plinth and moving my physio upstairs we were able to send the hospital bed back cause I now have the physio plinth upstairs for doing my physio and stretches! Next step…bring the dining room back!! 🙌🏻
Read More Bye bye now…I was watching Holby city tonight. I don’t normally watch it but Linda turned it on. The line I’ve made the title was said ‘Life is too short for moping’ I really need to listen to that. It was a chat that I had today with a PA. I know I need to listen to […]
Read More Life Is To Short For MopingToday’s art is for BIM! It’s two pictures message that brain injury need to believe!
Read More Art for bim!Every morning and feel a pain I can’t really describe. It’s not physical but at the same time it is. It’s like a deep hollow feeling in my chest. I need something to fill up the emptiness. Before this I would have been a cup half full kind of person but now it’s always 3 […]
Read More Wake upI feel that all I am about now ‘brain injury’ cause it’s in everything in my life right now. Causing me so much internal heartache and pain. I can’t even describe. Basically, life’s a bitch, I’m a bitch now, and obviously Lola is a bitch. That’s the 3 of us and they do say these […]
Read More Everything is heartachehttp://www.youtube.com/watch This song is music more ‘poppy’ than my usual choice but it’s a song about head injury 🤕 Just letting us know we’re gonna make it 💪🏻 which is all the reassurance I need. At the same time I’m really running out of patience.
Read More We’re gonna make itThis used to be me: Rebekah 2016, doesn’t even look like me now. The ‘new me’ is the me after the brain injury. I’m not happy with the new me. I’m really struggling, I don’t know why. I feel so bad hating the wheelchair cause I know that some people don’t have choice and can’t […]
Read More New MeTbi has encouraged me to choose more girly colours! Not that its of any interested to anyone but I’m much more inclined to choose girly colours than i would have been…i find it interesting and it backs up the point your brain is you..! #tbi
Read More I find this interesting…I was standing against the wall today working on my balance! My uncle and mum were upstairs with me! They encouraged me to try to move my left arm and it worked a wee bit! I told them it was probably cause Uncle Thomas was standing by my left and I wanted to punch him […]
Read More Punch you!My friend Gemma who lives in Scotland who I have mentioned a few times she has a brain injury too. And together we are tough 💪🏻 battling these brain injuries like bad ass b****** (dogs!) We have decided to create a space where people can connect, chat through their struggles and meet others with similar […]
Read More Brain Dump 🧠 🥴…I feel no different than before…but I suppose I need to bare this in mind. SADLY.
Read More I feel no different…I’m feeling so good. I had painted a picture for my piano teacher that I had when I was at school! She tagged me in this picture on Instagram… It looks like it’s really happy in its new home! 🙂
Read More Music to my ears!The Facebook page ‘Little Penny Thoughts’ puts up some lovely wee thoughts and saying. Saw this today and how evident it is for me. I always liked company and being very social but this tbi experience has made me turn into a bit of a loner. It’s no one’s fault but my own. I didn’t […]
Read More Just be there!Haha that’s a seriously exaggerated title! James and I went to Binkys kitchen at dundonald tonight as he is going skiing tomorrow so I won’t see him til next Saturday/Sunday. 😩 wahwahwah. So we made tonight to do something nice together! https://m.facebook.com/binkyskitchen/ And I’m so chuffed with myself I’ve managed to stick to ‘dry January’. […]
Read More Leaving party!People can be the same sea. The sea just some bits are tranquil and others rough and stormy. It’s the same as people. We all have flesh and blood but some are always calm and others can blow a fuse at the ‘smallest’ things.
Read More FusesSo true! … 💪🏻
Read More Hardships…It’s BIM day! It’s so good to have that going on. Lovely group of young people all fighting a new or older brain injuries. I just love that group! Well to make today even better I did loads of walking in BIM! But I feel in a very sad mood. I’m out of hospital basically […]
Read More SadToday was swimming day which is always a day I love! And it was super! My left knee was very responsive. Bending right up high very comfortably. And my wonderful and super lovely instructor Andrea, also thought I was doing better and let me swim 2 lengths of doggie paddle and one length of breaststroke!! […]
Read More Swimming day!I was chatting with my uncle (as usual sorry these are all so samey! But when Thomas and I talk the cross of intelligence gets the blog language flowing 😂) anyway, we were discussing how I have met so many lovely, interesting people on this brain injury road and some very good friends. The one […]
Read More Met more of myselfhttp://www.youtube.com/watch My friend Gemma https://gemmabromley.co.uk who got a brain injury many years ago and I would say who has basically fully recovered just sent me this song and stated how this song had been quite descriptive for her and her brain injury. I think that it’s quite accurate as ‘you may look like yourself but […]
Read More You look like yourself but you’re somebody elseI’m so excited to discover what my new path will hold! I can’t wait to see what’s hopefully worthwhile and helpful things I can do with this brain injury experience! Whether it’s advice from this experience, hope to others, being a volunteer for a related charity, showing helpful skills to other people mid brain battle […]
Read More I’m not sad, I’m excited!This afternoon I had to go back to the brain injury unit for new splints to be cast! (This is not my splints just a google generic photo!) But asides from the awful feels I get when I have to go, what I love is seeing some of the wonderful people who cared for me […]
Read More Brain Injury UnitI took this image from a wonderful Instagram account @lifewithtbi That is exactly what this brain injury is like a bulldozer coming in and changing everything instantly. One day to the next and it’s ALL different! This song is not directly relevant but it’s called wrecking ball 🤷🏻♀️
Read More It came in like a wrecking ball…My uncle called me a fearless tyrant! Haha! I was talking about going Rabiu (the Brain Injury Unit) I have to go for a review of my big splints. I don’t want to go back, but at the same time I think its necessary. I would hate to be staying. I don’t want to even […]
Read More Thank you but I don’t want to stay…Woohoo! Reached a major goal today! As I’ve probably said on here before I used to adore cooking! I was definitely the chef of mine and James’ house but since the brain injury and only having one working hand I’ve had to give up working in the kitchen! Well not today! I successfully made my […]
Read More Lovely lunch!
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