Maybe…

Read this on @diffyc86 Facebook and thought that maybe I’m not healing as fast as I would like (I’m obviously healing) but maybe I need to accept more to progress more and accept the new person #🤷🏻‍♀️

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There isn’t one…

As much as I wish there was an overnight fix, there isn’t one. (repost @fearnecotton – as much as I wish there was one there is not an overnight fix for this brain injury. I was told by a friend it would take ‘patience and time’ is what it will take which is exactly right)

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Take a break!

James and I are featured in this months Take A Break! 😊 If you get it you’ll see James and I! (It’s in the monthly edition, not weekly)

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Today’s haiku

It takes time to connect the dots so stop hurrying everything by Haiku Jam So this was what I painted. As it was with brain injury matters art class I felt the message could connect the words with brain injury. ‘It takes time to connect the dots’ (brain injury) ‘so stop hurrying’ (don’t try and […]

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First time success!

Having 1 working arm is not really something you think about when you are born with two working! So I have had to adjust to a lot with only one working at the moment! But this evening I had major success! You may be aware of my old news. I have mastered taking my jumper/top […]

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Time Heals

@fearnecotton shared some of her sketches. This one really stood out. It’s what I need to believe ‘TIME HEALS’ (this is likely referring to losing someone with the eye possibly crying but I did lose myself for awhile)

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Elephant in the room!

I went to physiotherapy tonight. Like I’ve said before the core is so important to help my overall recovery, For me it’s mainly my walking I desire, but if we had no core strength as humans, we may as well be worms 🪱! So tonight was back to thinking about core! As I was leaving […]

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Left side problems

BIM art class work today we were giving an image of trees and path to put together. I think I didn’t empathize the left trees enough with their leaves. Everything goes wrong on the left for me since this brain injury it seems. 🤷🏻‍♀️ #leftsideproblems

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Little Woollen Rabbit

You may remember I spoke about Andy and Emma before. They went to my school, Emma was in some of my classes and her husband Andy was 2 years above us. It was a strange, unfortunate coincidence that mine and his accidents were in the same week. But anyway why I am writing this – […]

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…low battery

If anyone reading this knows a thing or two about brain injuries you would know that survivors sometimes suffer from fatigue. I have got so used to running on ‘low power’ mode. I don’t really remember what having ‘full power’ is like.

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Perfect description

View this post on Instagram A post shared by nazeeg (@invisiblescar) @invisiblescar has got this exactly right. I didn’t say it hurt because it didn’t physically hurt very much but mentally it was painful getting torn apart from the ‘self’ you had known.

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Paradise

Just because I haven’t done this for a while… I’m proper obsessed with this tune! If you wanna feel like dancing this weekend you could give this tune a listen. It’s ‘ravey’ but it features my fairly newly developed obsession Dermot Kennedy! Would give me a good reason to practice my standing and raving techniques!! […]

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Love this machine!

Was in @backontrackniltd this morning with the queen 👑 using the Reformer! Today I got my arms involved too using a Pilates ring! View this post on Instagram A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) View this post on Instagram A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) View this post on Instagram A post shared […]

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Art class today!

Today we did art using words we selected from a book or magazine. I used George Orwell’s Animal Farm. These were the words I selected: Windmill, Nonsense, Eyes, Tears Here is my painting interruption!

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ROARRR

My hospital bff left this link on my Facebook on my videos of me on the reformer today! I loved it! Made me feel powerful, ‘badass’ and successful!

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Love this equipment!

Was in @backontrackniltd this morning with the queen 👑 using the Reformer! Today I got my arms involved too using a Pilates ring! View this post on Instagram In @backontrackniltd #tbi #legwork #girl #squatlike #pushitrealgood A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) on Nov 10, 2020 at 7:50am PST View this post on Instagram @backontrackniltd […]

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Yoga love!

I really love doing yoga with the star teacher @yogawithdenis ❤️ Today was super as always. Did both work in standing and sitting! I love doing yoga. I can honestly say it’s helping my recovery a lot, it’s challenging me physically and giving me an excellent frame of mind! https://www.yogawithdenis.com

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Too late i think…

It’s too late for this point I think. This blog is about both my struggle and my identity. The main reasons behind this blog is to keep record of the journey. It is my brain injury. Which is an unimaginable struggle. I don’t mind here as anyone that reads would gather it’s about everything – […]

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Physio yesterday!

It was brought up I’m at a closer stage of getting an aid just need to control the pushing in my right hand for it to work. If I had an aid and my right hand was pushing to much I would push myself back and land on my bottom at the minute. Need to […]

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New T-shirt!

“And just like that everything changed.” I received this T-shirt in the post yesterday! It was purchased from my dear internet friend and fellow brain injury survivor Gemma Bromley. If you would like this too so you can join me in being too cool for school 😎 you can purchase yours here: Home

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Important points

I was at http://backontrack.healthcare. with her majesty Queen of physio! Delighted to get to go here! This is this week’s video! I’ve got new homework, as well as always try to keep my pelvis forward in sitting I’ve got to try and keep my hips in line or slightly forward in standing/walking. Straightness is the […]

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Take A Break

Tonight it was confirmed that James and I are gonna be featured Take a Break at end of November/start of December. I think coming up to Christmas is quite a good time cause Christmas Eve 2016 was when I spoke for the first time in 3 months after the crash. My words were ‘I have […]

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Personal Development

Today doing the PDAB course (personal development after brain injury) with #cedar on zoom. It’s wonderful we have zoom widely available now. I would say even 5 years ago I hadn’t even heard it, never mind used it!

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Hard days

This came up as a memory I had posted on Facebook last year. I think that this is how I keep going sometimes. Remembering through the hard days that there are better ones coming.

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IronWill recorded.

I recorded a podcast today with @iw_ironwill . I enjoyed it very much and it should be up next week so I’ll keep you up to date on when you can hear it! Here are some photos of me in hospital I sent to them. Looking at these show me I’ve actually improved in myself. […]

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This months report:

As you may know I go to Steele Physio once a month to use the Alter-G to help my walking gait. I love going here to use this specific equipment. Home Well tonight was not as feel good as other times, but eh? You can’t expect everything to be perfect all the time… ☹️ My […]

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Have to think big

James WhatsApped me this picture this morning. It’s an extract from ‘The magic of thinking big’ by David J Schwartz. This extract includes the line ‘my spirit is one hundred percent intact. I’m really grateful for that’. That particular line stood out for me. Have to be grateful that I didn’t lose everything about myself. […]

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You don’t give up do you?

I was watching Captain America tonight as James and I have decided to take on the commitment of watching all the marvel films. I’m excited but warning! expect a few very predictable blogs like this. There was 2 great lines in Captain America I am going to share tonight. I only share lines I feel […]

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#dontgiveup

Me standing today. My weakness now is my balance. It seems every obstacle I climb over another one comes along. Like my left leg is quite responsive when trying to walk (which it wasn’t for quite a while) now I’ve got over moving – my terrible balance is holding back the independent walking. 🙁

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Cinnamon & Swirl

Beautiful cinnamon swirls made by cinnamon & swirl a new established bakery business in moneyreagh. We ordered from them today! Received absolutely delightful swirls! https://www.facebook.com/cinnamonandswirl/ Would 100% recommend this wonderful small family business if you’re looking for a mid morning treat.. Actually tasty for any time of day! (Sorry delivery only available in moneyreagh and […]

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Difficult Description

I’m in a low place at the moment. Difficult. That’s how I would describe this brain injury situation and how it has made me feel I need help for most situations. It’s difficult. What else can I say? Difficult. So I decided to look up difficult: So much effort is needed in this battle with […]

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Last night

Well it was last night but I think 🤔 it may also the LAST NIGHT for a while we will be free to go out for a wee dinner and drinks date… Out of the last time for the foreseeable future we went out for dinner @the_hoose_bistro_ and as usual I sat happily in an […]

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Greeting Floors

I don’t want you all to think I make out this recovery journey is easy, fun all the time or straight forward…this is a photo of my wee face this morning with no make up on. I fell on my face yesterday, lucky for me nothing was badly bruised or broken, just a tiny bit […]

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Makes all the difference to me

Today I received such encouraging feedback from a thoughtful person who reads and values this blog. To know that I’m making a difference to others in their situation makes all the difference to me. The main thing is I can encourage people in whatever their situation, and knowing I can do this encourages me.

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Back to the gym!

Me walking with the wonderful physio Victoria 👑 in @backontrackniltd http://backontrack.healthcare physio. From now on I’m not gonna to walk with my right hand pushing on my leg and causing false security in my middle region and I want to learn to walk, balance and have a free arm! But when I watch it back […]

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It’s the weekend!🥳

🥳💗🌈 It’s the weekend woo! That means I’ve got actual physical physio this afternoon not just on the computer! I felt in good mood this morning so I have another attempt to my thicker eyeliner on the lid! Feeling quite positive at the moment (really hope it lasts longer than the the morning!) Alfie Anderson […]

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Abstract dance

By Azumi UchitaniOctoberAbundance of colours,Dancing with joy,in the autumn mountains Today in the brain injury matters art we were painting using the Haiku technique again on the piece above by Azumi Uchitani. I really enjoyed this weeks work, I had had an appointment last week so had been unable to be in the class. So […]

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Recovering…

Before this brain injury I was such a people pleaser, but now I just think why would I do something/say something just because it’s what someone else wants but not necessarily what I want/think… (I think that many people do this we should maybe reassess ourselves) – better check is that ok?

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Winking to the world

The wonderful artist that was in the brain injury unit with me Glenn Hanna kindly drew me another portrait of myself! It made me feel good because he said it was me ‘winking to the world’! I loved that expression because it puts a really positive spin on my dropped left eye which I normally […]

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Why not treat yourself!!

It’s a normal Tuesday but we felt like a party! We are having lovely (if you like it) steak for dinner and we decided to crack open the sparkling wine we were kindly given by a family friend! James was supposed to be on holiday in Portugal again for a second attempt (corona caused the […]

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Not bad for a first attempt!

Pleased! Managed to do my mascara AND eyeliner on the lid! If there is anyone who knows me in person you would know I used to love a bit of liquid liner but with the hand shake, unsteady TBI hand i hadn’t even attempted until today! Not perfect but I don’t think bad for a […]

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Yo-yo syndrome

I don’t know if that’s an official syndrome, but last night that was what I decided I have. Never stay happy for too long but I suppose it works both ways if I describe it like that. I would never stay sad for too long either. In reality the sadness would win if they were […]

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Awesome Alter-G

This evening returned to Steele Physio (http://steelephysio.com) to use their Alter-G treadmill! It was great! Home I think I need to work on my left foot placement but practice does make perfect and I’m going to try and go back again as I said before. You may not be able to tell in these videos […]

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Positive!

Went for a physio review in rabiu today. As there are lots of Covid restrictions I couldn’t go round and see all the lovely staff who had cared for me in my time there as an patient. But very positive! Robo has been keeping my muscles in tip-top condition! Haven’t decreased in my muscle flexibility […]

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Good advice for anyone

I’m not so sad anymore but I was on Facebook and saw this picture on one of the brain injury pages just thought it was so lovely and I thought I would have liked to see that before now. But it’s good advice for anyone.

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Life day

Today is a sad/happy day for me. 4th year anniversary of my brain injury. FOUR YEARS. But I have to think of how far I travelled up this recovery road. But I can’t help and feel regret and bitterness about how much time I’ve lost but at the same time I wouldn’t be ‘me’ without […]

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It’s still you

Physio tonight in the wonderful @backontrackniltd clinic with Victoria 💗 good session but i need to stop imitating an ostrich with my sticky out neck! I look so worried in this photo! Honestly not! And I just wanted to bring back to why I started this blog, yes firstly it was a way to follow […]

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Getting you back up!

Another reference to the lovely Gem’s book. But this is what we have to think is going to happen. POSITIVE THINKING. ‘The universe IS getting you back on your feet for the greatest comeback of your life. Are you ready?’ Home

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September walk!

Today we had our brain injury matters art which I always love! https://braininjurymatters.org.uk Today we were doing very abstract art making a piece using objects we could make prints on a piece of cardboard to create our picture! So it was just an interpretation I went for a mountain scene. Based on what I think […]

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Very real point of view

I was reading Gemma’s book again tonight. This line really jumped out at me. I totally agree with this but I think it is ‘a good’ reason to feel slightly depressed. I definitely felt a bit down in the early days of recovery as I felt that ‘life’ had taken a lot away from me. […]

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Let’s go Ulster!

Tonight James and I went to watch the Ulster rugby match against Leinster. But due to circumstances at the moment with this virus surrounding everything the matches aren’t able to have a live audience, but the next best thing has been set up! A screen playing the match with lots of fans parked in their […]

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talking with half a head!

My friend Gemma Bromley talking about some of her experience with brain injury on Instagram yesterday! View this post on Instagram Listen to Gemmas incredible story of her brain injury and her recovery A post shared by 💫 (@elena___k) on Sep 9, 2020 at 12:49pm PDT Her book comes out this month!

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Then and now. (Now and now)

BIM gave us a task to complete for Belfast Exposed photography We had to take photographs: ‘Select images that represent and describe you.’ These were mine and a small description: 1. The blank canvas represents the future is mine to create Art stuff represents a hobby that came back from brain injury. I used to […]

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100% inspiration!

My friend Gemma Bromley who I have mentioned before has done an AMAZING interview about her autobiography Half A Head. Cannot wait for the book to be out properly. Give the interview a listen! 081: Half a Head with Gemma Bromley

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Brain injury buds!

💗 💗 as much as I hate that we have brain injuries I love that I met Dympna! Would never have met her otherwise! Her and her partner always make a frequent effort to call and see me! Today they paid me a massive compliment. They told me how much better I have gotten from […]

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Don’t look back

Instagram repost @charls_story there’s no going back to the days were you have ‘easy days’ and don’t have to think about the basic things and living. But who knows what’s ahead? Definitely be thankful for everything and appreciate more. Maybe there’s something better and unexpected?..no one knows!

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Reasonable Response

My redundant left arm is responding reasonably well today (this video was after i had already done about ten good ones so muscle fatigue was probably creeping in) and I have to bare in mind that’s against gravity too. 😊 my dad is doing a great job with the physio stretches and exercise! Thank you […]

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Glass is refillable

The wonderful @iamgemmabromley put this up on Facebook tonight and I loved this point. The glass is always refillable so go fill it up from whatever tap you want (happiness tap, joy tap, excited tap etc) the choice is yours! Home

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Everythinggg!

Everything I exist doing now relates to brain injury. Like it’s probably so repetitive, sorry, but just imagine yourself in the situation it’s not easy to do anything anymore. Everything from walking, talking, thinking, expression, hand function even waving with both hands is hard to do/near impossible. Basically one side of your body is struggling […]

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My repetitive post

This post has been the same for 1 maybe 2 years. I’m sorry but at the same time I don’t know why should apologise. Everything was set in stone until the stone broke and I ended up with a brain injury and I wasn’t able to go on with my ‘normal life’ Today should be […]

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Never a vacation!

View this post on Instagram It’s been a rough summer. I’ve struggled. Lots of people have struggled. And I really want a vacation… 🏖 . Looking back at that first year post injury when I tried so hard to keep working… I had to reduce my hours, my symptoms dictated what I could do and […]

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We are all here for each other.

We may not fully understand another’s battles, but we are all here for each other. Paralysis Was Only A Minor Setback For This Woman As She Has Been Skydiving Despite Being In A Wheelchair Another amazing story. Just gives me so much reassurance and confidence I’ll become my confident, sure self again. Thank you for […]

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Yes we can!

Yes, I can overcome the challenges this injury gave me 🤞🏻and you can over come whatever your battles are too 😁💗 #yesican #yesyoucan #YESWECAN

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Got there!

(If your a good, very particular, well trained physio look away – you won’t approve!) Not really very graceful or sleek but got down the stairs by myself! When there’s a will there’s a way 😎😆 #igotthis💪 And that’s not fitting in the three steps there is at the top!

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It feels right!

I think as my neuro pathways have been disturbed and don’t send the correct signal sometimes, thing don’t work 100% correctly! For example my right knee over extends, which even though it seems to be working pretty perfectly the habit of overextending. Over time could cause further problems for me and my knee as time […]

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Hostess with the mostest!!

That’s what role I took up last night! James’s sister Jenny and her partner Andy who live in Manchester are over visiting! They brought their new wee cocker spaniel ‘Tina’ to meet her cousin ‘Alfie’! So they’re staying with us for a couple of days so I made the dinner last night. They are vegetarians […]

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Hard to swallow

Yes I use a wheelchair out of the house. In the house I am wheelchair free. I can walk if I have someone supporting me. I’m not unable. This something I seriously struggle with (which I am sure you can tell by now I have written about before!) I know I’ve been ‘lucky’ with this […]

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Inside our minds

By Beautiful Minds Production. In our young people’s group in Brain Injury Matters we wanted to create a straight forward animation of some of our own brain injury situations to raise awareness and show how brain injury can occur in any situation. Here is the end product: We produced this YouTube video: Edited by https://www.leahbatchelor.com […]

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Confused, Sad and Alone

This is just a vent. So down at the moment. I’m just feeling so confused, sad and alone. I know I’m not at all alone. I have super family, friends and James ❤️ around me on this journey too but as much as they are wonderful support around me it does not make the actual […]

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Never Forgot…

http://www.youtube.com/watch Mum and I were talking and the new Dermot Kennedy song just came on the radio and I started to sing his new song ‘Giants’ that was playing! It was just funny because mum noticed I basically knew every word to the (relatively) new song. So mum commented ‘you know every word already’! I […]

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Motor way vs scenic route

I thought this was a very nice description. Sophie (my friend who is an ot who I usually blog about on a Friday!) we had a chat, I thought interesting about brain injury, how it was like taking the scenic route were as life normally being like driving on the motorway. Normally we ‘rush’ through […]

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Been and becoming

I loved my old life but I’m falling in love with new life too. For a long time I wanted to go back, I still do sometimes but I have to stop and think why go back? That’s usually a negative, better to go forward and ‘move on’

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make it last

I understand somethings just come easy for people in anything (including recovery) but 9 times out of 10 it won’t be ‘easy’. I think if you want it and have to work for it, you’ll do all in your power to make it last.

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Take a leaf…

We should all take a leaf from this guy’s book 📖 Such admirable positivity! View this post on Instagram When you’re happy with just living life becomes simple, small things don’t matter and your inner Aura shines brighter than anything money could buy! So Don’t sweat the small stuff because at the end of the […]

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Covid style nails

View this post on Instagram Getting my nails done Covid style 😎 thank you @lashlove_jennie #nails #gelnails #girl #facemask #covidprotection #lookingcool #lookingsmart😎 A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) on Aug 12, 2020 at 7:51am PDT My lovely friend Jennie who is a beautician who specialises in nails came and did gel nails for me […]

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What’s yours?

Saw this on Facebook and just thought it was nice and positive! Dear Self,If things don’t go your way, do not lose hope for life will get better before you know it. What’s yours? Whenever you feel helpless Do not lose hope for You’re alive for a reason!

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I don’t give a falafel!

It wasn’t common for me to swear. But the brain injury happened and my tongue got looser with the swearing 🤬 which was hard for my parents and some family/friends cause they didn’t really like swearing. So mum was with me this morning and we were discussing something. And I came out with ‘I don’t […]

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Great disservice

I was chatting to @cd_worldwide on Instagram and he said something I had never really thought about (probably cause I give a lot of effort into most things!) He said this… “any time I am ‘down’ not wanting to push forward, I am doing the people that provide me such great care a huge disservice.”… […]

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Usual stunt!

‘Yeah we know you can stand by yourself’ I really need a new trick for getting photos in semi full outfits! My original plan was to talk about the standing by myself, but you all know I can do that now if you have been paying attention! Really I just loved the black outfit (goth/emo […]

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10/10

Tonight is Saturday and I was invited to my dear, dear friend Sophie’s house for homemade pizza! Her husband Joey is quite the pizza chef! And they had gotten a new pizza oven recently so that could be put to the test tonight! I can say it passed with flying colours! I can honestly say […]

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Wishy Washy

I feel this very strongly at the minute. I wouldn’t be who I think I have become without TBI and I feel more ‘myself’ than I ever did. I think it’s because I feel less ‘wishywashy’ than I was previously. 🤷🏻‍♀️ (hopefully you can understand that description.)

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No End.

Read this on one of the TBI Facebook groups today. I think it important to remember it’s never a quick fix. Take your time. Healing and recovery has no definite end.

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Always the same but different!

As usual this is a blog about me preparing dinner! But this week it’s dinner with a difference! Mince and vegetable stuffed peppers! Looks well I think and it wasn’t hard to do (but then again I have to bare in mind I love cooking!) but I mean even with one hand! My advice to […]

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Wait for someone

I read this on Facebook today… “Wait for someone kind. Wait for someone respectful, not only in the beginning stages of the relationship when things are bright and beautiful, but also when things get hard. Wait for someone who respects your boundaries and does not force you to do things that you’re not willing or […]

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Aspiring

http://www.youtube.com/watch I may have showed you this video before but it makes me smile from ear to ear. I aspire to have that attitude in whatever I’m doing. Yeah I know I’m working hard on learning how to walk again but this is just such a superb attitude to have and to face any obstacles […]

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Ups and downs.

I have said this before but this recovery road has serious ups and down. But it’s days like today it feels like this nothing has changed! Spoke to James parents and they have a great skill of making me feel at ease and not making my tbi problems (to me) not problems at all! We […]

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Try and catch!

This gave me a wee bit of a lift this morning. So could do the same for you. It might be so slow (it can feel like stop sometimes) journey you’re on at the moment, not necessarily brain related, but just keep your head up and I believe you’ll get through it (thats probably not […]

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Back to ‘normal’

I’m so happy 😁❤️ Saw the darling Sophie for the first time in 12 weeks now her shielding is complete. We greeted each other with a loving new elbow (old hug) I missed her so much these past number of weeks. She is such a good friend and being an occupational therapist she always has […]

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Friday feels!

Today is Friday and it’s the start of the weekend! Sarah and I went on a serious binge trip! I wasn’t following the ‘clean eating’ today, diet went out the window! We went to McDonald’s drive through followed by a lovely Tim Hortons treat! …mmm🍔🍟🧁…

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‘Some Summer Night’

Home As you all must know I adore the artist Dermot Kennedy. Tonight he was amazing. He played a live televised concert called ‘some summer night’ (in the very atmospheric Natural History Museum, London) which I of course bought a ticket for and James was roped into watching…! But I think I have made a […]

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*gush*

As much as I hate this brain injury, I’ve made some wonderful friends! I’ve spoken about Gemma before but she has helped me more than you could know and given me so much hope for the future! She put this on her instagram story tonight She has given me so much hope and ideas for […]

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Be more tree!

🌲 Saw this on Facebook today put up by someone and thought it was beautiful advice. We all need to be like a bit more like the trees. Trees help create oxygen, we need oxygen for life and so we need help from the trees to live. Be more tree like, indirectly help living things! […]

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better ahead

I saw this quote on an Instagram story and I just thought it was perfect. CS Lewis your mind was on the right track! #cslewis #quote #ontherighttrack #betterthings #leavebehind #byebye #👋🏻 #tbi #messagetoself

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I just wanna walk.

Like the title says. I just wanna walk. It’s just such a horrible feeling I have at the moment. Nothing is guaranteed. It’s making me feel so weak and vulnerable not knowing if I’ll ever be able to walk independently. This is not a feeling I’m familiar with. I normally don’t allow myself to feel […]

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I’m on the right track

I think I like where I’m at now. (You know this I’ve said it in so many blogs. But it’s so good say it out publicly with no shame/negative vibes.) For so long I was ‘why me?’ ‘I hate this situation’ – inadvertently hating myself ‘I just wish it wasn’t me’ But it’s like the […]

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Instagram

I have a Instagram just for my brain injury updates! I choose a new profile photo highlights it’s an Instagram based on head injury I think: The girl looks worried I think. That’s how I feel about this #braininjurylife worried/stressed/concerned. (May aswell get the advert in! @rebekahnesbitt if anyone wants to follow! 😝)

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Master the day

I find this hard to think about. It’s hard to relax but I need to remember that age is on my side so I hopefully have many days to master and it will keep getting easier. #tbi #takeyourtime #✌

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Be ambitious

I just looked the word ‘ambitious’ up. I think it’s an excellent word to use in this Context. – 📖 having or showing a strong desire and determination to succeed

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Brain injury tree 1 and 2!

I have already done a blog about my brain injury tree when I painted it a few months ago! But my lovely friend who was in hospital with me (I have mentioned her before) asked me for the tree painting! So I happily did her another one! Here’s the original: And here is version 2 […]

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Relaxed Joy

I did this painting for my mum to display in her dining room It’s called ‘relaxed joy!’ As that’s what our house needs to learn to relax! If our house was called anything it would be ‘stressed joy!’

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Tasty Tim’s!

Today James, Alfie and I took a nice trip to let Alfie mix with Sonny and Lola again on neutral ground and James and I went to the Tim Hortons drive through after! It was nice I had never been to the new drive through Tim Hortons but it was lovely! I wasn’t in the […]

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Coffee box!

Today was so lovely! Went for a wee dander/roll on the tow path with Alfie and Sadie ❤️ (and her lovely owner Chloe!) It was so lovely and we all got a wee coffee today and bun from the Coffee Box. And you all know I don’t like the wheelchair but today I just accepted […]

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Apples and more for home!

I did still life painting with the BIM art workshop today! The subject was some kind of fruit! I just went for green apples! …(cause going back to like 2k10 my name on MySpace was green apple girl) 🍏 After the art class i was in a painting mood so I decided to do a […]

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It’s hell!

I was doing my art session with the artist Glenn Hanna who was in the Brain Injury unit with me. Today we were just focusing on choosing colours to represent what we wanted to put across: This was my abstract painting of my ‘hell’ of a brain injury journey…

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New look!

Had my shoulder x-rayed were I had hurt it. Had to wear a mask to go into the clinic. This is life for the foreseeable future! (Maybe I should look for a fashionable mask if there is such a thing!) On a better note my shoulder is fine just rest needed! Which will not be […]

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Giants beautifully put.

Beautifully said by the main man of the moment Dermot Kennedy. How he described Giants is just right for this time of the virus but for me it also describes this brain injury journey. ‘Change hurts’ ‘loss of youth’ ‘how time evidently changes things’ “Change hurts and growing hurts. Giants is a song about just […]

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It will return!…(hopefully)

My super friend Sophie (the ot) who I used to see regularly every Friday night put this up on instagram ❤️ I really hope we get these times back. Times like this and her regular visits really helped me at the early days of recovery and continue to help me. Thank you so much Sophie. […]

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here’s an idea…

Just if you are feeling fed up not being able to do anything this is a enjoyable wee video to take up some time listening to a nice set by Simon from Biffy Clyro! Just an idea which you can enjoy in your own time!

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3 Cs

❤️ choice, chance and change ❤️ We have to make a choice, and sometimes take a chance, together these should lead to change. ❤️

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You grow mentally

and you become a different person – lines out of the magnetic documentary. It’s a documentary on extreme sporting activities eg. Skiing and surfing. But I thought I could connect this specific expression to this tbi experience. I had to grow mentally and subsequently have become a different version of myself. This blog is a […]

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Blow painting!

I was encouraged to give blow painting a go by an artist friend I made in hospital who I have blogged about before! Have a look at what he offers advertised on gumtree! But the main reason why I am writing this blog is he encouraged me to try blow painting so I did today […]

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Faithful friend.

This is quite a repetitive blog as it’s relating to what I last blog about the image: (Just a reminder though hopefully you won’t be need it) And hope has been my most faithful friend. Even through my worst times, hope never left.

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Fed up

New normal? I can’t remember very well what was old normal or just normal, nevermind ‘new normal’. Just in a low patch that seems to be on on a decline all the time. But then when I feel like that I give myself a shake and think there has been so many people in this […]

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Making memories!

Today I went and walked into and stood in my childhood bedroom! So good to do and stand in front of the big mirror in there (not to stand and admire myself 😂) but to stand and take in my standing totally alone, which is a big thing for Mrs. Tbi no balance! We weren’t […]

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Not dressed up

I might not be going anywhere I can dress up for these days…(not been able to walk independently for the last 3 years, insecurity, world pandemic etc) but mum and I were talking today, and I was saying about feeling crappy. Mum said I never really say how bad I sometimes feel on this blog. […]

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Father’s Day Safari!

Yesterday was Father’s Day in the UK & Ireland. James, Alfie and I went on an exciting Father’s Day safari/trip to his parents house. Successfully introduced Alfie to the countryside! He loved it! 💞 Here’s Alfie and James looking smashing (as always) And me all dressed for our country safari adventure 😝

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Best pint!

9 years together! Best pint spilt over me ❤️ (James spilled a pint over me and we just started to chat!) So tonight we are having an anniversary dinner! Here’s to the next 9 years and beyond!!

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Defo repeat of many

But thought I should repeat it because I had a new device. I made turkey burgers again which I know I’ve blogged before but I got a new gadget to help me make them. I have to say it was super to work and help me form prefect burgers! 🍔 Whether you have 1 hand […]

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Brighton Beach

Today in #BIM / #braininjurymatters we did a zoom art class. We had to paint somewhere we held close to our hearts/enjoyed. I chose Brighton Beach as I have family who live there so it was a holiday I was guaranteed every year and I loved it so much!

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Living in dream land!

I may have done a blog like this before so apologies in advance if I have but as the title says I’m living in dream land. Well correction nightmare land. I think this tbi has really made it hard to get to grips that THIS is my current (hopefully not permanent) reality. It feels real […]

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Angry Bolt!

That’s what I called myself today cause I was very cheeky to my dear mum (lovely Linda) and she doesn’t at all deserve my anger. But I’m just angry because I can’t do as much as my pre-tbi self. YET. I don’t feel in control of my own life sometimes!

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Self love

I think I’ve said this before but we really need to love ourselves. Not in the vain way that that the expression is normally used in in society. Really LOVE and CARE for ourselves. You are your only true fan after all, you’ll be ‘following’ in your story forever.

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Response

I’m responsible for how I react to this situation. Don’t panic and be brave. (That’s what I’ve got to try and hold it together and do)

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Ecstatic!

I did something that won’t sound impressive but I think for my lack of movement and only one side really working it is! I was having breakfast and I was moving the phone holder and the phone hit the floor! And to make it even more challenging it was on my weak left side. As […]

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Get your… feet out!

Very relaxing my lovely personal assistant Sarah gave me lovely foot rub today. (We are trying to encourage my left foot not to turn in) So today is in the truest fantastic Friday category! 1. Stretching/physio session with dad (robo) 2. Sarah (PA) lovely foot massage! 3. Zoom physio session with Q Victoria 👑 🙌🏻 […]

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Eat my shorts!

In BIM we are producting a film/animation thing as you may know, this is my wee animation of me! I decided not to include a wheelchair in my character, cause I’m very determined I won’t need it forever. (I hope I don’t eat my shorts by publishing myself saying this!)

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It’s a focken!

I showed you my painting of a fox I did with BIM on zoom! I’ve got some laugh out of that fox! Sarah and I decided yesterday it was a bit like chicken. 😆😂 so a new creature has been created! Those bloody Ficken’s will haunt me!

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Got daddy’s credit card!

For any of you who know Robert that title was just for dramatic effect and not real. He would NEVER give me that! Today in BIMs art zoom session we were looking at Iris Scott’s work and basing our work on theirs. Here’s my wee 🦊 fox based on Scott’s. I decided it could be […]

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Appreciation!

My lovely friend who I grew up with called Claire, now lives in England with her fiancé . So I’m delighted she has chosen to display one of my paintings in her home. Such a privileged from such a lovely girl. ❤️

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Feeling successful!

Had a great zoom physio with QV. Working on standing leaning against the wall. It’s challenging cause my brain automatically wants to push me back over when I try and push in and lean against the wall to not fall over and land on my bum! I want to stand up right!

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I love cleaning!

I think it hasn’t been cleaned in 3 years….😆 Joke obviously! I don’t love cleaning and James has kept the place very clean! But I’ve never loved cleaning so much! Brushing and mopping the kitchen was not one of my top house things to do! But it’s so strange when you have lost the ability […]

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Flashback photos!

Approx 25/6 years ago I never would imagine when I see that wee girl in approximately 25/7 years she would have to relearn how do most things again (walk/talk/learn how to live again) and Linda would still look just as good 😆❤️

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Very thoughtful 💗

Received this today from a lovely friend I made in hospital. (His sister is my mums neighbor too! One of the many small things to be tied to my musgrave brain injury unit experience!) He is a wonderful artist so I had an art lesson with him today through zoom video chat with cedar. He […]

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Our Alfie!

James and I both love dogs. James always had family dogs when he was growing up and I still have the wee chibabies Sonny and Lola ❤️ So we always thought we would get a dog sometime. As James is working from home now and my recovery is moving forward. We thought now was a […]

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#selflove

Basically everyone who has ever been in my life. Whether it’s shown me love, taught me things, all of it the good, the bad and the ugly. Thank you. You’ve helped me become the person I am (and I quite like her, this is another thing the tbi has done cause me to struggle with […]

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Thank you always

Mum and I out for the final nhs clap! 👏🏼 thank you nhs ❤️ #nhs #thankyouGlad I could stand outside to clap to say thank you! If it was not for all those heroes I may not be here never mind standing outside! THANK YOU ALWAYS! #braininjury

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Recovery is SO HARD

It’s literally impossible to put into words. I think I am just crazy sad and frustrated. No point of this. Sadly no in-depth skills or strategy for recovery just wanted to vent and make a record so I clearly remember how much of a nightmare and challenge I was in in years to come.

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Back again!

Back in mine and James’s house. Before this tbi stuff I was the main chef, as I love cooking! But tonight James showed his culinary skills! Also a nice day chilling with Alfie! ❤️

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Special trip during lockdown!

As you know from my last blog, I am VERY close to my grandparents. Well today was a very special day! My glamorous granny’s 87th birthday! So my mum and I and James went to see her at her door and had a wee social distance party! We were even joined by other family members […]

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Day 10

Day 10 The first place you’ll go when lockdown is over. My granny’s house. My grandparents looked after me every day from I was like 1 until I was like 13/14 so the bond is special. Apart from the period of time I was in hospital due to brain injury and obviously couldn’t leave when […]

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I’ve only lived in lockdown

Heard on the radio this morning the uk has been in lockdown 87 days. Which is terrible. I never would have imagined times like this. Seriously scary. Will we ever get our lives back? But it made me think about my situation. I understand we are all different and I don’t want to seem that […]

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Day 7: a beautiful view

Day 7: a beautiful view This is the view outside my bedroom window at my own house. It wouldn’t be beautiful to a lot of people but it’s beautiful to me. I hope I get my life back on track in the next year and I can move home full time.

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