Maybe…
Read this on @diffyc86 Facebook and thought that maybe I’m not healing as fast as I would like (I’m obviously healing) but maybe I need to accept more to progress more and accept the new person #🤷🏻♀️
Read More Maybe…tbi: to be informed
Read this on @diffyc86 Facebook and thought that maybe I’m not healing as fast as I would like (I’m obviously healing) but maybe I need to accept more to progress more and accept the new person #🤷🏻♀️
Read More Maybe…View this post on Instagram A post shared by Matt Haig (@mattzhaig) 🤷🏻♀️😥
Read More Thought provoking…As much as I wish there was an overnight fix, there isn’t one. (repost @fearnecotton – as much as I wish there was one there is not an overnight fix for this brain injury. I was told by a friend it would take ‘patience and time’ is what it will take which is exactly right)
Read More There isn’t one…These lyrics are some of Dermot Kennedy’s. I know I’m sorry I’m so predictable and repetitive but I felt this was very close to my being and a close description of my brain injury and brain injury in general. ‘You’ve been on a journey they can’t see’ No one can see my brain injury. You’ll […]
Read More You’ve been on a journey they can’t see…You should too if you’re near!
Read More Treated ourselves again!My mum got me a @dermotkennedy cd that was signed with a message to encourage me through this brain injury recovery! ❤️ It arrived today! Home
Read More Dermot Kennedy!James and I are featured in this months Take A Break! 😊 If you get it you’ll see James and I! (It’s in the monthly edition, not weekly)
Read More Take a break!It takes time to connect the dots so stop hurrying everything by Haiku Jam So this was what I painted. As it was with brain injury matters art class I felt the message could connect the words with brain injury. ‘It takes time to connect the dots’ (brain injury) ‘so stop hurrying’ (don’t try and […]
Read More Today’s haikuHaving 1 working arm is not really something you think about when you are born with two working! So I have had to adjust to a lot with only one working at the moment! But this evening I had major success! You may be aware of my old news. I have mastered taking my jumper/top […]
Read More First time success!The artist who was in the brain injury unit with me and i would now say he’s a good friend kindly designed me a Re:broken icon which is now up on this blog! Here it is incase you can’t spot it on the site yet! Contact him here: https://instagram.com/glennhanna1975?igshid=m7occ6c5ddc
Read More New Re:broken Art!These are from Fearne Cottons Instagram… View this post on Instagram A post shared by Fearne (@fearnecotton) There was more but I just thought these two jumped out at me. Felt like I could personally relate…
Read More You must see the positives in your situation…Decorations arrived from Little Woollen Rabbit. https://littlewoollenrabbit.bigcartel.com/ They are beautiful!!! 🥰
Read More My decorations@fearnecotton shared some of her sketches. This one really stood out. It’s what I need to believe ‘TIME HEALS’ (this is likely referring to losing someone with the eye possibly crying but I did lose myself for awhile)
Read More Time Healshttp://www.youtube.com/watch And I’m gonna be fine… I think I’ll be fine I think I’ll be fine
Read More What can I say? I’m surviving…I went to physiotherapy tonight. Like I’ve said before the core is so important to help my overall recovery, For me it’s mainly my walking I desire, but if we had no core strength as humans, we may as well be worms 🪱! So tonight was back to thinking about core! As I was leaving […]
Read More Elephant in the room!BIM art class work today we were giving an image of trees and path to put together. I think I didn’t empathize the left trees enough with their leaves. Everything goes wrong on the left for me since this brain injury it seems. 🤷🏻♀️ #leftsideproblems
Read More Left side problemsYou may remember I spoke about Andy and Emma before. They went to my school, Emma was in some of my classes and her husband Andy was 2 years above us. It was a strange, unfortunate coincidence that mine and his accidents were in the same week. But anyway why I am writing this – […]
Read More Little Woollen RabbitIf anyone reading this knows a thing or two about brain injuries you would know that survivors sometimes suffer from fatigue. I have got so used to running on ‘low power’ mode. I don’t really remember what having ‘full power’ is like.
Read More …low batteryView this post on Instagram A post shared by nazeeg (@invisiblescar) @invisiblescar has got this exactly right. I didn’t say it hurt because it didn’t physically hurt very much but mentally it was painful getting torn apart from the ‘self’ you had known.
Read More Perfect descriptionI found all these on Instagram this morning! Made myself (@rebekahnesbitt) for my tbi journey to be documented in photographs and also wee feel good posts.
Read More Feel good notes…can always try
Read More Still alive…For everyone to remember
Read More Daily remindersThis is a little late as it’s 22.52 but today may be official ‘World Kindness Day’ But we don’t need an official day to be kind I don’t think.
Read More World kindness dayJust because I haven’t done this for a while… I’m proper obsessed with this tune! If you wanna feel like dancing this weekend you could give this tune a listen. It’s ‘ravey’ but it features my fairly newly developed obsession Dermot Kennedy! Would give me a good reason to practice my standing and raving techniques!! […]
Read More ParadiseI am lucky enough to meet (physio) Victoria on https://backontrack.healthcare on a Friday throughout the second half of this pandemic. Tonight I was learning to walk backwards! I loved it, yeah the saying in the brain injury world is ‘never look back’ but it says nothing on literally ‘going back’ 🤷🏻♀️ Which was what I […]
Read More Start the weekend right!Was in @backontrackniltd this morning with the queen 👑 using the Reformer! Today I got my arms involved too using a Pilates ring! View this post on Instagram A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) View this post on Instagram A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) View this post on Instagram A post shared […]
Read More Love this machine!My mum showed me this today. It was my hand writing sometime in those grueling 12 months when I was in hospital. I think you can clearly see my improvements from just seeing the way my hand writing used to be. Seeing the improvements here makes me feel better. I know it’s painfully slow movements […]
Read More Improvements, even in insignificant thingsToday we did art using words we selected from a book or magazine. I used George Orwell’s Animal Farm. These were the words I selected: Windmill, Nonsense, Eyes, Tears Here is my painting interruption!
Read More Art class today!My hospital bff left this link on my Facebook on my videos of me on the reformer today! I loved it! Made me feel powerful, ‘badass’ and successful!
Read More ROARRRWas in @backontrackniltd this morning with the queen 👑 using the Reformer! Today I got my arms involved too using a Pilates ring! View this post on Instagram In @backontrackniltd #tbi #legwork #girl #squatlike #pushitrealgood A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) on Nov 10, 2020 at 7:50am PST View this post on Instagram @backontrackniltd […]
Read More Love this equipment!View this post on Instagram #repost needed to read this this morning thank you @lifewithtbi #think #allyouare #not #whatyourenot #positive #tbi #thinkbig A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) on Nov 10, 2020 at 12:30am PST
Read More Needed to read this this morningI really love doing yoga with the star teacher @yogawithdenis ❤️ Today was super as always. Did both work in standing and sitting! I love doing yoga. I can honestly say it’s helping my recovery a lot, it’s challenging me physically and giving me an excellent frame of mind! https://www.yogawithdenis.com
Read More Yoga love!It’s too late for this point I think. This blog is about both my struggle and my identity. The main reasons behind this blog is to keep record of the journey. It is my brain injury. Which is an unimaginable struggle. I don’t mind here as anyone that reads would gather it’s about everything – […]
Read More Too late i think…It was brought up I’m at a closer stage of getting an aid just need to control the pushing in my right hand for it to work. If I had an aid and my right hand was pushing to much I would push myself back and land on my bottom at the minute. Need to […]
Read More Physio yesterday!“And just like that everything changed.” I received this T-shirt in the post yesterday! It was purchased from my dear internet friend and fellow brain injury survivor Gemma Bromley. If you would like this too so you can join me in being too cool for school 😎 you can purchase yours here: Home
Read More New T-shirt!In the BIM art class today we had to use this poem to influence our art ideas! This was the piece I created It took me into the land of 3D creation! https://braininjurymatters.org.uk
Read More Face of stone!Here is my debut international interview with Shane and Jon from IronWill https://ironwill.us https://instagram.com/iw_ironwill?igshid=17h5ctvc4ojwx
Read More My IronWill!I was at http://backontrack.healthcare. with her majesty Queen of physio! Delighted to get to go here! This is this week’s video! I’ve got new homework, as well as always try to keep my pelvis forward in sitting I’ve got to try and keep my hips in line or slightly forward in standing/walking. Straightness is the […]
Read More Important pointsTonight it was confirmed that James and I are gonna be featured Take a Break at end of November/start of December. I think coming up to Christmas is quite a good time cause Christmas Eve 2016 was when I spoke for the first time in 3 months after the crash. My words were ‘I have […]
Read More Take A BreakI love yoga and I love Denis’ way of teaching! https://www.yogawithdenis.com Yoga is time just for me.
Read More A little more me time!Today doing the PDAB course (personal development after brain injury) with #cedar on zoom. It’s wonderful we have zoom widely available now. I would say even 5 years ago I hadn’t even heard it, never mind used it!
Read More Personal DevelopmentBack to backon track physio today! https://instagram.com/backontrackniltd?igshid=yi8py17rltd0 I’ve got new homework for this week! Try and sit with my pelvis forward and not leaning back on wherever I’m sitting! A bit like this:
Read More Physio Friday!This came up as a memory I had posted on Facebook last year. I think that this is how I keep going sometimes. Remembering through the hard days that there are better ones coming.
Read More Hard daysI recorded a podcast today with @iw_ironwill . I enjoyed it very much and it should be up next week so I’ll keep you up to date on when you can hear it! Here are some photos of me in hospital I sent to them. Looking at these show me I’ve actually improved in myself. […]
Read More IronWill recorded.Today I had another 1-1 yoga class with (I’m biased) the best yoga teacher around! Denis! https://www.facebook.com/YogawithDenis/ The instructor I met through brain injury matters and have started to get zoom yoga classes with! Today was great as usual. I did my first session on the floor like normal yoga!
Read More Trying something new!As you may know I go to Steele Physio once a month to use the Alter-G to help my walking gait. I love going here to use this specific equipment. Home Well tonight was not as feel good as other times, but eh? You can’t expect everything to be perfect all the time… ☹️ My […]
Read More This months report:Easier said than done. Repost from @headway_uk•Another inspiring quote to share this #MotivationalMonday 💕
Read More Do not get disappointed…View this post on Instagram A post shared by Duck 2020 Brain injury Fund (@duck2020_brain_fundraiser) on Oct 27, 2020 at 3:22am PDT
Read More Believe your breakthrough is comingJames WhatsApped me this picture this morning. It’s an extract from ‘The magic of thinking big’ by David J Schwartz. This extract includes the line ‘my spirit is one hundred percent intact. I’m really grateful for that’. That particular line stood out for me. Have to be grateful that I didn’t lose everything about myself. […]
Read More Have to think bigI was watching Captain America tonight as James and I have decided to take on the commitment of watching all the marvel films. I’m excited but warning! expect a few very predictable blogs like this. There was 2 great lines in Captain America I am going to share tonight. I only share lines I feel […]
Read More You don’t give up do you?Me standing today. My weakness now is my balance. It seems every obstacle I climb over another one comes along. Like my left leg is quite responsive when trying to walk (which it wasn’t for quite a while) now I’ve got over moving – my terrible balance is holding back the independent walking. 🙁
Read More #dontgiveup100% I hate going through this brain injury struggle so much but at the same time I can’t let it defeat me. Believe: #iamawinner
Read More I am a winnerAnd it’s GREAT! Went back to http://backontrack.healthcare with Victoria 👑 I thought it felt like a good session this afternoon. It maybe looks the same but it felt better!! Gotta keep the positive mindset, it really helps in this bloody slow recovery!
Read More The Friday thing!Beautiful cinnamon swirls made by cinnamon & swirl a new established bakery business in moneyreagh. We ordered from them today! Received absolutely delightful swirls! https://www.facebook.com/cinnamonandswirl/ Would 100% recommend this wonderful small family business if you’re looking for a mid morning treat.. Actually tasty for any time of day! (Sorry delivery only available in moneyreagh and […]
Read More Cinnamon & SwirlWith brain injury matters art class we are studying the haiku art technique. It’s when you take a poem and create your art using that! This weeks haiku was ‘ : “…Lifting my cup,I asked the moonto drink with me …”—Li Po Here’s my haiku painting today! I remembered it wrong. I thought it said […]
Read More Drinking leads to dancing… 💃🏼🕺🏼I’m in a low place at the moment. Difficult. That’s how I would describe this brain injury situation and how it has made me feel I need help for most situations. It’s difficult. What else can I say? Difficult. So I decided to look up difficult: So much effort is needed in this battle with […]
Read More Difficult DescriptionI love this from @concussionbegone on Instagram. I felt it very empowering.
Read More Defeats may be neededI did some #braininjuryart today for my cedar course! Interpretation of mourne mountains ⛰ https://www.cedar-foundation.org (creating art no matter how basic is my happy place!)
Read More Happy placeThis brain injury is tough but everyone’s life is tough at the minute under restrictions and constant fear. #nevergiveup
Read More Stay strongLack of independence. I hate it. I’m thankful that people help me do things (as I have basically zero balance and only one working arm/hand) But it’s difficult being 28 (nearly 29) and needing help with basic things like cutting up your dinner.
Read More What has been the hardest part of this living?…Believe. Believe that you can. View this post on Instagram A post shared by THIS FEELS NICE™️ (@thisfeelsnice)
Read More I know you canThank you @mattzhaig making me feel like my broken/chipped teacup self tells a story.
Read More Chipped teacupI was at back on track physio (http://backontrack.healthcare) which I love and get loads out of the facility. As usual here are videos of tonight’s session! I’m just feeling happy we are able to use these facilities again but I’m panicking incase we go in to another lockdown! But I suppose if it’s best for […]
Read More Love @backontrack!Well it was last night but I think 🤔 it may also the LAST NIGHT for a while we will be free to go out for a wee dinner and drinks date… Out of the last time for the foreseeable future we went out for dinner @the_hoose_bistro_ and as usual I sat happily in an […]
Read More Last nightRising Phoenix https://m.imdb.com/title/tt10851618/ This was such an unreal documentary on Netflix. Not gonna say too much about it except for WATCH IT! It’s a super great documentary about the Paralympics.
Read More Everything is impossible at the beginningI don’t want you all to think I make out this recovery journey is easy, fun all the time or straight forward…this is a photo of my wee face this morning with no make up on. I fell on my face yesterday, lucky for me nothing was badly bruised or broken, just a tiny bit […]
Read More Greeting FloorsToday I received such encouraging feedback from a thoughtful person who reads and values this blog. To know that I’m making a difference to others in their situation makes all the difference to me. The main thing is I can encourage people in whatever their situation, and knowing I can do this encourages me.
Read More Makes all the difference to meSome great feel good things like this from here: https://www.facebook.com/Littlepennythoughts/
Read More Recovery takes timeMe walking with the wonderful physio Victoria 👑 in @backontrackniltd http://backontrack.healthcare physio. From now on I’m not gonna to walk with my right hand pushing on my leg and causing false security in my middle region and I want to learn to walk, balance and have a free arm! But when I watch it back […]
Read More Back to the gym!🥳💗🌈 It’s the weekend woo! That means I’ve got actual physical physio this afternoon not just on the computer! I felt in good mood this morning so I have another attempt to my thicker eyeliner on the lid! Feeling quite positive at the moment (really hope it lasts longer than the the morning!) Alfie Anderson […]
Read More It’s the weekend!🥳By Azumi UchitaniOctoberAbundance of colours,Dancing with joy,in the autumn mountains Today in the brain injury matters art we were painting using the Haiku technique again on the piece above by Azumi Uchitani. I really enjoyed this weeks work, I had had an appointment last week so had been unable to be in the class. So […]
Read More Abstract dancehttps://www.facebook.com/YogawithDenis/ Denis is amazing! I met him as a teacher in brain injury matters and keep contact with him regularly. He instructs my 1 to 1 classes via zoom, and as he was my teacher at brain injury matters, you may have worked out I have a brain injury. The left side of my body […]
Read More Yoga yesterdayBefore this brain injury I was such a people pleaser, but now I just think why would I do something/say something just because it’s what someone else wants but not necessarily what I want/think… (I think that many people do this we should maybe reassess ourselves) – better check is that ok?
Read More Recovering…The wonderful artist that was in the brain injury unit with me Glenn Hanna kindly drew me another portrait of myself! It made me feel good because he said it was me ‘winking to the world’! I loved that expression because it puts a really positive spin on my dropped left eye which I normally […]
Read More Winking to the worldIt’s a normal Tuesday but we felt like a party! We are having lovely (if you like it) steak for dinner and we decided to crack open the sparkling wine we were kindly given by a family friend! James was supposed to be on holiday in Portugal again for a second attempt (corona caused the […]
Read More Why not treat yourself!!Pleased! Managed to do my mascara AND eyeliner on the lid! If there is anyone who knows me in person you would know I used to love a bit of liquid liner but with the hand shake, unsteady TBI hand i hadn’t even attempted until today! Not perfect but I don’t think bad for a […]
Read More Not bad for a first attempt!That was a hashtag I saw and loved: Got it here: https://www.instagram.com/p/CF7qYDlnZ-0/?igshid=1bs0xezq59qs2 From @shanewarner54 Just think that’s how I have to be to keep working on my abilities and get to a recovery destination I am happy with! But I think I need to bare in mind in every training program you do need rest […]
Read More #nodaysoffView this post on Instagram Things can and will get better 💛 A post shared by Emily Coxhead (@emilycoxhead) on Oct 4, 2020 at 3:11am PDT
Read More Your Best Is Always EnoughI don’t know if that’s an official syndrome, but last night that was what I decided I have. Never stay happy for too long but I suppose it works both ways if I describe it like that. I would never stay sad for too long either. In reality the sadness would win if they were […]
Read More Yo-yo syndromeSlowly but hopefully surely
Read More Walk of the dayHeadway had asked me to put together a video for their memory loss campaign. Here is the finished product if you interested: https://www.facebook.com/headwayuk/videos/1492174230980806/?vh=e&extid=gUMRLdE5ZIDybrmb&d=wHeadway asked me to make a video for their memory loss campaign
Read More MEMORY LOSS: A CAMPAIGN TO REMEMBEROur task in photography class with Brain injury matters and Belfast Exposed was photographs of our situation now (for reference it was on this blog https://rebroken.blog/2020/09/09/then-and-now-now-and-now/) This weeks class we were asked to get reference in visual comment form of how we felt we could describe our brain injuries. I decided to photograph the words […]
Read More CrosswordThis evening returned to Steele Physio (http://steelephysio.com) to use their Alter-G treadmill! It was great! Home I think I need to work on my left foot placement but practice does make perfect and I’m going to try and go back again as I said before. You may not be able to tell in these videos […]
Read More Awesome Alter-GWent for a physio review in rabiu today. As there are lots of Covid restrictions I couldn’t go round and see all the lovely staff who had cared for me in my time there as an patient. But very positive! Robo has been keeping my muscles in tip-top condition! Haven’t decreased in my muscle flexibility […]
Read More Positive!I’m not so sad anymore but I was on Facebook and saw this picture on one of the brain injury pages just thought it was so lovely and I thought I would have liked to see that before now. But it’s good advice for anyone.
Read More Good advice for anyoneToday is a sad/happy day for me. 4th year anniversary of my brain injury. FOUR YEARS. But I have to think of how far I travelled up this recovery road. But I can’t help and feel regret and bitterness about how much time I’ve lost but at the same time I wouldn’t be ‘me’ without […]
Read More Life dayBut the brain injury has blinded me. I can’t see past my physical struggles when really the brain injury cleared my mind from the junk and superficial things I was focused on before. I feel having the brain injury my mind was in some ways opened through this tbi it was quite closed before. But […]
Read More I am so much more than my brain injuryPhysio tonight in the wonderful @backontrackniltd clinic with Victoria 💗 good session but i need to stop imitating an ostrich with my sticky out neck! I look so worried in this photo! Honestly not! And I just wanted to bring back to why I started this blog, yes firstly it was a way to follow […]
Read More It’s still youAnother reference to the lovely Gem’s book. But this is what we have to think is going to happen. POSITIVE THINKING. ‘The universe IS getting you back on your feet for the greatest comeback of your life. Are you ready?’ Home
Read More Getting you back up!Today we had our brain injury matters art which I always love! https://braininjurymatters.org.uk Today we were doing very abstract art making a piece using objects we could make prints on a piece of cardboard to create our picture! So it was just an interpretation I went for a mountain scene. Based on what I think […]
Read More September walk!I was reading Gemma’s book again tonight. This line really jumped out at me. I totally agree with this but I think it is ‘a good’ reason to feel slightly depressed. I definitely felt a bit down in the early days of recovery as I felt that ‘life’ had taken a lot away from me. […]
Read More Very real point of viewI encourage you to purchase this book. This girl has seriously helped me through this recovery through encouraging chat so I feel less alone. Her book will be honest, encouraging and make you feel like you’re not alone. You can order it now https://www.amazon.co.uk/Half-Head-Gemma-Bromley/dp/1913479471
Read More Wanna be inspired?!This is a repost from instagram ( https://www.instagram.com/p/CFEun8vMAzK/?igshid=1vcnbtrv6bv3m ) I just read it and thought wouldn’t it be nice if there was a sign that just hovered over your head so you didn’t have to explain yourself, so people would know I might not be physically 100% able but my intellect and intelligence is just […]
Read More Parts don’t workTonight James and I went to watch the Ulster rugby match against Leinster. But due to circumstances at the moment with this virus surrounding everything the matches aren’t able to have a live audience, but the next best thing has been set up! A screen playing the match with lots of fans parked in their […]
Read More Let’s go Ulster!I was at back on track physio again to meet your majesty of my physio QV (http://backontrack.healthcare ) We got to practice walking again this afternoon in the physio studio. I feel this is better as it’s a longer space to walk through!
Read More Made me happy!‘There’s a storm at your back my girl, it follows you follows you round!’ DK knows me so well I’m followed around by this brain injury storm ☔️ 😛 (In the video section.) https://m.facebook.com/dermotkennedymusic/ (It was just put up last night/this morning. Couldn’t find a direct link.) View this post on Instagram There’s a storm […]
Read More Storm on your backAs you must know I get a lot from the charity BIM. https://braininjurymatters.org.uk We had two zoom sessions today! The second one was one of my favourites: Painting! Today we produced abstract works! Here are my two: We were read a poem first so we were to use colours the poem made us think of!
Read More Poem painting!Brain injury matters are working with Belfast Exposed photography creating an exhibition. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Belfast_Exposed The group have been tasked to take some photos to show ‘my life now’. Mine are below: I think you can tell I’m still the same person with the same interests and passions just my body needs more work to function. They […]
Read More Photography projectMy friend Gemma Bromley talking about some of her experience with brain injury on Instagram yesterday! View this post on Instagram Listen to Gemmas incredible story of her brain injury and her recovery A post shared by 💫 (@elena___k) on Sep 9, 2020 at 12:49pm PDT Her book comes out this month!
Read More talking with half a head!https://www.instagram.com/fleurdelisspeaks/?ig_mid=5E5EA1F2-B171-4F61-8DA8-8D5503B70E1F&utm_source=igweb&fall_back_to_web=false Look up this instagram for GREAT, feel good images!
Read More Look at this!repost @braininjuryurnotalone totally get this. ALL THE TIME
Read More ALL THE TIMEBIM gave us a task to complete for Belfast Exposed photography We had to take photographs: ‘Select images that represent and describe you.’ These were mine and a small description: 1. The blank canvas represents the future is mine to create Art stuff represents a hobby that came back from brain injury. I used to […]
Read More Then and now. (Now and now)This is not at all easy but you are not by any means alone.
Read More You are not aloneMy friend Gemma Bromley who I have mentioned before has done an AMAZING interview about her autobiography Half A Head. Cannot wait for the book to be out properly. Give the interview a listen! 081: Half a Head with Gemma Bromley
Read More 100% inspiration!Today was the first time I saw my physio Queen 👑 in 5 months! I’m so happy to see her again, this will hopefully turn in to a more regular event. Great that we could use @backontrackphysiotherapy studio! Thank you! http://backontrack.healthcare
Read More Physiotherapy…back on track!💗 💗 as much as I hate that we have brain injuries I love that I met Dympna! Would never have met her otherwise! Her and her partner always make a frequent effort to call and see me! Today they paid me a massive compliment. They told me how much better I have gotten from […]
Read More Brain injury buds!Today I had another great yoga session with Denis! https://instagram.com/yogawithdenis?igshid=tq424ugkimrs I really love Denis’s attitude towards yoga (for me just doing what I can) and myself as a brain injury survivor, he is so good at putting you at ease and just making you feel comfortable. He knows I like to push myself so he […]
Read More Serious success!Instagram repost @charls_story there’s no going back to the days were you have ‘easy days’ and don’t have to think about the basic things and living. But who knows what’s ahead? Definitely be thankful for everything and appreciate more. Maybe there’s something better and unexpected?..no one knows!
Read More Don’t look backAt Steele Physio (http://steelephysio.com) trying out the #alterg again to help my walking gait. I felt improvements from the first time! We have decided I’m going to do one each month! Hopefully each time I will notice improvements! You hear James’s voice as he went with mum and me. He really makes a good physio […]
Read More Banker by day physio by night 😎My redundant left arm is responding reasonably well today (this video was after i had already done about ten good ones so muscle fatigue was probably creeping in) and I have to bare in mind that’s against gravity too. 😊 my dad is doing a great job with the physio stretches and exercise! Thank you […]
Read More Reasonable ResponseOn Disney Plus I was watching the mini series ‘Hostile Planet’ with Bear Grylls. Episode 1: the episode I was watching was called ‘Mountains’. https://www.disneyplus.com/series/hostile-planet/1234SSibRl3N It just tells the tale of how hard and hostile these conditions are for its occupants. It predictably made me relate my tbi mountain to the explanations. It’s such a […]
Read More Adapt or Die: Hostile Planet‘Someone is always worse than you’ – good thing to bare in mind when you are feeling like no one understands or relates I thought this made some good points and it was a very honest and realistic telling of what happened.
Read More The difference a good mind set makes…The wonderful @iamgemmabromley put this up on Facebook tonight and I loved this point. The glass is always refillable so go fill it up from whatever tap you want (happiness tap, joy tap, excited tap etc) the choice is yours! Home
Read More Glass is refillableEverything I exist doing now relates to brain injury. Like it’s probably so repetitive, sorry, but just imagine yourself in the situation it’s not easy to do anything anymore. Everything from walking, talking, thinking, expression, hand function even waving with both hands is hard to do/near impossible. Basically one side of your body is struggling […]
Read More Everythinggg!Physio on @zoom today with Queen V 👑 standing with Linda in front of me! I actually managed like 10 or 20 seconds by myself! I really hope this is balance coming I feel like I’ve been saying this for months! Maybe it will never come 😞 this is such a hard injury to have […]
Read More Getting better vs still brokenI think think this statement is exactly right. I am NOT where I WANT to be… But I’m proud I’m that I’m not where I used to be. …
Read More You can say it both ways…This post has been the same for 1 maybe 2 years. I’m sorry but at the same time I don’t know why should apologise. Everything was set in stone until the stone broke and I ended up with a brain injury and I wasn’t able to go on with my ‘normal life’ Today should be […]
Read More My repetitive postView this post on Instagram It’s been a rough summer. I’ve struggled. Lots of people have struggled. And I really want a vacation… 🏖 . Looking back at that first year post injury when I tried so hard to keep working… I had to reduce my hours, my symptoms dictated what I could do and […]
Read More Never a vacation!repost @headway_uk I’m slowly learning to have patience. #headway #braininjury #braininjurylife #uk #speak #slowlylearning #theworldisyouroyster
Read More The world is your oyster.A beautiful picture by @glennhanna1975! The artist who was in the brain injury unit with me ❤️ myself and wee Ayla
Read More Such talent!We may not fully understand another’s battles, but we are all here for each other. Paralysis Was Only A Minor Setback For This Woman As She Has Been Skydiving Despite Being In A Wheelchair Another amazing story. Just gives me so much reassurance and confidence I’ll become my confident, sure self again. Thank you for […]
Read More We are all here for each other.This is beautiful, you can read all the words in the description box https://youtu.be/KUA7-_mNbzY
Read More Beautiful wordsrepost @thegirlwholived.strokerecovery
Read More Keep Going.…It’s where I’m going! https://youtu.be/q_107FLZDJA
Read More It’s not where I was…Yes, I can overcome the challenges this injury gave me 🤞🏻and you can over come whatever your battles are too 😁💗 #yesican #yesyoucan #YESWECAN
Read More Yes we can!(If your a good, very particular, well trained physio look away – you won’t approve!) Not really very graceful or sleek but got down the stairs by myself! When there’s a will there’s a way 😎😆 #igotthis💪 And that’s not fitting in the three steps there is at the top!
Read More Got there!I think as my neuro pathways have been disturbed and don’t send the correct signal sometimes, thing don’t work 100% correctly! For example my right knee over extends, which even though it seems to be working pretty perfectly the habit of overextending. Over time could cause further problems for me and my knee as time […]
Read More It feels right!That’s what role I took up last night! James’s sister Jenny and her partner Andy who live in Manchester are over visiting! They brought their new wee cocker spaniel ‘Tina’ to meet her cousin ‘Alfie’! So they’re staying with us for a couple of days so I made the dinner last night. They are vegetarians […]
Read More Hostess with the mostest!!– that was a play on the McFly song ‘all about you’ and here is the version they put together from their own homes during the pandemic – https://youtu.be/NyDyllvEFfs It’s obviously not all about me! I was just referring to this particular re:broken blog. It’s about myself and my own struggles on this brain injury […]
Read More It’s all about meYes I use a wheelchair out of the house. In the house I am wheelchair free. I can walk if I have someone supporting me. I’m not unable. This something I seriously struggle with (which I am sure you can tell by now I have written about before!) I know I’ve been ‘lucky’ with this […]
Read More Hard to swallowBy Beautiful Minds Production. In our young people’s group in Brain Injury Matters we wanted to create a straight forward animation of some of our own brain injury situations to raise awareness and show how brain injury can occur in any situation. Here is the end product: We produced this YouTube video: Edited by https://www.leahbatchelor.com […]
Read More Inside our mindsThis is just a vent. So down at the moment. I’m just feeling so confused, sad and alone. I know I’m not at all alone. I have super family, friends and James ❤️ around me on this journey too but as much as they are wonderful support around me it does not make the actual […]
Read More Confused, Sad and AloneYou can use this saying to your advantage, for everyone. In the video he mentioned the brain injury community specifically, but I’m thinking everyone! Everyone can make tomorrow better for themselves. I never really paid much attention to being ‘positive’ before my injury. Probably because I was quite a positive person naturally. But positivity is […]
Read More ‘Tomorrow is going to be better than today…’sometimes you have to forget what’s gone, appreciate what still remains and look forward to what’s coming next 😊
Read More Forget, appreciate, look forward.Love yourself. It’s an important thing to do.
Read More Love yourselfhttp://www.youtube.com/watch Mum and I were talking and the new Dermot Kennedy song just came on the radio and I started to sing his new song ‘Giants’ that was playing! It was just funny because mum noticed I basically knew every word to the (relatively) new song. So mum commented ‘you know every word already’! I […]
Read More Never Forgot…Today was fantastic for me regards trying the alter g physio equipment! My physio QV organized for me to go to Steele Physio (http://steelephysio.com) to get a go on the state of the art physio machine the alter-g! (https://www.alterg.com) It was fantastic and I’m definitely going to go back. It’s a machine that allows you […]
Read More Alter-GREAT!I thought this was a very nice description. Sophie (my friend who is an ot who I usually blog about on a Friday!) we had a chat, I thought interesting about brain injury, how it was like taking the scenic route were as life normally being like driving on the motorway. Normally we ‘rush’ through […]
Read More Motor way vs scenic routeI loved my old life but I’m falling in love with new life too. For a long time I wanted to go back, I still do sometimes but I have to stop and think why go back? That’s usually a negative, better to go forward and ‘move on’
Read More Been and becomingI understand somethings just come easy for people in anything (including recovery) but 9 times out of 10 it won’t be ‘easy’. I think if you want it and have to work for it, you’ll do all in your power to make it last.
Read More make it lasthttp://www.youtube.com/watch He’s so right – ‘We are all different. Just compare yourself to you’.
Read More We are all differentThe jigsaw has changed. I need to find the new pieces that fit, the old pieces don’t fit
Read More The same but differentWe should all take a leaf from this guy’s book 📖 Such admirable positivity! View this post on Instagram When you’re happy with just living life becomes simple, small things don’t matter and your inner Aura shines brighter than anything money could buy! So Don’t sweat the small stuff because at the end of the […]
Read More Take a leaf…Feel this so much! Sometimes it’s so hard. Tempted to not bother and not put the dedicated effort you need in recovery but then on the same thought I think about what I want to do with my life and that keeps me back on track.
Read More Dream hard. Work harder.View this post on Instagram Getting my nails done Covid style 😎 thank you @lashlove_jennie #nails #gelnails #girl #facemask #covidprotection #lookingcool #lookingsmart😎 A post shared by Rebekah Nesbitt (@rebekahnesbitt) on Aug 12, 2020 at 7:51am PDT My lovely friend Jennie who is a beautician who specialises in nails came and did gel nails for me […]
Read More Covid style nailsYou can’t have all the answers!
Read More It’s okay!Saw this on Facebook and just thought it was nice and positive! Dear Self,If things don’t go your way, do not lose hope for life will get better before you know it. What’s yours? Whenever you feel helpless Do not lose hope for You’re alive for a reason!
Read More What’s yours?It wasn’t common for me to swear. But the brain injury happened and my tongue got looser with the swearing 🤬 which was hard for my parents and some family/friends cause they didn’t really like swearing. So mum was with me this morning and we were discussing something. And I came out with ‘I don’t […]
Read More I don’t give a falafel!Today I had a zoom yoga session with Denis the yoga teacher I met through BIM! He is brilliant and is always happy for me to just try and do what I can with my dodgy limbs! (But I always do try my hardest! Just he has a super attitude and approach to the brain […]
Read More Denis the (absolute champion) not the MenaceThis is the guy I was chatting too! Whether you are brain injured or not unreal attitude!
Read More KEEP MOVING FORWARDI was chatting to @cd_worldwide on Instagram and he said something I had never really thought about (probably cause I give a lot of effort into most things!) He said this… “any time I am ‘down’ not wanting to push forward, I am doing the people that provide me such great care a huge disservice.”… […]
Read More Great disserviceThat’s what train you’re boarded with getting a brain injury You don’t get ‘better’ from a brain injury, you adjust.
Read More The ‘FOREVER’ train‘Yeah we know you can stand by yourself’ I really need a new trick for getting photos in semi full outfits! My original plan was to talk about the standing by myself, but you all know I can do that now if you have been paying attention! Really I just loved the black outfit (goth/emo […]
Read More Usual stunt!Tonight is Saturday and I was invited to my dear, dear friend Sophie’s house for homemade pizza! Her husband Joey is quite the pizza chef! And they had gotten a new pizza oven recently so that could be put to the test tonight! I can say it passed with flying colours! I can honestly say […]
Read More 10/10I feel this very strongly at the minute. I wouldn’t be who I think I have become without TBI and I feel more ‘myself’ than I ever did. I think it’s because I feel less ‘wishywashy’ than I was previously. 🤷🏻♀️ (hopefully you can understand that description.)
Read More Wishy WashyWas doing zoom physio as usual for a Friday! It was quite a good session! For those of you that don’t know in brain injury you usually have a weaker side – mine is my left. My leg is getting way better but my arm is still quite bad. This is quite a common trend, […]
Read More My ‘useless’ left arm engaging a bit…MANAGEABLE. Not easy. Not “okay” Not straight forward. MANAGEABLE
Read More The important word is manageable.Today I had the brain injury matters https://braininjurymatters.org.uk art class! Today we were given a dog to paint when we were on zoom! After painting the dog and the art class was over I decided as all the paints were out I would do some flowers as a gift for my aunt who lives in […]
Read More Today’s painting!Read this on one of the TBI Facebook groups today. I think it important to remember it’s never a quick fix. Take your time. Healing and recovery has no definite end.
Read More No End.http://www.youtube.com/watch He really makes me feel there is a ‘beauty in being broken’ ❤️ And this is a really beautiful version
Read More Predictable but major feelsAs usual this is a blog about me preparing dinner! But this week it’s dinner with a difference! Mince and vegetable stuffed peppers! Looks well I think and it wasn’t hard to do (but then again I have to bare in mind I love cooking!) but I mean even with one hand! My advice to […]
Read More Always the same but different!I read this on Facebook today… “Wait for someone kind. Wait for someone respectful, not only in the beginning stages of the relationship when things are bright and beautiful, but also when things get hard. Wait for someone who respects your boundaries and does not force you to do things that you’re not willing or […]
Read More Wait for someonehttp://www.youtube.com/watch I may have showed you this video before but it makes me smile from ear to ear. I aspire to have that attitude in whatever I’m doing. Yeah I know I’m working hard on learning how to walk again but this is just such a superb attitude to have and to face any obstacles […]
Read More AspiringI have said this before but this recovery road has serious ups and down. But it’s days like today it feels like this nothing has changed! Spoke to James parents and they have a great skill of making me feel at ease and not making my tbi problems (to me) not problems at all! We […]
Read More Ups and downs.This gave me a wee bit of a lift this morning. So could do the same for you. It might be so slow (it can feel like stop sometimes) journey you’re on at the moment, not necessarily brain related, but just keep your head up and I believe you’ll get through it (thats probably not […]
Read More Try and catch!I’m so happy 😁❤️ Saw the darling Sophie for the first time in 12 weeks now her shielding is complete. We greeted each other with a loving new elbow (old hug) I missed her so much these past number of weeks. She is such a good friend and being an occupational therapist she always has […]
Read More Back to ‘normal’Today is Friday and it’s the start of the weekend! Sarah and I went on a serious binge trip! I wasn’t following the ‘clean eating’ today, diet went out the window! We went to McDonald’s drive through followed by a lovely Tim Hortons treat! …mmm🍔🍟🧁…
Read More Friday feels!Home As you all must know I adore the artist Dermot Kennedy. Tonight he was amazing. He played a live televised concert called ‘some summer night’ (in the very atmospheric Natural History Museum, London) which I of course bought a ticket for and James was roped into watching…! But I think I have made a […]
Read More ‘Some Summer Night’As I have been doing art classes with the artist who was in the brain injury unit with me! Homework this week was using this YouTube video as an influence! https://youtu.be/mmwzmVwIu8U I used a google influence my peony rose. Here’s my results!
Read More Peony rose 🌹James putting up my art in our house ❤️ ‘splatter of happiness’ I think that’s what the colours make you feel a brief splatter of happiness 😁
Read More Splatter of happinessAs much as I hate this brain injury, I’ve made some wonderful friends! I’ve spoken about Gemma before but she has helped me more than you could know and given me so much hope for the future! She put this on her instagram story tonight She has given me so much hope and ideas for […]
Read More *gush*Nothing is more special than being alive. Be yourself, there is only one you.
Read More Nothing more specialI had a lovely surprise visit from Caroline! Caroline is a dear friend who shows me major support through this horrific brain injury road
Read More Surprise visit!This is me. Happy with myself personally but still working on myself personally at the same time 🤟🏻
Read More Happy with myself… but🌲 Saw this on Facebook today put up by someone and thought it was beautiful advice. We all need to be like a bit more like the trees. Trees help create oxygen, we need oxygen for life and so we need help from the trees to live. Be more tree like, indirectly help living things! […]
Read More Be more tree!I saw this quote on an Instagram story and I just thought it was perfect. CS Lewis your mind was on the right track! #cslewis #quote #ontherighttrack #betterthings #leavebehind #byebye #👋🏻 #tbi #messagetoself
Read More better aheadFound this site today (https://rebeccaray.com.au) “Dr. Rebecca Ray is a happiness enthusiast and is excited to share what she knows will help you on your happiness journey. She has been a clinical psychologist for over a decade.” Found some quotes today and I thought they were really feel good and positive. Just what I need […]
Read More She was never quite ready…Back on with my fifteen minutes of fame!! May as well play it out cause the rest of this situation is s**t! 😆 @headway_uk
Read More Lalala…Play it outLike the title says. I just wanna walk. It’s just such a horrible feeling I have at the moment. Nothing is guaranteed. It’s making me feel so weak and vulnerable not knowing if I’ll ever be able to walk independently. This is not a feeling I’m familiar with. I normally don’t allow myself to feel […]
Read More I just wanna walk.It’s on headway site too. Headway is a charity for brain injury survivors and their families/loved ones so James benefited from counseling in the early days of my recovery journey. ❤️ https://www.headway.org.uk/about-brain-injury/individuals/brain-injury-and-me/rebekah-nesbitt/
Read More Our story once more.Read the story of James and I…❤️ https://www.thesun.co.uk/fabulous/12088233/forgot-planning-wedding-horror-crash-wiped-memory/
Read More James and RebekahI think I like where I’m at now. (You know this I’ve said it in so many blogs. But it’s so good say it out publicly with no shame/negative vibes.) For so long I was ‘why me?’ ‘I hate this situation’ – inadvertently hating myself ‘I just wish it wasn’t me’ But it’s like the […]
Read More I’m on the right trackI have a Instagram just for my brain injury updates! I choose a new profile photo highlights it’s an Instagram based on head injury I think: The girl looks worried I think. That’s how I feel about this #braininjurylife worried/stressed/concerned. (May aswell get the advert in! @rebekahnesbitt if anyone wants to follow! 😝)
Read More Instagramhttp://www.youtube.com/watch I’ve really been struggling with myself the past few days. Who am I again? I have always said this brain injury didn’t make me feel any different and I like Rebekah. Maybe I’m just in a bad mood but I dislike her this morning. I suppose that’s to be expected, you don’t love everything […]
Read More You look like yourself but you’re somebody else James and I ordered mugs for myself, him, my parents all with our wee creatures! They see designed and ordered from gossby.com! I really love them and I think they’ll make my coffee tastier!! 😝 https://gossby.com
Read More They have arrived!I find this hard to think about. It’s hard to relax but I need to remember that age is on my side so I hopefully have many days to master and it will keep getting easier. #tbi #takeyourtime #✌
Read More Master the dayI just looked the word ‘ambitious’ up. I think it’s an excellent word to use in this Context. – 📖 having or showing a strong desire and determination to succeed
Read More Be ambitiousI have already done a blog about my brain injury tree when I painted it a few months ago! But my lovely friend who was in hospital with me (I have mentioned her before) asked me for the tree painting! So I happily did her another one! Here’s the original: And here is version 2 […]
Read More Brain injury tree 1 and 2!I did this painting for my mum to display in her dining room It’s called ‘relaxed joy!’ As that’s what our house needs to learn to relax! If our house was called anything it would be ‘stressed joy!’
Read More Relaxed JoyIt’s not even close to be ready to advertise but sure gotta start somewhere and what’s the harm? Today I took some time to open a gumtree to sell some of my art! Only got the chance to put up a few but adding more will be a task for tomorrow! 😊 https://www.gumtree.com/profile/accounts/f4f49ed25e5d9c8b5ac86272414fdaa1
Read More Not even close to ready!Today I bought myself a ticket to join Dermot Kennedy in a worldwide yet intimate show in the Natural History Museum. http://www.dermotkennedy.com It’s on the 30th July and I cannot wait! It’s great to have the chance to see him as I had purchased a ticket for his Belfast gig in June that was cancelled […]
Read More “Some summer night”Set up a gumtree to try and sell my brain injury art! Only got one piece up so far but hopefully tomorrow I’ll have more of my pieces added! I’ll share the link tomorrow when they are up but here is a preview of the rebroken shop set up today! https://www.gumtree.com/p/paintings-pictures/brain-burst/1378559714
Read More Brain burst!Sorry if you’re offended. Never mind the swearing but that message is a good one.
Read More Good f**king advice.I think I shared this last year but I really like this one.
Read More Its how you react…You just need to remember who you are and be okay with it. A line spoken in the film rocketman about Elton John. James and I watched this film tonight, I thoroughly enjoyed it. Worth a watch.
Read More You just need to remember who you areToday James, Alfie and I took a nice trip to let Alfie mix with Sonny and Lola again on neutral ground and James and I went to the Tim Hortons drive through after! It was nice I had never been to the new drive through Tim Hortons but it was lovely! I wasn’t in the […]
Read More Tasty Tim’s!My dad picked me up this book! I haven’t properly start it yet but the first line drew me in… ‘Life can sometimes feel pretty heavy’ #lookafteryourself #findingyou #discovery
Read More Wellbeing #findingyouReceived this email from the open university today… Little do they know how much that means to me! I will achieve my goals on this brain injury rollercoaster 💪🏻
Read More You can achieve anything, Rebekah!Today was so lovely! Went for a wee dander/roll on the tow path with Alfie and Sadie ❤️ (and her lovely owner Chloe!) It was so lovely and we all got a wee coffee today and bun from the Coffee Box. And you all know I don’t like the wheelchair but today I just accepted […]
Read More Coffee box!This YouTube video talks about awkward subjects in a wheelchair. Yes, I am learning to walk again and hopefully won’t need the chair forever but I took a lot of comfort and support from how open this girl is! 🙌🏻 hats off to you Emily you have really got yourself sorted 🙌🏻 http://www.youtube.com/watch https://youtu.be/pc2nCLFALIU
Read More Wheelchair subjects highlighted wellAs you may know the Belfast artist Glenn Hanna who was in the brain injury unit with me had kindly drawn me a portrait: Unfortunately this portrait got damaged so Glenn very kindly did me a new one! If anyone is interested in looking up this artist, his name is Glenn Hanna! https://instagram.com/glennhanna1975?igshid=1r9g2v69tfhkz
Read More Version 2:I need to remember all brain injuries are different. Don’t compare.
Read More You’ll shine when it’s your timeI did still life painting with the BIM art workshop today! The subject was some kind of fruit! I just went for green apples! …(cause going back to like 2k10 my name on MySpace was green apple girl) 🍏 After the art class i was in a painting mood so I decided to do a […]
Read More Apples and more for home!I was doing my art session with the artist Glenn Hanna who was in the Brain Injury unit with me. Today we were just focusing on choosing colours to represent what we wanted to put across: This was my abstract painting of my ‘hell’ of a brain injury journey…
Read More It’s hell!Had my shoulder x-rayed were I had hurt it. Had to wear a mask to go into the clinic. This is life for the foreseeable future! (Maybe I should look for a fashionable mask if there is such a thing!) On a better note my shoulder is fine just rest needed! Which will not be […]
Read More New look!This could make me cry today I’m so emotional. The mountain will still be there 😢 the mountains still seem like such a big climb.
Read More The mountains just seem so highMy dad sent me this, it’s so true and I’m guilty too! Take your head out of your phone and have a look around!
Read More Look aroundBeautifully said by the main man of the moment Dermot Kennedy. How he described Giants is just right for this time of the virus but for me it also describes this brain injury journey. ‘Change hurts’ ‘loss of youth’ ‘how time evidently changes things’ “Change hurts and growing hurts. Giants is a song about just […]
Read More Giants beautifully put.Trying not to be miserable at this time so looking through throwback to have a ‘memory’ of what life used to be. James and I enjoying ordinary life!
Read More #throwbacksundayMy super friend Sophie (the ot) who I used to see regularly every Friday night put this up on instagram ❤️ I really hope we get these times back. Times like this and her regular visits really helped me at the early days of recovery and continue to help me. Thank you so much Sophie. […]
Read More It will return!…(hopefully)you’re just different now and there’s nothing wrong with that – this was line spoken in the episode of Agents of Shield I was watching. I just thought it was very relative to me. I know I no longer feel like I know me. I might be a ‘new me’ That I don’t know but […]
Read More you’re just different now…My memory may not always be good now but I never let myself forget this:
Read More RememberYou may know I love painting. I think its so therapeutic and soothing! So today BIM (https://braininjurymatters.org.uk) had an online art class so I predictably joined in! I painted a wee rose tree! It was my new favourite brain injury colour – pink!
Read More Predictable but therapeuticJust if you are feeling fed up not being able to do anything this is a enjoyable wee video to take up some time listening to a nice set by Simon from Biffy Clyro! Just an idea which you can enjoy in your own time!
Read More here’s an idea…❤️ choice, chance and change ❤️ We have to make a choice, and sometimes take a chance, together these should lead to change. ❤️
Read More 3 Csand you become a different person – lines out of the magnetic documentary. It’s a documentary on extreme sporting activities eg. Skiing and surfing. But I thought I could connect this specific expression to this tbi experience. I had to grow mentally and subsequently have become a different version of myself. This blog is a […]
Read More You grow mentallyMy aunt just sent me this put up by @mattzhaig on Instagram. You are here. #thoughtprovoking
Read More Great to readhttp://www.youtube.com/watch You should know by now that I’m broken And I need your help. I’ve got a lot of rage and I’m struggling to control it
Read More Biffy❤️I was encouraged to give blow painting a go by an artist friend I made in hospital who I have blogged about before! Have a look at what he offers advertised on gumtree! But the main reason why I am writing this blog is he encouraged me to try blow painting so I did today […]
Read More Blow painting!Thank you Mr Dylan for confirming. Now I don’t feel so strange. EVERYTHING IS BROKEN
Read More Everything is brokenThis is quite a repetitive blog as it’s relating to what I last blog about the image: (Just a reminder though hopefully you won’t be need it) And hope has been my most faithful friend. Even through my worst times, hope never left.
Read More Faithful friend.New normal? I can’t remember very well what was old normal or just normal, nevermind ‘new normal’. Just in a low patch that seems to be on on a decline all the time. But then when I feel like that I give myself a shake and think there has been so many people in this […]
Read More Fed upToday I went and walked into and stood in my childhood bedroom! So good to do and stand in front of the big mirror in there (not to stand and admire myself 😂) but to stand and take in my standing totally alone, which is a big thing for Mrs. Tbi no balance! We weren’t […]
Read More Making memories!I feel like I got a bit serious in my last few blogs so here it goes back to light hearted. Sure if you can’t laugh what can you do? #braininjurylife
Read More Back to light heartedI painted a wolf in my BIM zoom art class today! I named him kitchi!
Read More Let me introduce Kitchi…1. Let go 2. Be grateful 3. Look forward to what’s coming… 🥰
Read More Great advice…I might not be going anywhere I can dress up for these days…(not been able to walk independently for the last 3 years, insecurity, world pandemic etc) but mum and I were talking today, and I was saying about feeling crappy. Mum said I never really say how bad I sometimes feel on this blog. […]
Read More Not dressed upYesterday was Father’s Day in the UK & Ireland. James, Alfie and I went on an exciting Father’s Day safari/trip to his parents house. Successfully introduced Alfie to the countryside! He loved it! 💞 Here’s Alfie and James looking smashing (as always) And me all dressed for our country safari adventure 😝
Read More Father’s Day Safari!http://www.youtube.com/watch Biffy ❤️ ..,And I’ll pray for the better days.
Read More This weight is crippling meSo don’t get hung up on what I do…
Read More It’s not for you9 years together! Best pint spilt over me ❤️ (James spilled a pint over me and we just started to chat!) So tonight we are having an anniversary dinner! Here’s to the next 9 years and beyond!!
Read More Best pint!But thought I should repeat it because I had a new device. I made turkey burgers again which I know I’ve blogged before but I got a new gadget to help me make them. I have to say it was super to work and help me form prefect burgers! 🍔 Whether you have 1 hand […]
Read More Defo repeat of manyToday in #BIM / #braininjurymatters we did a zoom art class. We had to paint somewhere we held close to our hearts/enjoyed. I chose Brighton Beach as I have family who live there so it was a holiday I was guaranteed every year and I loved it so much!
Read More Brighton BeachWinning! Maybe not straight away but I’m on my way to winning!
Read More Maybe not right away…I may have done a blog like this before so apologies in advance if I have but as the title says I’m living in dream land. Well correction nightmare land. I think this tbi has really made it hard to get to grips that THIS is my current (hopefully not permanent) reality. It feels real […]
Read More Living in dream land!http://www.youtube.com/watch I’m not giving up on me I’m not going down that easily Just don’t give up on me 😊
Read More Don’t give up on meThat’s what I called myself today cause I was very cheeky to my dear mum (lovely Linda) and she doesn’t at all deserve my anger. But I’m just angry because I can’t do as much as my pre-tbi self. YET. I don’t feel in control of my own life sometimes!
Read More Angry Bolt!I think I’m quite lucky with how I feel but I can relate to this and I struggle with some of the unseen things. #tbi #tbisurvivor #braininjury #struggle #pain #unseen #injury
Read More It’s invisible having an injured brain😂 possibly the best quarantine video in quarantine! Suppose some people won’t like it…but I found it very funny! Hopefully you will too!
Read More Got to laugh again!I think I’ve said this before but we really need to love ourselves. Not in the vain way that that the expression is normally used in in society. Really LOVE and CARE for ourselves. You are your only true fan after all, you’ll be ‘following’ in your story forever.
Read More Self loveI’m responsible for how I react to this situation. Don’t panic and be brave. (That’s what I’ve got to try and hold it together and do)
Read More ResponseI did something that won’t sound impressive but I think for my lack of movement and only one side really working it is! I was having breakfast and I was moving the phone holder and the phone hit the floor! And to make it even more challenging it was on my weak left side. As […]
Read More Ecstatic!my ‘going out’ make up aka staying in make up is on 🙌🏻🙌🏻 wooooo!
Read More Staying in makeup!!Very relaxing my lovely personal assistant Sarah gave me lovely foot rub today. (We are trying to encourage my left foot not to turn in) So today is in the truest fantastic Friday category! 1. Stretching/physio session with dad (robo) 2. Sarah (PA) lovely foot massage! 3. Zoom physio session with Q Victoria 👑 🙌🏻 […]
Read More Get your… feet out!You have so much (I had so much but I didn’t realize!)
Read More Pay attention!In BIM we are producting a film/animation thing as you may know, this is my wee animation of me! I decided not to include a wheelchair in my character, cause I’m very determined I won’t need it forever. (I hope I don’t eat my shorts by publishing myself saying this!)
Read More Eat my shorts!James’s words to me tonight 😂. I had asked him for a smaller glass as the big wine glass he had given me meant it was challenging for me to lift up and drink at the dinner table and that was his response “Look how much you’ve achieved with me not caring” And though that […]
Read More “Look how much you’ve achieved with me not caring”Very accurate. It’s sometimes painful #braininjury #accurate #tbi #explanation
Read More Spot on.I showed you my painting of a fox I did with BIM on zoom! I’ve got some laugh out of that fox! Sarah and I decided yesterday it was a bit like chicken. 😆😂 so a new creature has been created! Those bloody Ficken’s will haunt me!
Read More It’s a focken!For any of you who know Robert that title was just for dramatic effect and not real. He would NEVER give me that! Today in BIMs art zoom session we were looking at Iris Scott’s work and basing our work on theirs. Here’s my wee 🦊 fox based on Scott’s. I decided it could be […]
Read More Got daddy’s credit card!My lovely friend who I grew up with called Claire, now lives in England with her fiancé . So I’m delighted she has chosen to display one of my paintings in her home. Such a privileged from such a lovely girl. ❤️
Read More Appreciation!Yeah it’s hard but I’m still grateful to be here, 🤷🏻♀️eh? No point moping! #braininjurylife
Read More No moping!Probably not that big a deal but I ate my first apple not cut up successfully my coordination not as bad as I imagined!
Read More Probably not that big a deal…Leaning and standing in the back garden at home ❤️ (Alfie there to watch over me!) #home
Read More Trust Alfie!And that’s just what I decided to do! James and I decided to get an nice Indian meal for 2 from the lovely wee local restaurant that does takeaway too! http://www.shimlabelfast.co.uk The food is really tasty and good value. There’s definitely enough in the meal for two to feed about 4! So Robo will have […]
Read More It’s Saturday, take the night off!Repetitive as usual 🤷🏻♀️but eh…
Read More Success today!Had a great zoom physio with QV. Working on standing leaning against the wall. It’s challenging cause my brain automatically wants to push me back over when I try and push in and lean against the wall to not fall over and land on my bum! I want to stand up right!
Read More Feeling successful!I think it hasn’t been cleaned in 3 years….😆 Joke obviously! I don’t love cleaning and James has kept the place very clean! But I’ve never loved cleaning so much! Brushing and mopping the kitchen was not one of my top house things to do! But it’s so strange when you have lost the ability […]
Read More I love cleaning!We are different then we have similarities. You are not on your own.
Read More Different but together😦 I know my brain needs sleep and rest but it’s seems to be like a kid that’s had too much sugar and won’t settle down sometimes 😢
Read More Won’t settle sometimes.BIM organised something I REALLY love today! A wonderful art class, using zoom and taken by Daniela (https://danielabalmaverde.com) We studied and based our work on a smashing artist I hadn’t heard of before https://www.saatchiart.com/RikkaAYASAKI I really loved her style and I would be interested to use her as an influence in the future! Here’s my […]
Read More BIM art classApprox 25/6 years ago I never would imagine when I see that wee girl in approximately 25/7 years she would have to relearn how do most things again (walk/talk/learn how to live again) and Linda would still look just as good 😆❤️
Read More Flashback photos!Received this today from a lovely friend I made in hospital. (His sister is my mums neighbor too! One of the many small things to be tied to my musgrave brain injury unit experience!) He is a wonderful artist so I had an art lesson with him today through zoom video chat with cedar. He […]
Read More Very thoughtful 💗Dark sky is no good for vision 🌠 #cantsee
Read More Dark sky!I was talking to my friend Gemma this morning about this brain injury and being frustrated. Gemma said to me ‘it’s progression not perfection’ ❤️ I just loved that expression and it’s exactly correct. Always progression. Not perfection. Visit Gemma’s website https://gemmabromley.co.uk You can be like me and eagerly be waiting on her book release […]
Read More Progression not perfectionJames and I both love dogs. James always had family dogs when he was growing up and I still have the wee chibabies Sonny and Lola ❤️ So we always thought we would get a dog sometime. As James is working from home now and my recovery is moving forward. We thought now was a […]
Read More Our Alfie!Basically everyone who has ever been in my life. Whether it’s shown me love, taught me things, all of it the good, the bad and the ugly. Thank you. You’ve helped me become the person I am (and I quite like her, this is another thing the tbi has done cause me to struggle with […]
Read More #selfloveClear moon in a lockdown sky. Tranquility #lockdown2020
Read More Lockdown skyMum and I out for the final nhs clap! 👏🏼 thank you nhs ❤️ #nhs #thankyouGlad I could stand outside to clap to say thank you! If it was not for all those heroes I may not be here never mind standing outside! THANK YOU ALWAYS! #braininjury
Read More Thank you alwaysIt’s literally impossible to put into words. I think I am just crazy sad and frustrated. No point of this. Sadly no in-depth skills or strategy for recovery just wanted to vent and make a record so I clearly remember how much of a nightmare and challenge I was in in years to come.
Read More Recovery is SO HARDBack in mine and James’s house. Before this tbi stuff I was the main chef, as I love cooking! But tonight James showed his culinary skills! Also a nice day chilling with Alfie! ❤️
Read More Back again!As you know from my last blog, I am VERY close to my grandparents. Well today was a very special day! My glamorous granny’s 87th birthday! So my mum and I and James went to see her at her door and had a wee social distance party! We were even joined by other family members […]
Read More Special trip during lockdown!Day 10 The first place you’ll go when lockdown is over. My granny’s house. My grandparents looked after me every day from I was like 1 until I was like 13/14 so the bond is special. Apart from the period of time I was in hospital due to brain injury and obviously couldn’t leave when […]
Read More Day 10Heard on the radio this morning the uk has been in lockdown 87 days. Which is terrible. I never would have imagined times like this. Seriously scary. Will we ever get our lives back? But it made me think about my situation. I understand we are all different and I don’t want to seem that […]
Read More I’ve only lived in lockdownThat was me today! Making James and I lunch! Success! Used a one handed work station that I can say I couldn’t do it without having it so if you need help with your hands when cooking I would seriously advising one of these. You can get these online! https://www.nrshealthcare.co.uk/eating-drinking-aids/food-preparation/food-workstation?fee=19&fep=1491&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI_r-gnaPP6QIV0e3tCh0PEQqvEAQYASABEgLmn_D_BwE
Read More One handed master chef!Day 9. Something that makes you feel happy and safe! Well mine is probably quite predictable. It’s a person thing to meet the thing description ‘someTHING that makes you feel happy and safe’. James. ❤️ He’s makes me very happy most of the time (I’m not gonna be unrealistic I don’t think any couple can […]
Read More Day 9: something that makes you feel happy and safeThis was me walking when I first got discharged from hospital. Not only have I got better at moving my limbs but I’ve lost like a stone in weight which is a lot for wee 4’11ft me!
Read More Day 8: a milestone in your recoveryDay 7: a beautiful view This is the view outside my bedroom window at my own house. It wouldn’t be beautiful to a lot of people but it’s beautiful to me. I hope I get my life back on track in the next year and I can move home full time.
Read More Day 7: a beautiful viewThis was quite an easy one for me. It’s definitely my friend, Gemma Bromley, who I only know because of this brain injury stuff. In the early days of this brain injury journey so when I first got home from hospital I was searching the internet for hope. I came across Gemma on Instagram and […]
Read More Day 6 – a person who inspires you